After kin left i couldn't bring myself to tell the kids, so i lied and told them that he is busy so he went to the capital to take care of his job, i've tried my best to hide it , the war has started it's been a week, i decided to go check every day the list of the dead people to make sure his fine , a month , two, six, nine, no a year has passed, it's the worst year ever, we celebrate Emilia's birthday yesterday, when she was blowing the candle she wished for kin to come back , that idiot, Cecilia and sidar think they can hide it but they miss him too , i've caught them crying more than once ,just wanting to see his face, hidar is in his worst condition, he thinks kin abandoned him , he stopped talking after six months, i, on the other hand, ...am fine , no i'm actually not fine i'm suffering without him , i loved that man ,and i ignored my feelings for so long, i want to die , and seeing my babies like that make me hate my self even more , i knew that war was gonna start and i didn't stop it ,i could have and i should have .
A month late the news came to our town the war ended ,we won , it felt so unreal , it was supposed to be ten years ,i waited after the announcement for days which turned to weeks then and month passed, kin never came back , he abandoned us completely, that liar , after waiting again for several hours in the train station, i went home , when i got there it was strangely quite, emilia was drawing on the table next to hidar ,
" where are your siblings honey ? " I asked , walking to the kitchen after kissing them, " they went somewhere, ceci said she left a note for you ," Emilia said , a note ,so unusual from her , here it is , * mama don't be mad we will be back soon,* the hell," when did they leave ?" " A couples of hours ago ," she said answering my question, " mama is going out for some time i'll be back , be safe " what the hell do they mean ,get dad back, he left ,he is in the northern empire probably, what are an 11 year old and a 13 year old are gonna do in a contient full with monsters, demons and dragons, humans aren't that nice too , didn't they think before they did this ,what if your dad don't want to be back what if he has a family there , i got to the train station and ran to the cashier," have you seen to young kids , a girl and a boy ....." " I have , they rode the water train to get to Denis ," how could he sell them those tickets, they are kids for crying out loud, he was talking so carelessly ,i was gonna attack him on the spot, when emilia held me back , she was crying, barefooted ," baby ,what happened, mama here calm down," i said hugging her as she said " ma.. ma ,hidar is in pain ," i felt my world breaks , i couldn't bring my self to think i just ran back home as fast as could , how could i leave two children along in the house? i'm a bad mother , what do i do ? I was running with my baby in my arms, my feet hurts ,fuck , why ?just why ? I could finally see my house, it was on fire , heck no hidar is still in there , i let emilia outside and said " baby , go bring auntie, you know ,the one with brown hair and , oh my, just go there ,don't come back okay ," Emilia was crying, but i've send her out of here, i entered to see fire every where the floor was complet lava , it burns i walked in there screaming,
" Hidar, baby, answer mama, honey..."