I haven't reached hysterics, it's just that I'm still in a situation of unattainable longing.
"Do you think I don't want to? All these years I've been trying to let go, to forget about you, to stop keeping you in my heart, but I have never been able to forget you. Do you know how desperate that feels? I also want to start a new life, but your shadow and your smile linger in my mind every day, and I can't make them disappear.
For you, I've waited so many years, but what about you? You got married early and had children, but I don't mind, I only want to have you!"
