I'm taking a break from writing. It basically means I'm pausing/dropping the story cause, if I'm being honest, I'm just tired of it. It's just a lot and I know that its probably cause of how stupid long I made the chapters and I could've done better pacing myself. But writing sucks now. I think I just got to this point where I dread having to writing and keep up with this demand. Also, it ain't like this fic is a huge thing, but a more niche thing. I also did this as a way to get better at writing and I think I did that. I really got what I wanted when I started this fic, it's just I'm upset at how unmotivated I am to really finish it. I thought along the way, if I could get better at convicing the reader Ricky was a good mc, that it would all be worth it. But I regret making such a complicated character as my first ever mc. I mean, he's hilarous, but it was hard to convince the reader he was worth it. Like fuck, I really made him just the absolute worst but did good when I brought him back into someone people actually enjoy. But man, some people just didn't want to wait that long and I didn't understand that until after I finally finished his character devolpment. Mostly, this fic was about putting everything I ever wanted from other stories I read into my own plot. Like, having male subordinates or to make the side characters imperfect while putting in some fun aspects. Idk, I'm not ashamed of my story or anything like that since writing a smut fic was dope. It's just I wanted it be more than it is and I'm dissapointed that I couldn't get it there. Anyways, to summarize, I don't enjoy writing anymore cause it's a pain and I'm sorry if you really loved this story.
-LaughingFiend