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Chapter 54 - “If I let go of what I love, what will remain of me?”

⚠️ WARNING ⚠️

The following content portrays situations of vulnerability

in South Korea during the 1960s 🇰🇷

The author does not seek shock value or sensationalism.

Everything narrated is fiction 📖

Reader discretion is advised.

📝 AUTHOR'S NOTE AND IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT 📝

First of all, I wish you a belated Merry Christmas 🎄

and a prosperous New Year ✨

I haven't posted these past days because I was working

to get my first graphic tablet 🖊️💻

It arrived last week, and I decided to take some time

to practice and adapt to this new medium.

I had never worked with digital art before.

I was always more into traditional drawing 🎨

These days have been intense—trial, error, and learning,

but I wanted to publish only when I felt ready.

I hope you like the new poster 🙏

I'll be sharing it as well on my Twitter 🐦 @TholioMH

From now on, chapters will be released more frequently.

I already feel more comfortable with the tablet

(even if color theory still breaks my brain 🤯).

And yes, it's confirmed:

the comic adaptation of Polemos Tón Agion is coming 📚🔥

It will arrive on Globalcomix to avoid censorship issues

like those on Webtoon and other very family-friendly platforms.

I don't know when… but it will arrive.

Enjoy the chapter 🤍

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Drops fell from the ceiling of that place.

Calling it a home was nothing more than daily habit.

The walls stood open,

letting the water seep inside,

as if protecting anything no longer mattered.

It was not a house.

It was only a memory of what once was.

Among all the dwellings in that place,

it was the most exposed one.

The one no one ever noticed.

The one no one ever looked at.

Inside lived a girl.

She did not truly live.

She was only trying to recover

from a flu that kept her bedridden,

from the bruises on her arms and legs.

Memories returned,

as if the house understood the girl.

The walls grew damp, like her memories,

distant from herself, as if from another life.

Maybe the house was listening.

Or maybe the girl herself was a home,

or perhaps both were.

In that broken space,

desires and memories piled up,

useless echoes of something that no longer existed.

Waiting became her punishment.

Waiting for a father

became a form of resistance,

filled with anguish, even as her heart

insisted on pretending otherwise.

Holding on to hope

was not bravery.

It was fear of becoming empty.

Because letting it go would mean

having no memories left to cling to,

no certainty beneath her steps.

That fragile thread

was the only thing keeping her standing,

anchored to a reality

she could barely endure.

Maybe it was nothing more than that:

a broken fragment,

trapped in the mind of a girl

doing everything she could

to delay the inevitable day.

Her father did not abandon her.

But in trying to save her,

in believing she would be better far from him,

he left her alone.

Not for lack of love.

But for lack of conviction.

And then, that sound born from silence

awoke the little girl.

It was like the ringing in your ears

when there is nothing,

when you know there are no sounds,

and yet something insists on being heard.

A dreadful rumble,

like the currents of the sea

before rising against the storm.

Yeon-shil opened her eyes.

The house was still dripping.

Several drops fell onto her face.

She had no reason to move.

No reason to feel happy either.

She sat up only to avoid the discomfort.

The room remained motionless,

dim, as if the fog

had managed to slip inside the house,

turning it gray.

Then, the voice spoke.

"It is your day, Yeon-shil."

"My day?

What are you talking about?" the girl asked.

"The day has come

for which our creator

has been preparing you."

The room seemed to shrink.

"The times of God have marked

this path, this horizon."

"The Hierophant of the East."

"Why do you keep calling me that?" she asked,

in disbelief.

"Because there is nothing left

that you can do here."

Yeon-shil clenched her fingers.

"Is Dad going to come back?" she said,

gasping between tears.

She had asked this more than once,

and they always gave her the same answer,

but this time, it would not be the same.

The air changed.

Silence began to take shape.

Something sat beside her.

To her,

it was an unknown man.

Tall.

Too tall.

He wrapped his arms around her, and she closed her eyes,

slipping into a kind of trance, a calm,

as if feathers and the scent of feathers

were sheltering her.

"Your father loved you, Yeon-shil."

"He loved you with all his heart.

He thought only of you."

"Of when he would return for you."

"Of when he could go back

to the village where your mother was born

to take you back."

"Sometimes parents want what is best."

"Sometimes they do not understand

that bringing a child into the world

means protecting their soul

and guarding their heart from every cut."

"And many times they fail to see

that leaving, when a child lacks everything,

can be the worst decision of all."

Yeon-shil held him tightly.

To her eyes,

she was embracing a motionless man.

But to us,

Yeon-shil was holding

absolute nothingness.

The girl tried to wipe away her tears

without letting go of the man.

Her voice came out broken:

"I don't understand…

why are you so cruel to me?"

"You didn't protect me.

You did nothing

when those children beat me."

"You did nothing

when the woman left me

and went to another town."

"You did nothing…"

"If you are good, then

give him back… to… me…."

Yeon-shil held on even tighter.

"I don't even know their names…

I've asked you so many times."

"And yet,

I don't know what your name is."

The man fell silent.

Then he asked:

"Why do you keep searching for my name?"

"What is a name to you?"

"Something you choose,

or something given to you at birth?"

"A name is bound to the mind.

It grips the heart—this way of thinking

always leads to war, and then to slavery."

"We do not have names.

We have titles."

The man lowered his face.

"The young one you saw…

do you remember him, Yeon-shil?"

"The one who had

something strange in his chest?"

"Yes."

"You must go with him."

"He will come for you."

"It was his destiny to reach this place.

And yours, to wait for him."

The girl shook her head.

"I don't want to leave."

The man's eyes began to glow.

He gently stroked her hair.

"We cannot touch

anyone's freedom."

"We cannot force you

to do what you do not wish."

"But this time, Yeon-shil,

the fate of the world hangs by a thread."

"Many lives depend

on whether you go with him… or… whether you don't."

"I know you don't want to leave your home."

"But God does not want you to stay here either."

Silence grew heavy.

"The decision will be yours."

"And whatever you choose

will be carved into history."

The man took a deep breath.

"What many kings

longed to see with your eyes…"

"What seers, sorcerers,

and spiritualists sought for centuries…"

"Happens only

once every seven jubilees."

"And three centuries have passed

since the last hierophant."

The man looked at her.

"You are the next."

"You were born at the right time.

On the right land."

"The conditions for someone like you

are as rare as the strangest metals on Earth."

"We do not alter time."

"But whatever you decide

will change everything."

For a moment, the calm

was interrupted by a sound at the door.

The old man entered clumsily, out of breath.

"Yeon-shil! I brought you fish soup.

This will do you good… wait a moment, all right?"

She raised her hand, almost trembling.

"Mr. Deok-su…

can you see him?"

The old man looked around.

Nothing. Only the damp, empty house.

"See what?" he asked slowly.

Yeon-shil felt her chest tighten.

She remembered other times.

Other questions.

Other looks that did not believe her.

Telling the truth

always left her alone.

"No… nothing. Forget it."

Deok-su frowned.

He didn't understand, but something unsettled him.

That question did not sound like a game.

He sat beside the loose bed,

uncomfortable, unsure of what to say.

"Yeon-shil… does anything hurt?"

"Nothing hurts, Mr. Deok-su…"

The old man fell silent.

He thought about the rice he had left on the stove.

About how it might burn.

About how doing something concrete

was easier than facing the incomprehensible.

"I'll go get the rice," he murmured.

"I don't want it to spoil.

I'll be right back."

He stood up with effort

and left, worried…

but relieved to go.

Yeon-shil did not move.

Her mind was in a state

of emotional numbness.

She was incapable of being anything

but a single emotion: hopelessness.

As a response to her lack of meaning,

she bit the corner of the blanket.

From hunger.

From anxiety.

From wanting to feel something,

even if it was disgust.

Nothing.

She curled into herself,

protecting her aching legs,

clinging to blurred memories

of when they still came looking for her.

What her eyes could see

did not exist for others.

When she closed her eyes,

she avoided slipping into madness.

Inside her home, she was safe;

outside of it, the voices—

foreign to those who cared for her—

never stopped tormenting her.

The gift of Yeon-shil

was not a blessing,

but a way of existing:

a constant doubt

that lingered

even when an answer already existed.

Then, the voice spoke one last time.

"You are protected."

"So it was ordered."

"Until the day arrives,

we will not stop watching over you."

"Prepare yourself, Yeon-shil."

"We have faith

that you will answer correctly

when the young Jack Fürtz

speaks your name."

It was Jack Fürtz.

He was knocking on the door, clearly worried.

"Yeon-shil? May I come in?"

She heard him from her room.

She did not get out of bed.

She wiped her tears as best she could

and told him to come in.

She noticed the soup as soon as Jack stepped inside.

Hunger appeared without asking permission

and she began to drink it slowly.

Jack entered, greeted her first,

and asked permission before sitting down.

"Yeon-shil, we don't have much time."

"The ship is about to depart."

Jack took a deep breath.

"I've reevaluated the situation."

"Kamei-san has as well."

"We've decided to take you with us."

"We want you to come on the journey."

But Yeon-shil barely heard him.

Her attention was fixed

on the tongue of fire

burning above Jack's head.

"Why do you have fire on your head?"

Jack looked at her, confused.

He touched his hair.

There was no candle.

Nothing visible.

What Yeon-shil saw

belonged to another plane.

"Listen to me," Jack said.

"I don't know what you feel in this place,

but I want to take you with me."

"We don't know each other."

"I'm a stranger to you."

"It makes sense that you're afraid."

"Danae always says

I have no tact with words,

but I'll try to do this right."

"Come with us, Yeon-shil."

"I want to take you to a land

where time does not move forward."

"To a place where there are people

like us."

"If you say yes,

I'll carry you and take you to the ship."

"If you say no,

I'll leave and let you stay here."

The girl, uncertain, asked:

"Can you see them?"

"See whom?"

"The ones who gave you

that tongue of fire."

Jack fell silent.

"Yes," he answered.

"Not always, but I can see them."

"Maybe they're the reason

I'm here,

asking you to come with me."

"If I took you by force,

I would be doing the same thing

as someone I deeply despise."

"That's why I want to ask you

to come of your own will."

Yeon-shil shrank back.

"I'm scared."

"I don't want to leave."

"I want to wait for my dad."

"Is that why

you stayed here all this time?"

She nodded.

"I understand," Jack said.

"It's something I would have done

at your age."

"If you don't want to come, that's fine."

"At first I got excited

when Kamei-san changed his mind,

but I didn't think about yours."

"If waiting for him here

is what keeps you going,

I won't be the one to take that from you."

"I wish

I had your courage back then."

Yeon-shil glanced at him.

It was the first time

someone did not mock

her hope.

"It was a pleasure meeting you, Yeon-shil."

Jack stood up

and carefully left the room.

As soon as he reached the entrance,

he saw the old man approaching

Yeon-shil's house

with a bowl of rice.

Seeing him, he asked with intrigue

and a hint of anger:

"What are you doing here?"

Jack replied:

"Nothing… I thought

I was doing some good."

Jack could not clearly express what he felt,

but if he had to compare it to something,

it would be guilt and sadness.

After that, he withdrew in silence.

The old man could barely understand

what was happening,

but he sensed that perhaps

there was only one possibility.

He closed the front door,

went to Yeon-shil's room,

and set the bowl of rice aside.

He sat down and, with the weight of his years,

held a single thought to himself.

Maybe…

just maybe.

The old man spoke carefully.

"If you go with them,

you may find something

greater than the mountains

and wider than the seas."

He fell silent.

His fingers trembled slightly

over the bedsheet.

For a moment, his gaze drifted away,

as if he had remembered something ancient.

Something he had never spoken aloud.

"You know the man

I spoke with is immortal."

Yeon-shil frowned.

"An immortal?"

The old man took a deep breath.

He thought of the years that had passed

without leaving a mark on that face.

"I've known him since he was a child," he said.

"He hasn't changed at all."

He lifted his gaze, resolute.

"And I'd wager the young man

who walks at his side

is another immortal as well."

Yeon-shil thought for a moment.

"And if I go with them?"

"What happens if they take me?"

"You will be free from this place,"

Deok-su replied.

She looked toward a corner of the room.

But her attention was not on the old man.

Yeon-shil was not looking at the room.

She was looking at a female figure,

very similar to herself,

who smiled at her with tenderness.

It felt familiar,

as if she had known her forever.

The voice, almost a whisper,

audible only to the sensitive ears

of Yeon-shil, said:

"Go…

go, my little mugunghwa."

Something ignited in her chest.

It was not courage,

it was the exhaustion of staying.

Yeon-shil thought of the door,

of the world beyond the threshold,

of a place where her name

would not weigh so heavily.

"I want to go with them,"

the girl said,

"but I can't."

She pressed her fingers

into the blanket.

"I can't walk."

"My legs hurt."

At the far end of the pier,

Kamei-san remained silent,

caught between what he had said

and what he had decided not to say.

He thought of Jack.

Of his words.

Of that habit of his

of getting involved

when the world demanded distance.

He hadn't managed to sort his thoughts

when he saw him returning along the path.

Jack walked slowly.

Too slowly for someone like him.

Head lowered, shoulders tense,

as if he were carrying an answer that hurt.

He boarded the ship without saying a word.

"Let's go," he murmured.

Kamei-san frowned.

"And Yeon-shil?"

"Isn't she coming?"

Jack did not answer right away.

"No," he said at last.

"She's not coming."

"Why didn't you bring her?" he insisted.

"Wasn't that our intention?"

Jack clenched his fists.

"I won't take her against her will."

"If she wants to stay here,

waiting for her father,

I won't be the one to take that from her."

Kamei-san looked at him for a long moment.

Then he sighed.

"Sometimes I feel, Jack,

that you make life harder for yourself."

"You made me halt the journey

because you believed she would come with us,

and in the end it was the girl herself

who convinced you not to."

He fell silent for a second.

Then he softened his voice.

"You get too involved

with people you barely know."

"There are reasons

that girl was never taken to an orphanage."

But then he looked at him differently.

Not with reproach.

With respect.

"Even so…"

"I'm glad you have that heart."

"I'm glad you wanted to help her."

Jack lifted his gaze.

"Tell me something," he asked.

"Could we have taken her to Vermont?"

Kamei-san thought.

"Could we? Yes."

"Vermont doesn't close its doors to just anyone."

He paused.

He looked toward the forest in the distance.

"Although…"

"the forest only allows the chosen to enter."

"I'm not sure Yeon-shil

could have crossed without consequences."

"But it doesn't matter anymore," he concluded.

"She won't come."

"And the question will remain unanswered."

The engine began to roar.

Kamei-san looked toward the pier.

He saw the old man.

He saw the girl.

He accelerated.

"Jack," he said firmly,

"What are you doing?! Stop the ship!"

With the authority of a captain,

Kamei-san replied:

"We don't have time!"

"If you plan to go after her,

you'll have to jump now,"

"and bring her onto the ship yourself!"

"If you don't do it,

I won't take her with me!"

Jack smiled.

Not a calm smile.

A living one.

"Are you challenging me?!"

"Hurry up!" Kamei-san replied,

"saint of fire!"

And then it happened.

Jack launched himself from the stern

with a force not of this world.

The air burst around him.

Small flames bloomed beneath his feet,

brief and alive, like ignited stars

pushing him toward the sky.

He did not jump.

He ascended.

From the pier,

Deok-su and Yeon-shil

looked up, breathless.

The young man rose

higher than the rooftops,

higher than the trees,

higher than any human being

would have dared to imagine.

The world seemed to stop.

The girl's heart trembled.

Not from fear.

From wonder.

She had never seen anything like it.

Never had anyone flown

driven by fire

and will alone.

And she knew, in that instant,

that she was witnessing

something that would never

happen again.

From the air, without fear,

Yeon-shil shouted:

"Hey!"

"I forgot to ask you your name!"

Jack landed with a dull impact.

The ground creaked, as if protesting.

He straightened amid the dust,

wearing a wide, living smile,

the kind that asks no permission.

He looked straight at her.

And then he spoke,

not as an introduction,

but as a decree:

"My name is Jack Fürtz."

The name fell with weight.

As if, by saying it,

the world had no choice

but to accept it.

He took her carefully,

with an almost sacred gentleness,

and began to run.

Each step branded the pier

with black, burning marks,

living ash the ground

could not contain.

The air began to tremble.

With one final push,

Jack hurled himself into the void.

The world opened beneath them.

Yeon-shil screamed.

Fear tore the sound from her

as the pier vanished

and the sky became everything.

The boat rocked as it received them,

the planks groaned,

the water struck the sides,

as if it, too, wanted to look.

In the air, as they fell,

Jack laughed.

"Yeon-shil," he said, filled with emotion.

"Now you will come with us."

The flames burst forth again,

small and dancing,

pushing them forward.

"I will take you to the edges of this world."

"To the forest where I come from."

The wind roared.

The girl's heart raced wildly.

She kept screaming…

but something changed.

Jack's words

shattered the fear.

She felt the air like wings.

She felt her body grow light.

She felt life.

Leaving her home

was not falling.

It was flying.

Already aboard,

Yeon-shil looked back.

She saw the old man,

growing smaller and smaller.

The tears fell on their own.

"Thank you, Mr. Deok-su," she whispered.

From the pier,

he shouted with a broken voice:

"Take care, Yeon-shil!"

"Eat fish!"

"And a bowl of rice every day!"

"And don't forget about me!"

She did not answer.

She only held on to Jack.

Because she was not traveling

with extraordinary people alone.

She was also leaving behind

something that hurt more

than she had expected.

Her home.

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