[It's raining outside as I await Zayden's return. Not because we failed to make love, as he says, but simply because I long for his embrace in this cold weather. Spring has begun, marking the end of winter. Snow never bothered me as much as rain. Was it because I had once lost everything on a rainy night? My dread of this weather never fades.
Gods, if you are listening to me, if you do exist, forgive my sins. I shall repent for the rest of my existence. For all the times I have cursed you all, I beg your forgiveness.
But please, I beg of you, don't take Zayden away from me.
Don't take away the happiness I have forgotten.
Don't steal my life once again… I doubt I will be able to live through it if the same thing occurs a second time.
It isn't too much to ask, right?…]
