No women in this book hit my heart harder than the one woman I do plan to love. She lies in the myriad lines of creation, and I await her gladly with all my happiness as an intense pursuer of romantic heart.
I see life in three lines- fate, destiny and the mortal/immortal.
Fate is the tapestry that connects all with the laws of 'Karma.' For example, you hurt me socially and publicly in another life. So in this life, it is my turn to do the same.
But it plays out along the line of destiny. If I am fated to hurt you socially and publicly, I can hurt you by calling you a no-good bastard in front of everyone and proving it with photos. Or I can fuck you in the ass in front of everyone, ripping apart your social credibility as it stands.
But as long as both things serve the same weight in your heart, our shared destiny can be brought along on either path, and I can assume the role I wish. If getting shamed publicly as a bastard hurts more, the only way left… Is to find another way.
In this life, at least, I'm a one-woman guy.
These two lines of fate and destiny curve and intertwine, leaving the most likely at any time that hurts our sensibilities least as our path we walk in life. Sometimes, for some people, there is little left to pay- and we can eventually move forward with our lives, and 'ascend' because (please no).
I'm hurt. So, so hurt. I see the line of the immortal soul- my dreams upon dreams, the amalgamation of the many lives I've lived before- and my mortal soul- filled with my present pain and boundless optimism in the face of darkness.
Sidebar.
I'll never personally believe in truly ditching a woman in life for another. If you struggle with this in life, I hope this book gives you the same reprieve it does me, and that you can pass your given fate here in this destiny instead of passing it by hurting the one that loves you most.
This book allows people to see what could be called the inner darkness of my heart. Do I wish to be dark? No. Do I wish to be nothing but a saint? If I could, yes- but no matter how hard I try I cannot.
Human life is a path of duality, and such, we must choose where to plant our flags. Personally, at this time regarding where I have set my flag and the kingly nature I radiate like a foghorn: how else can I reach out to people and love them but by going through the same lives they are forced through- and instead to make the difficult choice and belittle my darkness in order to love those around me?
Attaining the greatest knowledge of darkness and light, whilst allowing myself to stay in the light towards others, allows me to help those around me and truly understand them. I want to help all people, and not hurt them.
To you, the reader, may this story be a blessing for you.
It is a story of me taking some of my deepest darkness, lust, and folly, and painting it into a place that holds itself apart from reality.
The biggest story that a man can create in this world is not that of someone who loves from the light- but that someone who gets thrown into deep and powerful darkness unswervingly chooses to pursue the light with every fiber of his being. And who uses all darkness for the purpose of light and order.