Honkai: Star Rail: After I Die, I Forge Their Madness
First Life: Ruan Mei’s Student
In his first life, Qi Zhimu was a student of Ruan Mei.
“You’ve graduated. Leave. Until my research is complete, I won’t see you again.”
“Yes… Teacher.”
Qi Zhimu left alone—but he didn’t go far. He returned to the place they once knew and lived there in seclusion.
From then on, he sent her plum-blossom wine once a year—never intruding, never disturbing her.
Until the day he died of old age, he still did not live to see Ruan Mei emerge from her forbidden research.
Much later, when she finally stepped out of the laboratory, she learned that Qi Zhimu had long since passed away. In that instant, she realized—almost as if waking from a dream—
Her world had already been filled with his shadow… everywhere.
When she uncovered the truth of the past, she finally understood: she herself had created it all with her own hands—only to bury everything in the end.
Second Life: Jingliu’s Master
In his second life, Qi Zhimu became Jingliu’s master.
“Master… why have you never once been willing to look at me?”
“Master… why is there no place for me in the softest part of your heart?”
Day by day, she drew closer. Day by day, despair hollowed her out—until closeness turned into darkness, and longing curdled into obsession.
Only when she witnessed Qi Zhimu’s death did she finally understand—
The softest place in his heart had always been her.
“Heh… hehehe… Master, you deceived your disciple so cruelly…”
Third Life…
Qi Zhimu respects the laws of reincarnation. He faces every death with calm acceptance.
He lives openly. He dies unafraid. He carries no fixation, no lingering regrets—untouched by sorrow, unstained by grief.
But the women left behind—burned by remorse and condemned to a lifetime of “almost”—do not see it the same way.
Table of contents
- 1Chapter 1: Imminent Death2026-02-18 00:51
- 2Chapter 2 — The Things of Yesterday2026-02-18 03:53
- 3Chapter 3 — A Love Reading2026-02-18 06:53
- 4Chapter 4 — Where My Heart Belongs2026-02-18 09:53
- 5Chapter 5: Save Some of Your Gentleness for Yourself2026-02-19 03:05
- 6Chapter 6: Life Is a Winding Labyrinth2026-02-19 06:05
- 7Chapter 7: Why Forget?2026-02-19 09:05
- 8Chapter 8: An Early Visit2026-02-21 01:38
- 9Chapter 9: How to Understand2026-02-21 04:38
- 10Chapter 10: Pessimism2026-02-21 07:38
- 11Chapter 11: He’s Short-Lived, Unlike You2026-02-23 04:15
- 12Chapter 12: A-Mu Went Too Far2026-02-23 07:15
- 13Chapter 13: I Didn’t Do Anything Wrong, So How Could I Regret It?2026-02-23 10:15
- 14Chapter 14: It Was Never Fair2026-03-18 05:14
- 15Chapter 15: Worsening2026-03-18 08:15
- 16Chapter 16: 9 Days 4 Hours 44 Minutes 35 Seconds2026-03-18 11:15
- 17Chapter 17: Picking Plum Blossoms2026-04-23 18:34
- 18Chapter 18: A Silent Farewell2026-04-24 03:36
- 19Chapter 19: See You Next Time2026-04-24 06:36
- 20Chapter 20: Because There Are No Regrets, There’s No Attachment2026-04-24 09:36
- 21Chapter 21: Liar!2026-04-25 03:36
- 22Chapter 22: One Day2026-04-25 06:36
- 23Chapter 23: Stars2026-04-25 09:36
- 24Chapter 24: Unaware2026-05-21 10:06
- 25Chapter 25: The Boy From Then Cannot Be Found Again2026-05-21 13:06
- 26Chapter 26: Erasure2026-05-21 16:06
- 27Chapter 27: The End of the Long Trek2026-05-22 10:06
- 28Chapter 28: Yu Qingtu and Black Swan2026-05-22 13:06
- 29Chapter 29: Six Hundred2026-05-22 16:07
- 30Chapter 30: Why Must Even You Betray Me?2026-06-22 02:39
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