"...."
This might be the first time, Nifuji thought.
If he refused to go on because he found out how his wish was just immoral and dirty, then Koyanagi's refusal to become his woman was just something that he had never thought of, as they were practically living together, had sex, and even kissed like lovers.
The two of them were practically in a relationship, but somehow, he was rejected?
"Your reaction is so funny~!"
Koyanagi laughed after she saw Nifuji's expression.
"...."
Nifuji took a deep breath, feeling a little uncomfortable. Still, he accepted it, as he knew well that Koyanagi's mind was just different from others, especially since she was also an otaku. Instead of seeing everything like how a normal person would, he should try to imagine himself as an otaku, trying to understand the otaku's mind, so he could understand why she rejected him.
Still, while the reason for her rejection made him curious, Nifuji wondered how she would be from now on.
After all, wouldn't she be lonely when no one was by her side?
'If I insist on myself...'
Yup, Nifuji could feel himself that he lacked the drive, the complete passion or madness where he wanted one woman to be only for himself, only for him, no one else.
When he was young, he knew that he had those feelings, the ugly feelings, when he wanted to tear away the woman he loved the most, then mark her as his. Still, he held it in, knowing that society wasn't as easy as fiction, and he also came from a normal family, so he knew that if there were a problem, his family would be implicated, and he would lose his future.
But now?
When he grew up, he realized that he had lost that drive, especially when he had everything now, whether it was his handsome face, being a good boy, an impressive lower body, or wealth.
Nifuji had gotten everything, trying his best, becoming his better self, harder on himself than his followers, yet this was probably the reason that when he was hard on himself, the world became kinder to him, and getting women was practically so easy for him, like... even if he didn't do anything, they would come to him, and this was also the reason why he was okay without them.
Or rather, he felt like he might be okay to live like a plan, living alone and being an asal, yet somehow... he felt that it wouldn't be fun since what was the point of getting so much money when he couldn't enjoy it with the ones that he loved, right?
"Are you trying to get hard on me?" Nifuji asked speechlessly as he lay on her lap.
"Did it sound like that to you?" Koyanagi appeared at ease and relaxed as she lightly caressed his hair. "Is there the possibility that I don't really want to be a scumbag boss?"
"....." Nifuji.
Still, if he acted like a domineering CEO who got everything by force, he felt he could conquer her, making her seem like the only one who was special, yet it also felt so wrong to think that way about her.
If Nifuji had to say, Koyanagi was like a cat.
If one approached her, she would move away, and if they moved away, she would get close.
She might sleep with him because he appeared so distant, and he also happened to be her type, so as long as there was no heavy relationship, and it was just focused on sexual pleasure, it should be fine.
Yet, sometimes, Nifuji wondered whether everything would be okay for her like that. He didn't say her value was wrong or that her view of life was just strange, yet he wondered whether it wasn't lonely. "Won't it be lonely without someone by your side?"
"Does it seem like I am lonely?"
"Not really, but I feel like you will sometimes wish for someone to be by your side, right?"
It wasn't that Nifuji or Koyanagi were the type to be easily lonely; yet, sometimes, they wished for someone to be by their side.
"Exactly!" Koyanagi nodded. "I am not the type who is lonely, but I want someone to stay by my side."
"Then, isn't your boyfriend perfect?"
Once again, Nifuji had never thought of Koyanagi as his woman, having practically just slept with her and never even considered making her his. Frankly, the thought of being responsible for her was just weird.
Some who still had a passion in their hearts might think that Koyanagi was perfect, as she could do cosplay, be beautiful, and have big boobs, but that was just the exterior; the interior was okay, and sometimes a value between two people could clash.
Finding someone who could accept someone despite that difference of value was hard, or rather, damn hard. Because of that, many people didn't break up with their partners first when they cheated, so that way, when the excitement died down, and they realized that cheating partners weren't the one, they could return to the safe harbor.
Yes, it was an ultimate humiliation for the partner of one of those who had been cheated on, as they were hurt so much for trusting their partners, who somehow just used them as a safe harbor. When they tried many things, it was also because of this: Nifuji respected Koyanagi, as she had decided to break up with her boyfriend, whom she had spent so many years with, but this scumbag wouldn't give her anything except wealth and lust.
Yup, to fall in love, Nifuji realized that it wasn't enough to have just money and lust since, if those two were enough, then there would be many happy people, right?
Unfortunately, the reality wasn't like that, and to have a genuine love, someone who could do dumb things together, was just so rare, or almost so damn hard.
Regardless, everything was about love or complicated about; Nifuji, who had a lot of experience, couldn't really predict that the genuine one was that he might treat his women as replaceable, and he had always convinced himself that even if they left, he would be okay.
However, frankly, it was a bit lonely if he was all alone, right?
"But, he has a NTR fetish!"
"..." Nifuji.
There were many things that he wanted to say, but let's not mention it, as he was afraid the conflict had become so weird. For one thing, he didn't have an NTR fetish, and frankly, he might be on the side of the one who stole from others, despite how wrong it was.
Still—
"Let's go to Narumi's place."
"Okay!"
Yup, let's put everything aside as they decided to go to Narumi's place, considering she had decided to quit her job after less than a month of working~!
"...." Narumi.