When I could only bury my head and cry bitterly, I realized I was the only one still struggling in a past dream; it turns out I deserved all of this.
Zhang Zhentian understood what his wife truly thought deep down, but there were things he really couldn't express aloud. Everyone has their own dignity and face, and every action they take affects them, with equal costs. No one is willing, and he lives on time after time. Is it really that exhausting to live? Why can't he find the life he desires? Why has his life been so unbearably bitter? Even though he knows how it will end, he's ultimately engulfed by pain, living in it forever with no reprieve.
Xia Jing sensed Zhang Zhentian's feelings, realizing she maybe shouldn't have been so blunt, that it might really harm the family's harmony. She apologized to her father-in-law.
