It was once you who told me that there could never be anything between us, yet you still came to my side. If I had known earlier that it would end up like this, maybe it wouldn't have hurt so much.
"Do you really think I don't want to let go of all this pain? It's not that I don't want to let those things go; it's that I really can't. I've had to endure all the pain deep in my heart, time and time again. All I want is a peaceful life, but my life is repeatedly thrown into chaos. Can I not blame anyone for that? Am I supposed to willingly endure all this suffering? I watch helplessly as everything changes before my eyes, as the people I care about are taken away from me. Do you know how much that hurts? No one has ever thought about how piercing that pain is. You all think the decisions you make are right, but what about me? Am I supposed to deserve being abandoned by you, my parents, again and again, to be hurt time and time again?
