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Chapter 67 - Careful Instead of Fast

"That's not a plan," Camaro said. "That's a weather report."

"It's the honest version of where we stand," Taisen said, "before I let anyone in this room mistake urgency for direction. I'd rather we sit with how little we actually have for five uncomfortable minutes than spend the next five days chasing the first idea that feels like motion because motion feels better than sitting still. I've watched men die that way before, in a different life, in a body that isn't this one. Mistaking speed for progress is one of the oldest ways a competent person gets themselves killed, and I don't intend to relearn that lesson at this particular cost."

Nobody argued that. Swan set the stylus down, finally, and laced his fingers together instead, visibly working to still them, his knee bouncing once under the table before he caught that too and stilled it.

"Start with what we can't do," Alita said, into the quiet, "and maybe the shape of what we can do gets easier to see standing next to it. That's how Truby structures a scene, when a story's stuck: you don't ask what the character wants first. You ask what's actually in the room stopping them, and let the want reveal itself against the wall it's hitting." She caught herself, faintly embarrassed at the sudden lecture, and pressed on before anyone could remark on it. "I'm sorry. It helps me to think that way. Old habit."

"It's a good habit," Taisen said. "Keep it."

Camaro, at the far end of the table, made a small sound that wasn't quite a laugh, dry and short, gone almost before it landed. "First time in a month I've heard someone quote a book at a tactical briefing and have it actually be useful," she said. "Don't let it go to your head, Ensign."

"I won't," Alita said, and something in her face, caught between embarrassment and the beginning of a real smile, suggested she might not entirely manage that.

"Fine," Lyn said. "We can't fly to Fleet Command and start asking questions. We're not supposed to exist right now, not in any official capacity that would survive a records check, and the moment we show up anywhere near a Command annex asking about Anand, Oyelaran, or Farrow by name, we've told whoever's watching exactly what we know and exactly how far we've gotten, which is nowhere, which is the worst possible moment to announce you're looking."

"We can't approach any of the three directly, even quietly," Swan said. "Zhang himself was watching all three of them from inside the trust circle and it still got him taken. If we try it from outside that circle, with none of his standing and none of his cover, we're not investigators. We're a target painted on our own hull, and we don't even have the good sense to know which direction the shot's coming from."

"We can't trust any official channel to carry a request without it being seen," Camaro said. "If the leak's protecting itself now, that means somebody with real access is watching Fleet's own internal traffic, at least around Zhang's old office, closely enough to catch a man who spent eleven years running that trust circle without ever getting caught until this exact moment. That's not a careless mole. That's someone good enough to notice a routine records query and recognize it for what it actually is before it's even finished processing."

"And we can't sit here doing nothing while we work out the rest of it," Alita finished, "because every hour we spend deciding how to look is an hour whoever has him gets to keep doing whatever they're doing to him, and I don't think any of us can carry that particular math patiently for very long before it starts to feel like its own kind of cruelty."

Taisen looked around the table at all of it laid out plain, the whole shape of the problem sitting in the room with them like a fifth presence nobody had invited, uninvited and unwelcome and entirely unwilling to leave until it had been properly reckoned with, and something in his face, when he spoke again, had settled into the particular quality it took on when he'd stopped weighing a decision and started standing inside one.

"Then we don't start with people," he said. "We start with paper. Records, movement, requisitions, anything that leaves a trace a person can't take back once it's made. We already tried that once, over the archive work Alita and Swan did on the Reza intercept timing, and it gave us something, even if it wasn't enough on its own. We do more of that. Slower. Wider. And we do it in a way that never once puts a name from Zhang's list into a query string, because the moment it does, we've handed whoever's watching the exact same warning we're trying so hard to avoid giving them."

Lyn's jaw tightened, the small, familiar tell of a woman biting down on an objection she'd already half decided not to make.

"That's not fast," Lyn said.

"No," Taisen said. "It's careful. I would rather be careful and slow than fast and dead, Colonel, and I suspect, given a moment to actually think about it rather than react to how badly you want this solved tonight, you'd rather that too."

Lyn held his eyes a moment, and something in her shoulders came down, fractionally, the particular concession of a woman who hated being right about wanting to argue and hated being wrong even more.

"I would," she admitted. "I don't have to enjoy admitting it."

"Nobody's asking you to enjoy it," Taisen said, and there was something almost gentle in it, the closest thing to warmth he'd offered anyone all evening. "Only to live with it a while, the way the rest of us are going to have to."

Lyn held his eyes a moment longer than the exchange strictly required, something unreadable passing behind her own careful composure, and then looked away, back to the plot, back to the small, patient work of a woman who had decided, somewhere in the last month without ever quite announcing it to herself, that being right about her own worry mattered a great deal less than being useful anyway. "Then let's get to work being careful," she said, "before careful stops being an option any of us still have."

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