"I really hoped this would be the one place where I could get away from all the insults, mockery and abuse..." I sigh out, getting the usual addition to the unending demands of silence I've been getting. Can't shuffle from my chair, pick up a tablet or just let my body be my body. Everyone's demanding my silence as if it's possible at all.
One would think the whole idea of 'silence in the library' would stop this nonsense. But no, turns out that once again in my life, I am wrong. Can't even use the library without having some kind of problem come out of it. The big famous rule is only enforced against me, and I can't even get the help of the staff for basic library functions...
No point in trying the queues because it will just be the cafeteria all over again. Yet, I can't even do anything on my own, either. The staff are looking for any excuses they can to not help me. I tried to get some tablets on my own from one of these many high-rising shelves, and they immediately threatened to expel me over nothing...
At the very least, I can grab some things without problem. Shame that I need to go to one of the front desks to get this over with. It doesn't take long for me to find my way to the front of an impatient queue that's sprung out of nowhere. All to take out a damn tablet about magical theory that's already hard enough to find given my illiteracy and Rose-sweerui's growing distance.
It's hard enough trying to explain what I'm looking for with how little I know of the subject. Certainly doesn't help either that the librarian or whatever she is keeps sneering at me. Mocking mimicry moves her lips about the entire time. But, gods above and all that is to be thankful for, I finally get what I want and I can now go off and hide as well as I physically can.
"Keep yourself within eyeshot, Bug!" a member of staff hisses at me as I head off and away. All before I can even make it to the first hastily vacated table. I sit down at it, almost throwing myself into the chair as a heavy sigh breaks open my mouth. The usual happens, and my eyes roll as my patience cracks across my expression.
My eyes focus, and I go through the tablet, noting what I can from the diagrams scrawled and painted into its magically transforming surface. I guess there's a good thing I can take from all of my time at this damn Academy. Not knowing how to read this language keeps my brain healthy, it keeps me thinking. It helps keep me mentally fit-
"Why do you even let it in here?" someone asks way too loudly, catching my attention as it's no doubt about... Yep.
"We have to, so take it up with the next Council of Suhurlodst Academy Staff Convergence," one library staff member says to the vilely curious student.
"Oh, I'll make sure to alright. Get this thing back where it belongs." the student snorts, her hand flexing in a way that has a spell almost come on through. The staff member stops her, some degree of justice still existing in this shithole. Though she's no doubt more concerned about the tablets and the table.
"Good luck with that. You'll most certainly need it given it was someone's stupid idea to make it so an overwhelming majority is needed to get anything done," the staff member remarks, piquing my curiosity in such a strange manner. Majority consensus? Frihdeicalkbr was a part of a majority consensus to let me be a student?
What kind of majority consensus lets someone join and then turns a blind eye to attempted murder!?
"But why would we change it? It has worked out quite well for us!" the student goes, her belief in the system certainly easy to see.
"Look at what it has put on our doorstep!" the staff member quite rightly goes, and I roll my eyes again, rising with as much table-scraping force as I can. I push the damn wooden thing out of place some more, hopefully scraping up the carpet and damaging the varnish. I can leave whenever I want.
"HEY! You can't take that!" a member of staff tries to scream at me as I march for the library's exit. She approaches me, a backing of students and other staff watching as she storms on up. A snarl breaks across my face in an instant, and I twist to face her, shoulders hunched and free claw curled and ready.
"THEN WHY DON'T YOU TRY AND TAKE IT FROM ME!?" I roar right at her when she's close enough. My magic flares up and out, shaking the shelves and clogging the end of the room. She spontaneously drops, back-crawling away with utter terror in her eyes. I walk her way, eyeing the guard near the desk as the aim their weapon as a warning...
But they don't fire.
A slight smirk finds its way to my enraged features. They'll threaten me all day, every day. Shoot blanks and intentional misses... But when push comes to shove, they'll actually hold their ground with proper trigger discipline!?
I maintain the growl and rage-filled stare for a little while, and I stand straight. The anger washing from my mind suddenly as I become just as calm. Like an overflowing steam pipe that's just been shut nice and tight at the valve. No hissing at all.
I snort my contempt and twist and leave. Reaching the clear outdoors, I go on off to an outside table to sit at so I can carry on with my sorry excuse for work. The bench thunders on as I find my spot, and my arms are awfully shakey with the tablet. I lay it out on the table, flicking through it some more as I find myself completely lacking finesse.
"Now... Hopefully. Hopefully... Hopefully we can do this in peace. Because my time to get my education up to the test-passing par is disappearing quite rapidly, and I've not even touched anything directly spell-related!" I let out in one awful, high-pitched go as I bottle the stress up.
Oh... I'm only a little worried about it, after all...