[The Carabao Cup lift. February 2018. The Holmesdale singing. The lads passing the trophy down the line. Mili holding it above his head. Steve Parish at the top of the steps in a club tracksuit he had not worn since 2010.]
[Anfield. December 2017. The dressing room after the one-one draw. Mama crying without making a sound. Wilf with his head against the locker. The silence of the dressing room. Me at the door.]
The footage was from inside the room looking out. I was at the doorframe with one hand on it, not coming in and not going. The me on the screen looked older than the me in the chair felt. He had not slept in two days.
"Stop it."
Ruth paused.
"That one comes out."
Elena turned her head. Did not say anything for a moment.
"Which part."
"Mama. The bit with Mama. Take it out."
"Daniel."
