Damn it… I've bled too much.
I stand with difficulty, walking slowly toward the door, searching for something to stop the bleeding… or for something to end my life.
I fall to the ground.
My vision blurs… I see nothing but darkness.
My faith was a lie.
No one ever cared about me.
Even my hope… was just an illusion.
"I hate you all… I hate my weakness…"
My tears fall, like the final drops of my life.
I spent my life trying to become something… something worth remembering.
I wanted to change the world… to make it peaceful…
I wanted to see my mother's smile… and Mary's too…
"Jack… Mom… Mary… my friend Jack… I'm sorry.
I sacrificed your lives for someone as weak as me."
"I am not even a good person.
I was just a puppet in the hands of kings.
I was never free. My life was never my own."
My voice fades, but suddenly… something moves.
A whisper in the depths of my soul, a cry rising from the core of my being:
"If I had another life…
I wouldn't live as a human again.
Just give me one more chance!"
"I want a second chance!"
"I will become stronger… stronger than I ever was.
This time… I won't let anyone define my fate."
I raise my hands toward the moon as the rain pours heavily.
I ask in a faint voice:
"Is killing… right?
Is revenge… justice?"
I imagine bliss, if only for a day…
I cannot accept this ending…
Will I go to hell?
I wish my sins could bear the price of my family's mistakes…
To compensate them for my weakness… and for my helplessness…
I'm tired… I want to sleep… an eternal sleep…
But this sleep… Death… takes pity on me as I fall, right before the body of my friend.
The End of the Prologue
This is a powerful conclusion to Kim's first life. The way he reaches for the moon while questioning the morality of revenge sets up a very dark and complex path for his future.