The clouds were spread over the sky like waves, engulfing almost all of the sunlight. The cold breeze rustling through the leaves, it was dark yet peace. On bench, both idiots were sitting together, observing the weather.
There was silent between them, only the gentle breeze rippling through their hairs.
"Didn't know girls were this childish.."
Ender mumbled, seeing Misha and Sara bantering with children. Shattering the silence shrouded over them. Ruis got distracted as if he was lost in himself.
"At some level, everyone is childish, they just don't tend to show."
Ruis sighs, closing his eyes as he leans his head back.
"I never seen you acting like a child. I can't even imagine you acting like this. Forst."
Ender spoke, this time he turned over his head towards Ruis, Ruis gently opens his eyes, looking at the cloudy sky, silence wrapped them again in its cage.
Ender sighs, turning his head to front. Over the park infront of them.
"You never told me about your past. Aside your master.. Is it something.. You don't wanna share.."
He says in low voice. Ruis titled his head down.. Subconsciously..
"It's just not important.. Minor.."
Ruis bit his lips, quivered. In this moment, he was trying to think of a new topic.. Something.. Different.. Ruis continues with a pause.
"Fate is brutal.. The only thing we have here.. In these worlds.. Are Connections.. And Faith.. Over ourselves... Because in the end.. Miracles won't last long.. And Fate will peeled the things which matter to us most.."
His words pierced the dark weather. But..
Ender giggled.. Ruis was surprised to witness this, was he non serious or what?.
"Fate.."
He said, controlling his laughter.
"Fate.. We blame everything on Fate.. Whereas the real ones are Hope.. Existence.. Awareness.. If hope didn't exist, we'll drown in despair yet we'll accepted it.. Acceptance will be better than that tiny hope we perceive, won't it be?.. Our suffering will be lower, if not worse.."
While Ruis was analyzing what he had just said. Both had control over their expression.
Ender continues after ten seconds.
"Awareness is the thing of all causes. The reason why fools and mental ill patients stay happy is because they can't perceived... What we can.. In the end.. Perception is a horrifying mirror.. One day.. You see the world.. Next day.. The world sees you.."
Ender gaze went over an ant who was crawling over bench, he picks it up, glaring at it intensely. Ruis was eager what he'll do and say. Watching him.
"Existence.."
Ender muttered, his eyes fixed over the ant. He says after half minute..
"What a monster it is. The root of everything.. If I name this ant Jerry.. Then.."
He squashed the ant.. Scrubbing his corpse and off his fingers.
"Now it's no more.. It's existence.. It's name.. Has end.. Neither it show any signs of that it existed.. So it means that it never had existed.. Right?.. Nothing matters in this world, no matter how hard we tried.. It'll be all be in vain.. It's not Fate.. It's existence.."
Ender sighs, scrubbing his lips. Ruis went quite, for minutes neither of them speak a word. A dry leaf pass by Ruis's hand as he catches it. His eyes fixed over it as he was trying to see life over it.. Suddenly, the leaf turned green as if it was full of life..
"Yes.. Awareness is a curse.. Hope is a delusion.. Existence is inevitable .. Suffering is inevitable.. We can't escape these concepts... But.."
Ruis extended his arm towards the sky, a faint smile appeared over his cheeks.
"We can create illusions.. Can we?.. If we are soaked in guilt and regret.. We can ask forgiveness.. From the person.. And God..
If there's a bad outcome.. Just have Faith.. And try once again.. What's the matter in it?.. Loneliness is one hell of a thing... It can't be cured easy.. Sometimes pain never fades away.. We just get used to it.. Sometimes we just don't want to cure our pain... Because maybe that's the last connection we have with someone.."
Ruis relaxed his fingers, the leaf fades away with the breeze. He relaxed his arm down, Ender was silent, even though he had control over his expression.. His eyes could tell something... Something new he had learned.. Today..
THUD!
THUD!
Hearing footsteps approaching, they both got aware, didn't know where they're coming from, they just turned their heads down..
Silence..
"You guys are also here."
Hearing a familiar voice, Ender was the first who titled his head upwards to saw Misha and Sara standing together. Ruis mirrored him after 3 seconds.
"The weather was perfect today for us. So decided to spent some time here."
Ender said with a smile, Sara chuckled as she waved her arm over them to give some space. Getting aside, Misha sat next to Ender while Sara next to Ruis. Of course..
Personal space.. It was big enough..
Silence shrouded them, some were lost in themselves while some were lost over the dark cloudy weather.
"How's Zack?."
Ruis asked, bursting the silence. He knew that this topic was a little hot whose fire hadn't cooled yet, he asked. Sara expression went expressionless as soon as his words pierced the air.
"I don't know.. Seeing his condition last night, he looked like a breathing corpse. His spirituality got spiked up.. However, Miss Rose said that he'll get better after few days, of course fever will accompany him in these days. And Lisa decided to stay with him last night. I didn't check him today."
Ender spoke after a pause as if he didn't understand why Ruis have to upbring this topic up.
"Oh.."
Ruis mumbled as if he was convinced. Abruptly, Misha gets up, as if she had to go somewhere.. In hurry..
"Well.. I'll be off then, you guys have fun."
She mumbled, way to fast which was unusual for her.
"Where are you off to?."
Sara queried, interested.
"I've handled my dress over to the tailor. Will return at dusk."
Misha said awkwardly before strolling out of the way, Sara was puzzled why she act like that, while the fellows were unfazed as if they weren't even listening to their chatter.
"Well.. I'll go as well."
Ender sighs, getting up and adjusting his hairs, he glanced over the two for now. Who weren't looking at him. A faint smile appeared over his cheek. Unnoticeable by them as he turned away.
~ Shouldn't interfere with soulmates..
– You'll never get one.. Oh you don't even have one..
~ ... As if I want..
Yeah.. Among all this time, he wasn't dumb enough to let things slide in his sight.. As he sauntered away.. Far away..
Ruis glanced at Sara who was lost in herself, rolling her hair with her finger.
"You haven't seen him yet. Was it because.. His words.. Were.. Wounding?.."
Ruis said, his gaze softened towards her.
".. I– I never thought of this.. Will happen.. How come someone who has smile over their faces 24/7 and even make jokes at severe situations can.. Say that?.."
She spoke in low, cracked voice. She had unconsciously thought him as a younger brother even though she didn't knew it.. Now.. She was just scared to see him in his current condition. That's why up till now, she haven't meet him.
"It means he had a bad past. A trauma response.. Something like that, it's just my assumption.."
Ruis replied. Calmly as ever.
"No way!. We knew each other when we're kids. Yes our family experienced financial crisis but he was exact same when I meet him at college."
Sara spoke firmly with confidence.
"Hmm.. Maybe then, he's just good at hiding himself. There's no way for a sane person to say those words. If elders find out, he'll take fresh air of mental hospital."
Ruis shrugged, making a blank face as ever.
"Maybe.. It can be a possibility. We must keep.. An eye on him.. But.. Who can do that?."
Sara asked, herself, they both wondered for few moments. Until..
"Hey.. Wanna eat something?. We can discuss this later.. On restaurant."
Ruis said with a control expression, yet it was obvious that he had excited expression. Sara got distracted, turning her head over him. She nods with a smile. Before they go.. Unknowingly.. On a date.. Nope, sorry they just friends..
***
It was an unfamiliar street, standing on a tailor shop, Misha entered as the doorbell chime rang.
DING-DONG!
It was a usual tailor shop, big enough. She looked at surroundings to saw many staff girls sewing while the tailor who was a elderly woman observing her staff. Her gaze glanced upon Misha, as Misha went strolling towards her. Little nervous..
"Hello. You remember me?. I requested a robe."
She said with her usual polite tone.
"You?.."
She stuttered. Thinking..
"Oh you."
She said with chuckle. Misha handled her a piece of paper as she went over a series of hanging garment bags with numbers written on each one. She took a specific bag before giving it to her. As Misha took out some dom from her clutch, handling it to her whom she accepted with a warm smile.
Glaring at her garment, she mumbled.
"Could you direct me to fitting room. I wanna try?."
"Of course. It's on the right corner."
As she left..
Moments later..
The cart stopped, by a unique structure. Looking like a type of religious structure. It had everything but walls were at side which separate the interaction between opposite genders. Like in Earth, Raiheart also followed a religious belief, of all four divinities.. This was the Goel of All beloved.
Misha got off, wearing a brown loose covered Robe, with a hood.
Her amber eyes fixed over it, as she sighs, her steps moving towards it.
[ Few minutes later ]
It was a small room, a light coming from a carved window. A rug resting over the floor. With her being on knees, praying on it, spreading her palms as the light from the window was gleaming over them.
"Oh greatest loved.."
She mumbled..
"Can you forgive me for that day?. Ever since that day, I feel restless. Ashamed from myself. H–H.."
Her voice cracked, some tears shred from her eyes.
"How could I do that?.. I– I promise.. I'll never do it.. E– Ever again.."
"I'll never do it again. Ever!. J-.."
She pause for 15 seconds.
"J- Just give me peace..."
Closing her eyes, she felt like time had stopped, suddenly a she felt light.. Very light.. Her body.. Her soul felt... Peace...
She didn't opened her eyes for few minutes.. Just feel it...
[ Few minutes later ]
Coming outside from Goel, the weather had turned very dark as now winds were blowing. Misha, little concerned was looking for a passing cart.. Until.. She heard a familiar voice..
"My student?."
Turning aside, she saw Leon standing, wearing a black robe. He was startled, shocked seeing her here.
"I never thought you were this religious.. Well that's a good thing for you."
He said with his usual smirked.
"No.. It's just.. I was bored so decided to spent some time here."
She justified herself as Leon nods with her.
"Oh also please don't tell anyone about this."
"Yeah. Yeah. Either way I'm not that type of a saint.. It's a coincidence that you're seeing me here."
He shrugged. Now she turned over to find a cart, looking at her like this. Leon understand what she was looking for..
"I've come with our agency's cart. Wanna ride."
Leon said, pointing his thumb over a specific cart.
"Sure!."
She exclaimed.