Breathing was unstable, trembling hands slowly went to my mouth to stop me from saying anything. Legs couldn't move, as I saw Nash right in front of me.
"Ashleah?" I didn't know why but when he called me,it sent shivers down my spine, I tried my best to avoid any eye contact with him. I tried. He slowly walked closer to me, I was scared and sad at the same and I don't even know why.
"Where were you, Nash?" I asked him and that's what made him froze on the spot. 'Answer me, please don't lie to me!" My voice cracked as I shouted at him, I noticed that the necklace was nowhere to be found right now.
"I already told you right? I am not involved with these killings." He explained, I shook my head furiously. I wanted a whole goddamn explanation, not like this! "Ashleah please, hey calm down." Nash said, trying to hold my hands, I quickly pushed him away.
Confused, frustrated, and sad. Tears streamed down my face as his eyes slowly started to widen. I couldn't control my feelings it felt like I've seen this happen before but I just can't remember it but the pain is here.
The unexplainable pain was there every single time I see him in this kind of state. It feels like Nash doesn't like this too, but what? I just can't understand myself right now! I held Nash's collar and that made him more shocked than he was earlier.
"Ever since you came, everything changed. Every single thing Nash." I said while looking directly at his red eyes that was trying its best to avoid mine. "Stop avoiding my gaze! Just who are you?" I asked him, I saw how he slowly gulped.
"I-" before he can even finish what he was saying we both heard the school bell ringing and after that there was an announcement, I pulled away and listened.
'Everyone please do calm down and just get your stuff before going out the school, we just contacted the police, we are so sorry that we made you, our students go to school when there's a crisis happening. Please stay at home.'
I glanced at Nash and sighed "I'm sorry, I was just shocked about what's happening." I said and was going to walk away from him but he held my wrist, I looked at him but he was just looking down, I can sense his nervousness.
"It's really not the right time for this Ashleah but-" he looked up and my eyes grew bigger when I saw that he was in the verge of tears, he was just trying his best to refrain himself from crying. "It'll be alright. Soon." He said before smiling and walking away.
Leaving me there, shocked and confused. I stared at his back moving further away, it felt like my heart was torn into pieces. Why is this happening? I just met him! But I feel like I've known him for years. "I'm going to try my best to know what's happening, Nash!" I shouted, I heard him chuckle.
Without looking back he responded with "You never change Princess Izel." I felt that my heart skipped a beat when he called me using my second name but after that I was confused when he called me.. princess?
I was just a mere human being with a freaking crazy jerk friend-- of course I was talking about Nash. I sighed, now that there's two people that died, that guy and Ms. Millar, who's the killer?
Quiet. It was so quiet inside my room, mom and dad showered me with questions when they heard the news about Ms. Millar but everything was too fast for me that I couldn't even utter a single word in front of them.
I was sitting at the dark corner inside my room, hugging my knees as I was staring at the floor. It was like my brain wasn't functioning properly. I couldn't cry even tho Ms. Millar treated me unfairly like the other students, she was still my teacher since my first year of high school.
Now that I'm on my second year and we've lost her, I remember those times that she was so excited seeing us finishing high school and achieving our dreams. It was so true that we can never tell when and where a person dies.
It just feels so sad and unfair because sometimes when that person is gone, you'd finally realize that you've lost all your chances to have fun with them or appreciate them. I shut my eyes tightly and sighed, but when I closed my eyes what I saw was Nash's teary eyes.
He told me that it wasn't the right time, so when will that right time happen? or will it ever happen? He was always saying sorry and telling me sincerely that he was always late. He was never late and why did he call me Princess?
My heart was beating loudly, it was the only thing that I can hear inside this room that was consumed by silence. My eyes traveled around the room until I saw my picture when I was 5 or 6? I was wearing a dress and was smiling widely in front of the camera.
'Princess! Oh my gosh what are you doing there?!'
I blinked my eyes, it felt like I was day dreaming because I saw an image of a blurry woman, who was she calling princess? Was it me? Impossible! I guess I was just shocked, yeah. I should just sleep and call it a day.
'Princess Izel, please don't eat too much chocolates! His Majesty will get mad at you'
'Father.. will get mad at me?' her eyes are now teary as she sniffled slowly.'
'Oh my, our lovely princess. Please don't be sad.' The blurry woman's face carried the girl who was now in the verge of crying.
'But.. you told me that Father might get mad at me when Izel eats chocolates.. But Izel loves eating chocolates!' The small girl looked down, but when she heard the door opening she quickly looked back. Her eyes glimmered as she looked at the man in front of her.
'Izel, why are you pouting like that?' The man right in front of the girl was her father. She giggled and ran up to her father, hugging his legs. 'Hmm, stop pouting you look ugly.'
'Father, you look ugly too! hmmp.' She heard how the nanny chuckled lightly, her father slowly picking her up, smirked.
'Ah, my dear daughter is now all grown up.' he said before patting her head lightly. 'My dearest Princess Izel, if there will be a time that you don't know what to do, just call my name. Father will always come running to you.'
'Of course! Izel won't leave father's side!' She giggled before hugging her father tightly.
My eyes shut wide open, I touched my cheek and I noticed that I was crying, was it because of my dream? I looked at the clock and it was only 4 in the morning.
I sighed and tried wiping the tears away but it continued flowing down my cheeks as I felt a sharp pain across my chest.
It hurts, everyone in my dream was blurry but their voices were crystal clear. Why did it feel like I've seen them before? I wanted that hug to last so goddamn long.
They were calling that girl, Izel.. My second name, but why.. I shouldn't be this too affected! It's just a dream. A dream.
While convincing myself that everything was just a dream, I hugged my pillow tightly and cried. My heart felt like it was being torn into pieces.
As I was crying, I suddenly remembered Nash's face earlier. The tears that were forming inside the corner of his eyes, and how sincere he was.
He even called me 'Princess Izel' just like that girl inside my dream. I tried closing my eyes but suddenly I saw someone.
'Izel, please don't go with him.'
'Father.. I'm sorry.'
'Ashleah Izel! Please.'
'I love you Father. Goodbye'
'Father will always be by your side. Call me when you need me Izel.'
I quickly opened my eyes, and there it was again the pain. Why? Why did that girl leave his father?! And what does he mean don't go with him?!
"F-Father" I didn't know why but I suddenly blurted it out, and I smiled lightly before looking outisde my window, and I saw how the moon was shining brightly tonight.
'Will always be by your side' It felt like I was hit by a truck or what, but I didn't know why it made me think that it was for me.
I looked back and tears still continued streaming down my face. The pain was just too much for me.