Everyone was staggered, speechless. Did he really say something like that? Everyone was in disbelief, he can't just say that. It isn't him.
"Kill her Zack."
He said it again, this time firmly with the intention. Though his tone was as gentle as ever like an angel. Zack's lips quivered, his eyebrows raised.
Ruis's jaw dropped. Sara covered her opened mouth, Lisa was awestruck, just staring at him.
"If you beileve you could help give salvation to others, then this is your mother who is suffering relentlessly. If you can do the same you did for your father. Then why not her?"
This statement made everyone bemused. Even Lisa and Zack. How did he came to know about this?
"W– What do you mean?"
Zack stuttered, completely bewildered.
"I know everything.. About You.. About this world.. What it have done.. What it had been doing... This world operates on a harsh truth.. And we must seek that truth... To seek the truth in anyways. No matter how cursed it is, because in the end it's the truth that makes a person who they are.. Those who can't perceive the truth.. aren't conscious. They are those miserable beings who can just copy and paste."
The room went silent just the beeping sounds echoing from the heart monitor.
"You have take every hidden knowledge of this universe, this world... now?"
Lisa mumbled, her breath hitching. Ender stared at her, silent then shifted his gaze over Zack. He waved his arm over the lying mother on bed.
"So will you not be true to yourself? Zack..."
Zack's eyes widened, he lowered his head.
"You want to give salvation to your ones. So that in other life, you will be together with them again. This is what you thought? Or just a delusion you convinced yourself?"
Zack bit his lips, his fingers trembling. Sara tried to interfere.
"Enoug–"
"It's useless, because in the end he will give his mother salvation, just like he did it for his father."
Hearing this, it made her back off one step backwards. The entire attention on the room was focused over Zack. Everyone was staring at him what he will do, will he resist against himself or accept it?
Ender whose hands were at back of his waist. He shoved and revealed his hand to them, it had a knife gripped by his fingers.
"Take it Zack."
He mumbled gracefully, everyone was froze. The room tension grew, nobody could foresee what will happen next..
Zack trembling hands, his skin turning pale. He was biting his lips so hard that they were bleeding blood. His pupils dilated, soon after his body started shivering. He falls down.
"Why? You are not doing this? After all she had only given birth to you. Birth to a guy who was doomed by world, by fate, since his birth."
"AGHHHH! STOP! PLEASE!"
He finally broke, all Ender could do was glared at him.
"She never take care of you, never look after you. Did she really did? Do you remember? Except for the tales you heard about her."
Zack squeezed his ears with his hands. Screaming.
"PLEASE! STOP!"
Ender throws the knife beside him over the floor.
"Remember... You have a choice.. To be with them... or to deny your own self."
Zack's eyes goes over the knife, he started gasping heavily. Everyone was quietly watching him what he will do next, he picked up the knife and gets up.
His head was titled down so no one could watch his face. The knife clenching hard on his hand, his trembling fingers could barely grabbed it like it could fall at any moment.
Zack took a deep breath, in next moment he swings the knife in air, everyone got alter.
SRIP!
Ender's eyes widened in disbelief, startled. Sara screamed. Ruis, Lisa and Misha were flabbergasted. Before them was Zack, blood pouring from his fingers, he started muffling.
He lost his balance, trudging and falling beside the wall. He suppressed his regenerate factor so that he couldn't heal, as the knife was still struck in his trachea.
Ender sighed, while others gathered around him.
"I– I.."
"It's okay. You don't need to say anything right now. Rest."
Misha pat his shoulder, closing his eyes.
"Ssssss– sorry."
Zack stuttered his last words before going unconscious, it wasn't the physical damage more the mental strain he had for himself, with him forcibly suppressing his healing factor.
Lisa wrapped some bandages around his neck, taking the knife out carefully and bandaging each time she took it out each centimeter. Until she finally took it out. Sara was also with her, watching him with a concerned face.
Ruis and Misha stared at Ender, their deadpan expression conveyed he had done something out of limits.
Ender scratched his hair.
"I didn't told him to do this.. He destroyed himself.."
"... You actually are just a pathetic guy in the end. You know that?"
Misha said without a pause, her tone solemnly sober. Ender didn't react yet she continued.
"You can't save the one who was the closest to you, now you are envying others because they have their close ones."
He remained silent, his expressionless face still wasn't conveying a single emotion. Rather it was all relax, Misha clenched her teeth and
"You can't let someone let close to you, not because you fear they will replace your closest one. But rather they will change the way you are.. I see... You are afraid.. You are afraid of change."
Ender lowered his head, his tired and dead eyes filled with void. He mumbled in a soft tone.
"Why do we need relations to exist? Do they define who we are? Or are we those pathetic creatures who can't be left alone in this world and starve for connection forever?..."
Everyone went speechless by this question. No one could answer it.. At least not right now..
"If a being progress towards change. Then it's not being true to itself. Indeed the true nature is what lies beneath every being. Some hide it better than others and mock those who can't hide it properly."
"... I understand it now."
A whisper came, piercing the uncanny air. It was Lisa, her hands wrapped in blood. Getting up, then she stared at Ender, her unusual mused expression was quite eerie.
"You're a void.. A void who consumes its own self and consumes others who get close to it."
Though everyone by now had understand what was he, only Lisa had the fortitude to say it.
"It's better to annihilate bonds than let them chain you."
Ender said in low voice, like he was tired now, not for them, but for everything.
Lisa startled, it was like he was indirectly saying this to her, because in her entire life. She always yearned for a connection with someone. Lisa clenched her fist but then let out a sigh.
Sara was still with Zack, looking at him like she wanted to say something. Nevertheless, she gets up as well, still looking at Zack, her concerned expression changes in an instant as soon as her gaze went at Ender.
Ender's gaze also went over her, their eyes meet.
"Do you know how did my mother die?"
"Your other self and your mother were assassinated by those same assassins whom you and Forst saved. They did it because you and your mother were pretty close with him and they didn't want anyone suspect against them."
Sara was shocked, hearing the truth. Indeed the end, truth is harsh. That's why they bear it.
"I haven't do anything to them, because I know you will forgive them. In the end, you're the heaven's blessing blessed over the worlds. The most innocent soul."
Mixture of emotions were hitting on her mind, so that's how he viewed her existence. It was indeed fantasting, as it should be..
Sara went silent, intrusive thoughts started forming in her mind. Should she take vengeance on them? But if she did then she will be as same as Ruis, if she chooses to forgive. She will be turn out different.
"It's over... Ender.."
Ruis finally moved his sealed lips.
"Yes... because there was nothing left to begin with, the doomsday has arrived."
Lisa come out in front and before Ender could do anything. She waved her hand in air, over him, chanting.
"Ensnare."
A dust of particles appeared which disperse towards him. Ender's head went dizzy before he falls down. Unconscious. Everyone inhale deeply, finally it was over. It was all over.
"I just sealed his consciousness within him."
Lisa wiped out the sweat from her forehead, before remembering about something else as well. She instructed Ruis in composed tone
"We need to destroy his created reality. It will make a imbalance in universe if left for too long."
Ruis who was a bit tired as well, anyways he still decided to do it.
"Show me the way. I will handle the rest."
He said in a clumsy tone.
In next moment, a portal appeared beside Ruis whom he enter through, it disappeared as soon as he went to other side.
Sara and Lisa help fainted Zack carry to a bench, his wounds were gradually healing now. While Misha goes towards knocked out Ender.
She place her palm over his forehead. Closing her eyes. In few moments, she felt like she was consumed by darkness, deep down in the void.
After a time, she opens them. It was deep darkness here like if she was in deepest pit of endless space. Only her presence was emitting faint golden light here, mainly her dress. She looked around to saw no one.
"Why are you here?"
A heavy voice echoed in void, when she turn where the voice had came from, it was Ender standing there. The place where he was standing was shrouded white, like a white void, opposite to where Misha was where void was there.
She sighed, her expression went a bit soft.
"What if she was here? What do you what will change?... Will you stay true to yourself or be different than now?"
She spoke in her usual soft tone. For a moment it seemed Ender was lost in himself but he quickly made an answer.
"I will be... the same."
"I can see through this pathetic lie."
Misha continued like she was finally connecting all the dots together in a line.
"You really do cared about us. It's just that your hate towards the world and your inferiority lead you to here. But despite all that, you cared enough to separate us from the world hate you have for yourself."
Ender turned around like he didn't want to be part of this conservation, yet Misha still continue, saying.
"You wanted us to hate you and leave you just like others. That's what you wanted? So that you can prove that you truly don't exist anymore... because a person stops existing the moment they are forgotten."
Ender started strolling now in the endless white void, his hands in his pant's pockets. Misha made her pace and went after him, soon she was just behind him.
"Was my interpretation correct?"
She said while sauntering with a smile. Ender sighed.
"Why are you following me?"
"Because I want you to come with us."
"Where? There is no place for me now."
He said in a solmen, deep voice.
"You're wrong. You're still with us."
This surprised him but at surface he didn't conveyed any emotion. Misha somehow noticed this, nevertheless she place her hand over his shoulder. Stopping his nonchalant steps.
"Do you fear you will destroy us? Because of your nature? Destroying the same bonds that give you affection? Because you feared that will change the way you are?... I see... You're afraid.. Afraid of change."
Ender brushed off her hand over his shoulder. Wandering away. Misha sighed before making a delightful expression, declaring.
"When you will wake up. We will go back to Raiheart okay! All of us will be there... waiting for you."
At last, he titled his head back. To saw Misha with a smile, a ridiculous smile, a smile that portrays to go far more than just a friend. He didn't just saw her, in his vision.
He saw everyone in his delusional vision. Ruis, Zack, Sara, Misha even Lisa. Some had composed faces, some were nonchalant while some were cheerful.
A spark lights up for a brief moment in his dead eyes. Now he has finally found his people. His own people.