Wether I truly love Adrianos or not ,I don't know. I can't stop talking to him and I feel jealous at just seeing a girl's name on his phone, but I'm I just infatuated with him or I love with him? The question is hard to answer even to myself.
Sometimes,I honestly don't care about him. I can survive a day without looking at him even though he's near me , but the truth is he's always on my mind the whole time.
I keep thinking to myself - If Adrian comes back to me,will I leave Adrianos and just go back to him? Does it mean I've been using Adrianos all this while? Is it really right to start a new life with Adrian just because I still love him? What about the pain and tears,how come I can't remember again? When all these questions starts to bother me,I immediately try to remember that my academics are still there waiting for me and it always works.
However, sitting on this golden staircase in front of our house waiting for my mum,I find myself thinking about it again..I love Adrian so much,no doubt, but deep down I know the best person to build a life with is Adrianos. But to hell with all of them! I have so many other things to do, but keeps on dealing with unexpressed emotions.