Finishing the bout, RongCheng suddenly spoke in a cold voice: "Turn your person around, turn your buttocks out here."
Yan Si understood the meaning; although he still was not completely awakened, nonetheless he still performed according to the man's words… Right afterward, RongCheng without warning struck forcefully upon it, for several consecutive turns until causing the two sides to become flushed red.
Being fed pain, he in the final analysis could endure it no longer, thereupon wrapping his two hands down to cover and shield, speaking in a low voice to pray and entreat: "Do not… do not strike me further, please."
RongCheng pushed Yan Si's hands away, continuing to strike…
Afterward, he again let out a breath in a sigh, asking: "Do you know for what reason I strike you or not?"
The youth hurriedly shook his head; the man spoke further: "I strike because you are not well-behaved."
Yan Si fell silent inside his person for a long while, again once more shaking his head: "I… I truly understand not."
RongCheng struck for five or six additional turns and then ceased, severe in his face, saying: "You cannot continually be like this! Hereafter even if possessing desire, you also must privately know to exercise self-restraint; we cannot continue in this manner forever."
Hearing thus, Yan Si possessed a portion of panic and instantly turned back, asking in a low voice: "Eldest… eldest brother… do not be like that, do you again wish to cast me aside and neglect me or not?"
RongCheng shook his head: "I will not cast you aside and neglect you."
"But in such a manner, then what is the difference at all?" At this time, within Yan Si's eyes, tears began to well up: "Right from the time of beginning, I truly already have been unable to cease… Night after night embracing and making love passionately, you caused me to become like this, now do you again wish to cast me aside and neglect me or not? Hereafter how do I know how to live?"
Hearing across those words, RongCheng truly knew not how he must reply. His fist inwardly tightening without replying, the youth again spoke: "If the person truly wished to discard me, for what cause did you that day still arrive at the cavern to drag me back here?"
Each word Yan Si spoke was exactly like a blade slicing into RongCheng's heart; he also knew his own self had forcibly brought him back here, furthermore performing countless wrong matters… To let a young child who inherently was like a sheet of pure white paper become defiled like that… Saying he understood not matters, but as for his own self, what of him? Coddling to this extent… yet at present how could he let go for good?
Suddenly, Yan Si grasped his hand, earnestly saying: "Eldest brother, do not discard me… hereafter I will strive to exercise self-restraint — Do not discard me, is it permitted or not?"
RongCheng let out a breath in a sigh, pulling Yan Si up to embrace into his chest, shaking his head, saying: "I will not cast you aside and neglect you, but…"
Yan Si manifested an even more earnest manner, saying: "I know, you already possess a wife… already possess second elder brother… I dare not perform beyond my own status, but pray you grant me a short bit of opportunity, separating every several days to again come toward me, is it permitted or not? Is it permitted or not? I pray the person, please…"
The space fell silent for a very long while; RongCheng weighed and considered immensely much, regarding his own self and furthermore the earnest, entreating words of Yan Si…
In the final analysis, he nodded his head to agree in helplessness: "Very well."
Hearing this single word "very well," Yan Si was joyful to a point of wishing to go mad; in the final analysis, he at last could officially be beside the person, but not with the affection of brothers exactly as in previous times.
Being capable of embracing and together with the man passing through passionate bouts of cloud and rain was a matter that his person always awaited.
At this time, Yan Si again elevated his face to look toward RongCheng, asking: "Then, one turn every two days, is it permitted or not?"
RongCheng shook his head: "Seven days."
Seven days? Was there a requirement to be as long as that or not? Yan Si shook his head to tightly embrace the man, saying: "Then three days, let it be thus."
Truly unexpected that there furthermore was this category of haggling and bargaining the price; knowing not from where his person learned it out… RongCheng again continually shook his head: "Five days."
Yan Si naturally still refused to comply, again tugging at the man's garment, entreating: "Then four days… four days, is it permitted or not? Eldest brother… eldest brother…"
RongCheng tightly embraced Yan Si, asking: "Do you know that in such a manner… it is your own self being violated or not?"
Yan Si instantly shook his head: "I know not! Also understand not…"
If speaking of this matter as being violated, he felt Shang Yuan was furthermore being violated by RongCheng. The person could endure it, then his own self could also. Again speaking: "I solely desire to be beside you, a bit more."
Merely requiring a bit more, that was all; he vowed to pay with whatever price.
In the final analysis, RongCheng also complied with his desire; he let out a breath in a sigh and nodded his head: "Let it be so, it is permitted."
Hearing these words, Yan Si was overjoyed, all the more tightly embracing him, saying: "I truly care for the person most in the world."
Caring, is it? Knowing not how Yan Si understood this word caring…? RongCheng faintly rubbed upon his head...
Arriving one turn every four days… a stealthy relationship full of insecurity, RongCheng could in no way blatantly come to meet Yan Si regularly and conspicuously thus…
The entire life of RongCheng was always lived righteously; unexpected that he was conversely pushed into a circumstance of having to be secretive like this. From the time of beginning, he had always had to confront the matter of conscience day and night ripping and tearing, gnawing and biting remorselessly endlessly. In the final analysis, there inherently was not any solution at all, outside the matter of his letting himself drift along with desire.
If RongCheng knew that, on that night, it was Yan Si who deliberately discarded bewitching incense to harm himself, perhaps the man's look regarding him would completely change into a different thing, and the gentleness would also instantly vanish, replaced instead by absolute loathing.
Yan Si knew exceptionally well what consequences the unrighteous and inhumane deeds he performed would leave behind; that matter had become the deepest, most hidden fear inside him.
But because of wishing to possess RongCheng, he indeed stopped at no maneuvers… Throughout the past seven days, Yan Si had used entire categories of medicine to chase and catch up to the man's strength; the consequence of devastation upon his physical frame was immensely immense.
The excessive sensitivity and the day-and-night yearning submerged him inside dark ponderings… At present, Yan Si forced his person to restrain, searching for a device to drag the rhythm of life back exactly as in olden times.
"I already possess him already, already have possessed him inside my hand already…" From now on, there was no requirement to strive to run after him further.
Early morning, Yan Si again arrived at the Inner Palace Pharmacy to search for medicine, subsequently thereupon delivering it across to Xiao Yi, instructing to decoct in the evening after the meal.
In the evening, finishing drinking the medicine, Yan Si thereupon departed out to stroll a round about to consume a portion of the residual excess energy.
Sighting thus, Xiao Yi also trailed behind to escort his master.
Merely that Yan Si had just departed for a short moment, then suddenly stood stock-still, sensing there was something exceptionally abnormal… His body reacted identical to preparing in readiness for a bout of cloud and rain, although possessing not a bit of external impact.
The rhythm of his heart increased rapidly, emotions swelling and beringing — Yan Si tightly ground his teeth, saying: "I... am sleepy already, let us return."
Xiao Yi saw the sky was still early, thereupon saying: "But master, the sky is still early after all?"
"No!" Yan Si instantly shook his head: "I desire to sleep!"
Having spoken, he thereupon turned his back to depart, looking to have footsteps that were a portion hurried…
Xiao Yi, sighting thus, naturally understood matters, therefore barring him no further; the servant instantly slunk toward another path to depart.
The period of just returning, Yan Si climbed upon the bed, tightly curling the blanket while simultaneously drawing his person in, continuously shaking his head: "Not permitted… not permitted…"
The medicine at present still had not yet seen much effect; the estimate for tomorrow was that he would reinforce the dosage up, as for now he required to know to exercise restraint, know to endure… incapable of performing any matter at all.
In the midst of haze, Yan Si again began to see himself missing RongCheng, remembering toward each action and gesture of the man, and remembering even the manner the man soothed him...
Suddenly recognizing his own self had just been swept away along with the thoughts, he hurriedly shook his head: "Do not remember further! Do not remember toward it further!"
The person was not present here; the more he remembered, it merely all the more caused his own person to be uncomfortable further… Yan Si tightly grasped the blanket regardless of the weather being exceptionally sultry and oppressive.
His entire frame broke out in sweat, soaking wet through even several layers of garments… The blurred consciousness urged Yan Si to search for satisfaction, nonetheless merely a brief moment afterward, he unexpectedly awakened completely —
Continually like this until midnight, then entire feelings gradually lowered; at this time, Yan Si had also been thoroughly exhausted, he instantly flung the blanket and thereupon rolled out to sleep deeply.