Alvarcus's Lab
"That is it!" I roar at the infernal seal before me. It failed. It failed horribly, not even a single part of the intricate seal worked. For the thirty seventh time in a row. I've gone through thirty seven different designs and not even a single part of one worked. "You absolute piece of maggot infested shit! I have had enough!"
I sweep an arm across the tabletop knocking everything to the ground. Many scrolls fall to the floor, ink jars and sealing brushes fall too. Even the neat stacks of sealing tags I had stacked only just this morning are fluttering through the air on their way down.
"I am done! Done!" In my rage I flip over the table, just knocking the stuff off of it isn't enough. "I am tired of my life dumping heaping mounds of garbage all over me! I am fed up with everything going wrong! I don't fucking care anymore!"
"Oh hey kid that I pulled out of the clutches of Death himself, here have a kinjutsu!" I don't stop at one table, I sweep everything off of the next one too. "You lived? Guess what I'm adopting you in the most fucked up way possible! You don't want to come? Too bad, I'll just murder everyone you care about!"
"Hey Alvarcus it's your best friend!" This table goes flying too. "You know that dude that royally fucked up your entire existence? Yeah I'm going to go be his student! You should come with me! You don't want to? But I need you, just look at these puppy dog eyes!"
"Cue months of ongoing torture! Months!" I don't waste time sweeping the beakers off of the next table. I just flip it. "Hi Gina! CRACK! Bye Gina! Sup gate guard boy! Oh you're gone too! Hello Tayuya, you seem nice I think something might be going my way! Haha NOPE! I don't get to enjoy things in life!"
"Sup Tsunade, Kakashi and company! Guess what I'm going to do?" I've ran out of tables to flip. I'm stomping on them now, grinding them to a dust. "See every single one of my friends laying at my feet? The ones that I just beat into submission and baited them to try and force me back to Konoha because that's the only way I will go back? Yeah I'm going to threaten to kill them TO GO BACK WITH FUCKING OROCHIMARU!"
"I! Am! Done! With! This! Shit!" Each word is punctuated with a stomp. "And let's just sprinkle whatever the fuck is going on with the Akatsuki on top! Muffins?! They all like me? I've been asked to join if I become S-rank? THE FUCK IS THAT ALL ABOUT! I don't know what's going on anymore! And I don't fucking care enough to figure it out!"
I lash out with my fire whips and reduce a table to ashes. Stomping wasn't cutting it.
"And the worst fucking part is I'm not going to change a damn thing about my situation! I'm here by choice because I'm too soft to leave Sasuke behind by himself! I JUST WANT TO GET AWAY FROM IT ALL!" I roar up at the ceiling.
"I want to be alone." My voice softens to a pathetic whine and I collapse to my knees. "No more Orochimaru. No more Otogakure. No more Konoha. No more schemes. No more torture. No more Akatsuki. No more Sasuke. I just want to be alone. Just for a bit. That's all I want. To get away from it all. I want to be alone."
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Orochimaru's Lab
"OI!" I pound on the door. "You in here?"
"What?" Orochimaru hisses through the door. "I am busy!"
"That's fine I'll make this quick." I happily skip into the office like I didn't just have a meltdown.
I'm playing Orochimaru. I'm acting like I normally am because I need to get away. The easiest way to accomplish that is to go on a mission of sorts. I do that by acting like nothing is wrong and having Orochimaru give me permission. As much as I hate it I do need him to okay things like this.
For now.
So like I said I'm playing him. I'm going to manipulate him to get what I want.
"Please come in."Orochimaru sarcastically says. "It's not like I have other things to do, let me drop everything to help you."
"Hey you enjoyed it last time I came here." I point out. "We had a whole bonding moment. It was cute. If you ignore all the screams and blood splatters."
"Yes, we did enjoy ourselves." Orochimaru smiles fondly on his memories.
"Sorry but this visit isn't as... memorable? That doesn't sound right. Eventful? Unexpected? You know what just insert whatever word you want to there." I fumble around like usual. I'm acting completely normal.
Normal for me at least. Which is weird for most other people.
"Oh?" Orochimaru finally gives me his full attention. "And what do you want this time?"
"You said you found that material I need, right?"
Here's my play: He knows that I need this material for the sword. He himself is very interested in my progress on the sword so by making my request about the sword my chances of leaving for a bit skyrocket. I'm spinning this as me getting the material instead of me running away from my problems. If I straight up said that I want to get away from it all there's a zero percent chance he'd let me go.
"You said it was somewhere in the Land of Snow?"
"Yes it is." Orochimaru confirms. "It's very interesting, the Land of Snow has the biggest resource of chakra conductive metal out of every nation. But they have an even more rare and hard to come by metal, one that conducts no chakra. Ten years ago I... investigated the potential of acquiring this metal for myself, I was going to fashion a shield of some sort to block ninjutsu, but it became too risky. The reward just wasn't good enough to justify getting it. Especially since I simply didn't know if it could be done."
"But recently there has been rumors that a new state of the art chakra armor has come out, one unlike any other. The way it works is very ingenious, it's impractical to cover the entire body with metal that doesn't conduct chakra. Doubly so because that means that most if not all ninjutsu cannot be used. However the armor isn't made entirely out of the metal, it's mostly made of highly chakra conductive metal. What it does is channel the chakra into the non-conductive metal to render ninjutsu and genjutsu inert. It's currently worn by Doto Kazahana, the current leader of the Land of Snow."
"Cool. Can I go get it?" I bluntly ask like I'm asking to go outside for a walk instead of probably murdering another nation's leader for a piece of his armor. "Please?"
"You are aware that only the highest level of ninjutsu will work against him?" Orochimaru pins me in a stare. "You rely heavily on ninjutsu to win your fights."
"Yeah but that's because I choose to. My taijutsu is not something to dismiss." It's working. Orochimaru is seriously considering letting me go. Perfect. "All I have to do is touch him and it's over."
"What makes you say that?" Orochimaru asks in curiosity. "Do you think you can punch him so hard that he will be defeated with a single blow? He's wearing metal armor, it will not be easy to beat him to death."
"No." I hold out a hand palm up. Black threads pierce through my skin and wave back and forth in the wind. "The Jiongu isn't chakra. His armor won't do shit to it. It won't even be slowed down."
"Ah yes how could I forget that lovely test." Orochimaru smiles fondly in his memories again. "That was the first time you truly fought against me. The first time you didn't hold back."
"Yep." I chirp out. It was also the day I killed a child. That day marked the start of my descent into darkness. It was the turning point for me, the one where I truly committed a great evil for the first time. It is one of the worst days of my life. "So can I go?"
"On one condition." Orochimaru is going to let me go. Perfect. "There is a base on the border between the Land of Rice and the Land of Fire. This is not a Konoha outpost though, it is a Kusa one. Apparently the Kusakage didn't take well to us blowing him off and has allied with Konoha to 'keep Otogakure in line.' I want you to destroy it."
"When you say destroy are we talking paint the walls with blood or scorched earth?" Well it isn't part of my plan but I can work with this.
"I want overwhelming force. Make this a display of your power, Oto's power." Orochimaru decides after a moment of consideration. "I want to send a message. Leaving nothing left standing will accomplish that. Burn it to the ground."
"Alright." Simple enough. "Want me to let a few people get away so they can talk about it?"
"That would be a good idea, do that." Orochimaru orders. "Do you want a team to go with you?"
"Nah." I want to be alone. That's the whole point of this. "I got this, they'd just be in the way. I'll have to really cut loose to bring down an outpost. It's going to get intense. Plus I am my own team, don't forget about my minions of terror! They're freaking scary!"
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