Cover story 47: The next recruit
The doctor sinned from arson, too blatant murder, no plan but the man hidden behind the walls was Neova waiting watching him slip up. And as he bullied killed the family of the recruit hung around like ornaments, the doctor fell right before his big speech.
I guess he really needed a break
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I sat there on the ground talking to the trash as if she could hear me. And then I ask will I ever change, I won the game the vaccine is gone and so on but I didn't want to budge. I envied cowardice, because it was the one change that I could go through, I didn't need to change and I didn't know how. As the audience slowly looked up at the stage, a boy was sitting there where he shouldn't have been. I shouldn't be this sad, this was only a step in my story, a step of poetry and yet guy who wrote me here in this life was standing watching me right back telling me how I have no face. Yet I could look him dead in the eyes, tell him I matter only for him to tell me I will never change. Biology never changes, he told me, "he wanted someone who doesn't have a motive, not a believable one, hence I could not change just be a coward because being a coward isn't change but the inaction to commit to change and therefore my future but not a change in me".
As I saw the people walk past me, looking at a man too drunk he almost looks passed away, all I saw wasn't the future but the fact people were inclosed in boxes. A part of me knew he wanted me to see that, but he wasn't death, he knew it as well as I ever did and he couldn't kill me. I didn't ask anything to a man that could only offer me a straight path forward, I had the choice to follow that path or say no.
"If I can't change I choose not to change but to be a coward, not reach the end even if that is the path you chosen for me", I said, but no words came out.
"As I now look at the bathroom in pitch black staring at the open door and its dark abyss, all I can think of is the dark abyss and what it could be holding in it, but not moving out of my own cowardice", ...
"If the only change I can offer my own sollace is my revenge I choose not to hate Malfonz ... but that's a lie", I said.
"I therefore choose to be a coward so I can stop facing that lie", I didn't change, but I chose to lie and to not face it because of cowardice. Fin.