I feel deeply deceived and hurt! At that moment, I really wanted to strangle her; if I just moved my hand down a little and used some force, she would die in my hands!
But, seeing her distressed little face, her lips constantly groaning in pain, I couldn't bring myself to do it and instead vented all my anger onto her!
Even when she cried and pleaded for mercy again and again, I did not let her go!
When she was about to faint from being unable to take it anymore, only after I had vented all my anger did I finally stop all my actions!
Clearly a moment ago, I hated her so much, hated her for deceiving me! But, seeing her utterly exhausted, lying on the bed, I felt pity in my heart, smoked a cigarette, and then went to the bathroom to fill the bathtub with water before carefully washing her!
After cleaning her body, I changed the sheets to a set of clean ones and only then did I hold her as we fell asleep on the bed!
