It was once said that all life was sacred
It was once said that time is infinite
It was once said that all that was is what could be
Yet... that was all proven to be untrue... be it one way or another
'...'
I mean all rules have exceptions no need to dwell on it
Hey let me tell you something you might not know
Did you know that miracles tend to happen everyday
and not once or twice but in the thousands
Can you guess what that miracle is?
'...'
Exactly its birth!!!
Each new life no matter from what or from whom is a blessing!!!
Even those demons!!!
Ah.... but that also has an exception...
Only one though...
'...'
After all it wasn't supposed to actually be... you know...
Something that was outside the text...
That things birth was a sin...
Heavens only sin...
Hey... you must have heard....
Once upon a time a monster was born...
" huap!!! "
I woke up
.....
" Ughh "
a sharp pain pressed upon my temple as I pushed myself up
Forcing my eyes shut I sat motionless as the pain slowly receded overtime
Thanks to that I was finally able to open my eyes
thanks to that I was able to see
' What the... '
What was it I couldn't have known at the time
It flooded my entire being filling me up yet leaving me hollow
Was it a blessing or a curse that I had been able to see at that moment I couldn't tell
If it was anyone else, would they have felt the same?
Would they have felt terror perhaps?
In that case shouldn't I also feel fear?
At the moment none of that mattered to me, for only one thought enveloped me
' What is this? '
I was too preoccupied with such thoughts to feel anything else
To this thing that I couldn't have known, to what dosed me in wonder
What it was I had no idea, all I knew was that it was perhaps the most magnificent thing I had ever set my eyes upon
What is it I didn't know
How did it look like I couldn't comprehend
Was it even possible for such a thing to exist
Such thoughts pulled me along
It was beautiful, perfect, endless, boundless
Yet... broken
It felt like I was in an endless cycle of discovery and forgetfulness
For all I saw disappeared from memory but a moment later
Too much... it was too much so I had to forget
And so, I simply sat there motionless, the only prominent feelings being the sense of wonder from the unknown and the slowly receding pain
Time passed and the pain was all but gone yet I remained frozen as I am since the beginning, and at that point another emotion started to grow alongside the sense of wonder and pain
' Frustrating '
Frustration boiled inside me
' Frustrating! '
' Frustrating!! '
' FRUSTRATING!!! '
For that thing that I saw yet couldn't see
For that thing I was endlessly forgetting in repeat
A few more seconds and the pain would be done, and instinctively I knew that this whole situation would be gone with it and so my frustration only grew
Ten...
' Just once...'
Nine
' I wish to see it just once '
Eight
' May the consequences be damned '
Seven
' Just let me remember this time '
Six
' Please '
Five
' Please let me remember!!! '
Four
' Wait...'
Three
' Don't!!!! '
Two
' This is... '
One
' Ah... I saw it '
.....
The world returned to normal
I was sitting on my bed drenched in cold sweat my breathing ragged my hand near my core
Yet that wasn't what was important
' I saw it!!! '
I had seen it
Even though it was only a fraction I had seen it
perhaps not whole but at least it was something
No perhaps considering everything perhaps it was better that it wasn't whole
But as I slowly relished the feeling of fulfilment growing inside me due to finally remembering the reality of this whole situation slowly dawned on me
As what once felt like a burning fire inside me started to simmer out, I could feel my expression only grew more sombre as time went on
In complete opposition to what I had felt before a deep dread draped upon me as I slowly went through what I had discovered, and even more so what I had felt
' That wasn't normal '
Taking out every other phenomenon that had occurred what truly unsettled me was how I reacted to it all
I had emotions that's for sure, yet I was never the type to overly express, maybe before but that is no longer the case now
Yet even taking into account that a literal life altering event had happened that could have affected how I felt and acted, the very fact that it felt so natural was what shook me
' Why? '
Indeed, why did I feel such elation from such a thing?
' Was it due to what I had gained? '
That could be true yet considering all that it contains utter despair was the emotion that should be felt not wonder
' Even taking account of the good that was present '
most of what I had gained was complete nonsense, and in that sea, I saw a simple clue and a terrible truth
' So why? '
Why would I feel such elation towards something like the βιβλιοθήκη της Βαβέλ
.....
I had finally left my bed, staying any longer felt like simply asking for something else to happen, and so I quickly took a shower and made my way towards my office
I skipped breakfast entering immediately and taking my seat, I had no appetite after going through such a thing
I delved into my work I tried to get my mind off of what had just happened earlier this morning, I bore holes into the papers while holding them
However, it didn't work
No matter how much I tried to simply forget, it didn't work
' How ironic '
It hasn't even been an hour yet here I am wishing to erase something I had so desperately wished to know
" Rustle "
Breaking me out of my thoughts where the sound of paper fluttering as the fell of the hands of albert who had appeared as always
This time though with a rather intense look on his face before changing his expression into that of a smile of a clueless old man, believing it would only be appropriate as per etiquette I proceeded to smile like a clueless young man
" Master "
Albert spoke
" Yes Albert "
And I answered
" Your mana capacity is exactly the same as yesterday master "
Albert spoke
" Yes it is Albert "
And I answered
" Then how did you reach the C-rank master? "
And then again Albert Spoke with that clueless smile
" Stuff happened Albert "
And then I answered with mine