Bakugo
I sighed deeply; these thoughts felt wrong. I'm not the kind of person who can pretend to be someone I'm not anyway.
The reason Deku was pushing me away was because I was trying to get what I wanted the easy way, without caring whether anyone would get hurt or not.
Thinking about things like that feels sucks. Maybe it's because I've never done it. It's so hard to be this cautious for someone, how do people put up with it and keep fucking making friends? I don't understand.
Okay, I need to sort everything out in my head because all my thoughts are jumbled together.
1. I'll be a little kinder to Deku.
2. Every time Deku annoys me, I won't beat him up. (This will be very difficult to do)
3. I won't try to take One For All- Or maybe I can still get it, anyway, I'll think about that later.
If I do these things, Deku will no longer have a reason to push me away. I'll make that little piece of shit forgive me.
I now have a perfect plan; all I have to do is put it into action.
Wait, but how should I start? If I go and talk to Deku, he'll probably reject me again. But how else can I get him to notice me?Should I talk to his friends? Absolutely not.
I can't think of anything else to do besides going and talking to Deku.
"Fuck it, I'm going to go talk to him, BUT this time I won't ask for anything in return, I'll JUST talk."
I will speak calmly.
And I won't beat him up.
Calm and controlled.
When I got to Deku's door and raised my hand to knock, the door opened before I could even knock.
"Oh! Hi Bakugo-kun, I just finished talking to Deku-kun."
WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?
WHY WAS THAT GIRL IN DEKU'S ROOM? YOU PIECE OF SHIT, WHEN YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO START A NEW LIFE, WERE YOU TALKING ABOUT BEING SOMEONE ELSE'S DOG- CALM DOWN, calm down, calm down and don't forget why you came here.
Calm down...
"Uraraka-san, if you want, you can go first."
Deku was staring at me with a harsh look, I have no doubt that I was giving him a terrifying look in return.
"Bye, A-and please think about what I've said, okay?"
When the silly girl walked away, Deku went into his room and was about to close the door, but I put my foot in before the door closed.
"Where do you think you're running off to, Deku? When did you even get a girlfriend?"
"You don't need to know everything about me, and I'm tired of talking about this, get out of my life!"
CALM DOOOWN
"HAHA, this time I didn't come to join your disgusting—I mean, ordinary—life."
"Then why did you come?"
"Because..."
I FORGOT TO THINK ABOUT THAT. WHAT AM I GOING TO SAY HIM? OF COURSE, I CAME HERE SO HE WOULD ACCEPT ME, WHAT ELSE WOULD I COME FOR? WHAT AM I GOING TO SAY NOW?
"(Phone ringtone)"
He took his phone out of his pocket and answered the call.
"Hello, All Might"
My nerves started to fray again when I realized All Might was calling. What was this guy's problem? Why did he always want Deku to be constantly around him?
I need to stay calm. I might swear at All Might out of anger, but I won't, and I won't lose control.
I finally found Deku again, I can't ruin this.
"IS THERE A PRACTICAL EXAM TOMORROW? But...Oh!Ok"
I'm very curious about what they talked about.
"Why me? .... Okay, I'll tell him,bye."
He put his phone in his pocket and turned back to me.
"All Might said you need to take the practical exam tomorrow and that your suspension will be invalid tomorrow."
"I came here to talk to you about this."
"Really? So you're not going to threaten me for random things or anything like that?"
"YES DEKU(cough) I'm just going to talk normally and stay calm."
I'm clenching my fists as hard as I can, trying to calm my nerves. Why does everything Deku says have to annoy me so much?
"No, I won't fall for that, Bakugo, stop it already!"
CALM DOWN
"I'M NOT TRYING TO FOOL YOU, IS IT REALLY THAT HARD TO TALK TO ME NORMALLY ABOUT ORDINARY THINGS?"
"YES, AFTER YOU CAME INTO MY ROOM AND BEAT ME UP, I CAN'T TALK TO YOU LIKE WE'RE FRIENDS."
SHIT
"HAHAHAHA IS THIS BEING SAID TO ME BY THE SAME PERSON WHO THREATENED TO TELL PEOPLE ABOUT WHAT I EXPERIENCED WITH MY FAMILY?"
"B-BUT THAT'S DIFFERENT"
"IS IT DIFFERENT? DOES IT BECOME DIFFERENT WHEN YOU DO IT?"
"OF COURSE NOT, BUT YOU LEFT ME NO OTHER CHOICE."
"DIDN'T I LEAVE YOU ANY OTHER CHOICE? ... I made a mistake TRUSTING YOU."
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Hi everyone, I'm MikaYuuFan.
We all love chaos, but experiencing it in real life can be really difficult. It was something that hadn't left my life for the past month, that's why I haven't had time to write a new chapter.
But now everything is back on track and my life is calmer than ever, so new episodes will continue to be released every week.
I try to post episodes on Sunday evenings whenever possible. But this time, as an apology, I'll send it during the week.
I love you, my sweet readers! Bye bye.