Before leaving, the Golden God told Alex that the position for him in the peace envoy would always be open. Should he ever change his decision, he would be allowed regardless of what the others said.
Alex was thankful for that, but he was pretty certain that he would not be changing his mind. At least, he thought he was certain.
The vacant spot made him question his decision and he still wasn't sure if he would be going or not. His mind kept going back and forth on the topic.
While every other part of him told him not to go, the thought that he could get to see Shumi again was an overwhelming force for the other side of his dilemma. At this point, he doubted he would be needed to act as a means of keeping peace between the two sides.
In the first place, half the gods there wouldn't even listen to him, and may even actively work against whatever he said, so he couldn't even work as a liaison between the two. He would really only be going as nothing but a person with a title.
