In this world, magic exist and it's proficiency is believed to depend on the bloodline. I dont know why that is believed to be, but according to my teacher, some bloodline have been said to have a greater potential of birthing a high mage or even a grand mage.
The dumont bloodline is one that had a high mage 4 generations ago. Unfortunately, no mage of importance has been born ever since then. So they were demoted from a duchy to a county according to my teacher.
Everyone expected Clark to end up as a grand mage, but he has been stuck as a 7th circle mage for the past 6 years.
The count once mentioned during one of his 'education sessions' that my birth was the reason why Clark's magic stops progressing.
That must have given him another reason for him to hate me.
No one knows how many bloodlines possess this great magic, as the master of the magic tower has been someone from a duchy, county, barony, of imperial bloodline and some have even been commoners.
No one can say with accuracy that bloodline has anything to do with magic, but it is still widely believed to be true.
This book talks about the foundation of magic.
It explains how magic can be used like we see in fairytale. The more I read, the more I understand why it was left to collect dust.
I spent the next 4 hours reading about magic and it got me wondering allot, since I come from a bloodline with strong magic, could it be that i have the ability to use magic too?
Maybe, i could be the one to become a grand mage. I'm sure the count would turn on his head and die if he so kuch as thought of that being a possibility.
I really want this book, everything in it is not practical but it's still a fun read. Good enough to get my mind off this pathetic life im living.
I spoke with the prince's attendant, and he have me permission to borrow any book I want from the library. He looked like he was in trouble.
"My lady, I'm really sorry about today, I'm sure prince callus would be so happy to have you over next time" the attendant looked like he was about to cry as he fidgets.
"I understand his highness must have a lot on his mind" he looked at me like i was an angel as I smiled softly at him.
Saying the last farewell we head back to my personal hell.
"Welcome back my lady, his lordship would like to see you in his study" i hadnt even been past the front door when the count's aide came looking for me. I hand over my book to Sarah as she wears her most forlorn look but I smile sweetly trying my best to put on a brave face.
" please lead the way" the maids we passed on the way all had a grim look on their faces, like they all knew what was coming. I already knew i would be unable to escape it tonight, but that still didn't remove the feelings of dread and anguish I was having right now.
"My lord, the lady has arrived" the door opens, i step in and i hear the door click shut.
"How long will you make me look stupid?"
So I cant escape today either?
I was so foolish thinking i was about to get salvation. I couldn't hear what he was saying but I knew what was coming. His face said all I needed to know he was angry and needed someone to release that anger on.
I feel the familiar warmth of the count's hand strike me across the face, as I get slammed hard onto the ground. He continues his rant about me seducing the prince and making him mine.
After he is done, his aide walks in helps me up and out of the study, murmurs a pathetic 'I'm sorry my lady' and the maids waiting outside the study help me to my room. Sarah comes into my room fuming as tears stream down her face. She helps me apply healing ointment to my face and i go to bed without dinner.
Laying in bed I glance at the clock, it's just barely past 8pm.
"Another cursed day, happy cursed birthday to me"
I look at the magic book I brought home with me, it was a fun read so I pick it up and continue from where I stopped.
Normal magic requires you to chant a spell or for you to do some calculations to get the right magic circle. I was never taught magic like Clark so I don't really know the details.
But this book says to use magic, you need a clear mental image of what you want, sense the magic around you, imbue that magic with mana and then bring your mental image to life.
I should try it out, It might be something to distract me from this wretched life.
Closing my eyes I imagine a ball of fire in my hand, burning hot and bright...Silence, as nothing happens, what was i expecting?
I knew nothing was going to happen as this book was probably written as a joke.
Maybe it's not the book, what if I am defective?
Do I even have mana? What does mana feel like? I'm not the female lead.... Meeting his highness today made me realize that.
Had i been the female lead he would have loved me no matter what had happened today.
I am just so disposable NPC that I know for sure.
So what makes me so sure I even have mana?
I should just give up
family...
love .....
magic.....
I'm so tired...
I just want to sleep...
I want to die....
I'm so tired, I want to die.
If I can't find happiness, if no matter how hard I try I will never end up happy, then maybe i should just take other to hell with me.
Maybe i could drag others with me to the pits of hell.
This book says mana feels warm, it doesn't burn nor does it freeze, closing my eyes again, I imagine something warm.....
warmth?
Sarah's warm hands against mine...
Sarah's hair glistening in the summer sun....
Sarah's smiling brightly as she brushes my hair
A warm tea by the fire place on a cold winter night as Sarah sings softly....
My hearts starts to beat violently, as I feel my chest expanding, like I'm about to explode. Cough...
cough...
Blood pours out of my eyes, nose and mouth.
It hurts....
it hurts so much.....
My insides feel like they are burning up, my vision is blurry and tinted red. My arms start to tingle and tremble as my head throbs uncontrollably.
"H..e...e..l.p" i try to scream but it's too painful and my heart continues to pound loudly.
I'm scared, a mix of tears and blood trickle down my face.
I don't want to die...
I don't want to die....
what if I'm reborn in a worse world?
I don't want to die....
I'm scared....
please ...
someone....
save me.
And then I feel it, a burning flame quickly envelope my insides as my body began to burn. I'm going to die...
I'm going to die....
was it black magic?
What crime did i commit?
I just wanted to be happy.....
I just.....
wanted...
to.....
be ...
happy....
"Sarah I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise" I say as my vision goes black.