Chapter 1 :
The crowd screamed his name like a prayer, a storm of voices rising into the night. I screamed too, though my voice drowned in the thousands. Still, for a single second, his eyes swept across the crowd—and I swore they stopped on me. I blushed but yet still hidden between thousands.They say falling in love with an idol is a mistake. They say it's dangerous, foolish, impossible. Maybe they're right. But I ignored them all—and lost myself to him anyway.I just wish that one day i could meet him in person and tell him that he means the world to me and i love him so much. Eventually like all good things that night had to end as if it was just a dream.
The first time I saw him, he wasn't on stage. He wasn't smiling, singing, or dancing under the glittering lights. He was just a shadow in the corner of my mind, looking more human than a superstar should ever be allowed to look.When I wished upon the brightest star it flew across the sky, I never imagined making a wish to a shooting star but i thought i have nothing to loose and it could possibly be answered . That night I never imagined it would bring him—the man who only existed on posters and screens—into my world ,there he stood infront of my eyes coffee in his hand and that cute moring look , but god i didnt know he would look so much cuter in the moring .But as usual poof the alarm clock had to bring me back to reality and i guess that was the end of my beautiful movie directed by my mind and imagination .
Chapter 2 :
Its been almost a year now and ive stopped obsessing over an idol who in my imagination can be mine but unfortunately not in reality .Now all i think about is the boyfriend i had back when i was in high school and i realised ,that was probably the real relationship i deserved i guess its fate, some of us are fortunate enough to have true love but most like me don't have the mental and emotional strength to trust easily once hurt sadly. Eventually our four year relationship had to end because unfortunately his mum had passed on and apparently he found someone one thousand percent b better than i could ever be so i choose to stay away from relationships for a while and give myself the love,care and respect i deserved . Two months abter telling me "she's one thousand percent better than you" he texts me saying that he made the biggest mistake of his life by ending our relationship and he wants me back ,sadly i declined for the sake of my mental health i mean four years is a long time to love a person and trust them too.
That's when i said I'd rather be obsessed with someone that i know won't love me back and then atleast it won't hurt . Not going to lie but being a fan is so much fun eventually it gets to a point where you know everything about that idol but then you think i know so much about him but he doesn't even know i exist and i'm one in a million . I guess sometime thing ain't worth all that blood , sweat and tears .
Chapter 3 :
Its been two days now and there's a concert coming up in one week , i'm still not whether to go or not.But i guess now I'm going because my friends say this is my birthday surprise .I mean what could be the worst that could possibly happen , i have nothing to fear or lose so lets go.
Finally 3rd June has arrived ,I'm dressed in a blue skirt and pink t-shirt ,i think he'll notice me better this time .I'm happy that this time i got front row seats i have a better chance of seeing Jinhu close up. Its now time for the concert to begin .
The concert had an electric energy that seemed to pulse through the crowd, uniting everyone in a shared rhythm. Lights swept across the venue in vibrant colors, amplifying the beats that reverberated in my chest. The audience moved as one—singing, cheering, and dancing—creating an atmosphere that felt both intimate and expansive, like being part of something bigger than yourself. Every note from the stage was met with waves of excitement, and the connection between Jinhu and crowd was undeniable. It wasn't just music—it was a collective experience, a celebration, and a memory in the making.
This experience is truly amazing and fun to be honest . As he walked down the stage toward the audience our eyes met once again but this time not just for a moment ,my heart started pounding as he was walking towards me ,my eyes are still locked on his ,my eyes never even blinked . There he was ,standing right infront of me a whisper that came from him saying"happy birthday Jackie".I was in a moment of shock that no words could come out of my mouth.
I pinched myself thinking whether I'm dreaming or if he actually knows my name.Maybe all those years of being a fan is paying off now.
Chapter 4 :
Its now the 6th of June and its the date that my ex and i celebrated our anniversary ,so i decided to visit the cafe that we used to go to on our dates .And there he was , Jinhu was sitting in the spot i used to sit at with my ex .His eye glanced right at me ,i looked him in his eyes and a thought struck me that what if he is my ex Park Jingu and if he knows me as a fan named Jackie or if he knows me as Kim Jin Jiyoo , no it can't be .I find a table to sit at and then i hear a voice say "Kim Jin Jiyoo" i stopped ,stunned that someone called out my full name ,and it was in the way Park Jingu used to call me .It was weird for me because i haven't used my name for a long time as it used to remind me of him.
I turn around slowly not trying to make it obvious , and there he stood right behind me .How do you know my name i asked , so you dont remember me he replied .I stood infront of him clueless and replied ,how can i forget you i am a huge fan of yours .I see,come sit with me here, he says.I nod not knowing what to say .
Jinhu says "Its been a while Kim Jin Jiyoo , i've being wanting to meet you again after all these years" . I reply " after all these year ? how do you know my full name ,nobody has called me that in years " . What he said next definitely shocked the life out of me . " I'm Jinhu but you know me as Park Jingu "
Chapter 5 :
I sat there shocked after hearing that my ex is now the person i idolised for so many years not knowing who he actually is . My heart suddenly skipped a beat ,thinking that i still love my ex .
After we broke up i blocked him out of my life in every way possible thinking at least i removed him completely not knowing that he will make a comeback and special entry in my life again. So i told him all these years you left me in pain and you left all alone for another girl who was so much better than me , but here we are just the two of us again .All that time you were gone i still fell in love with you and idolised you not as Park Jingu but as Jinhu , how stupid can i be falling for the person who hurt me the most ,how could i not see what mistake i was making.
Crying i stood up to leave and he said "please don't leave".A pain in my heart stopped me it felt as if i was stabbed in my heart , that pain made me cry more thinking that if i leave now i'm going to hurt myself all over again and also if i walk away now there's no coming back then i will regret it later.So i gathered some courage and sat back down , wiping the tears away.
He asked me to forgive him as he was going through alot at that point and that he made the biggest mistake of his life by leaving me , he regrets what he told me back then , he asks to give us a second chance and that he'll do anything to get me back .
He always told me " Forgive And Forget"
Chapter 6 :
The thoughts that went through my mind of loosing him again we painful ,so i told him i need time to think ,we then exchanged contact details .We then parted ways until we meet again.
Its been about a week now and i have really thought this through properly , although my mind is telling not to accept him back after how much he hurt me before , my heart is telling you still love him even after how badly he hurt you so just forgive him and be happy .
One week later i text him to meet me at the cafe because we need to talk , within seconds he replies and he says ok .We meet and sit at the table we used sit at as teenagers on our dates and i tell him that i am going to forgive you even after you hurt me , because of the situation you were in at that time and also because you taught me to forgive and forget , so all i'm saying is i'm giving you a second chance and i'm giving us a second chance too.
I'm not only doing this for you Jinhu , i'm also doing this for me because i missed you so much but I never had the courage to get in contact with you and i didn't know how to face you , because i felt guilty for not being there for you when you needed me the most. .I would like to apologise to you for leaving you alone at the hardest and most difficult time in your life , there wasn't a day that i didn't cry for you or regret not meeting you sooner.
Chapter 7 :
It has been a month since we started dating again , now we both seem happy until...