Human... They're social creatures that need others to survive. Sure, it's possible to survive alone, but you can't call that living either.
Why? Because being alone is lonely... You may deny it as much as you want. But the truth is just that plain and simple.
Speaking of loneliness, I can't help but be reminded again... Yes, as you have guessed, I'm feeling really lonely right now. So lonely that I can't help but get depressed and want to die...
"This is my fault... I deserve this... It's my punishment, I can't complain about it..."
Those words came out of my mouth in a low breath... My eyes were empty, with no light in them, as dead as they could be...
This depressed bastard dressed in rags, with messy black hair that hasn't touched water in a long time, is me. Zuria Benedict Kalion, that's my name...
What? You think my name is badass? Yeah, I think so too... Too bad I'm just a homeless hobo... Must've been a disappointment, huh?
I'm 29 if you want to know my age. And now you must be curious why I became like this, right?
"Shut up, brain..."
Come on, Zur, you don't have anything to do anyway. Might as well think of something to pass the time, yeah?
"True enough... And I really wanna die anytime soon if possible... Think of something that can help me die without any pain..."
Not possible! I'm too scared of pain to go and off myself! And a painless death needs money, lots of it...
Now I don't feel like thinking or coming up with anything anymore... Too depressed to think...
"As expected of me!" I said with a monotone voice and an expressionless face. "Let's just stay here and starve to death..."
Maybe I'm going to die of dehydration before dying of starvation... By the way, the sky is so bright and blue... Where are the clouds? Isn't it too bright for me to die right now?
It would be great if it started raining anytime now... Not that I'm thirsty or anything... I just think that dying while it's raining is beautiful... Feels like the world is crying for me...
"...Am I trippin' or is the world starting to spin?" A frown graced my dirty, pale and emaciated face.
I felt a little scared but decided to just let go... Ignoring it.
Rather than feeling better, I think it's getting worse... My stomach hurts, my throat is burning, my head is dizzy and my body is weak, like I'm underwater... Help, I'm under the water...
My stupid brain decides to get playful, it seems... I think I'm about to die, yet I still think of some old meme...
"It's... get... ting... dark... now..." I managed to let that out with difficulty, with ragged breath and a cracked voice, before it all started to get blurry and slowly the world turned dark...
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Unknown time, unknown place.
"I thought I died? How am I still talking and feeling really energetic?! And why is it so dark here?! Did I go blind or something? Anyone? Someone? My dick is ten meters long!!"
Yeah right. No one's here...
I tried to shout and scream like a bitch but still got no response. I was inside a forest when I died? Been staying there for like, 5 days before I kicked the bucket...
Gotta keep the street clean, yeah? Don't want to get someone else's shoes dirty after all.
Anyway, I'm sure I was so weak I couldn't even stand up. But now I can jump around, filled with so much excess energy that it's troubling me.
Putting that aside, it's really dark here... Like, super duper DARK! I can feel, hear, breathe, and swallow my saliva. But I don't know if I can see, cuz it's really dark here... Important points need to be repeated a few more times yo~
I do know that I'm standing on even ground. It feels like concrete but I'm not sure...
"What a pathetic insect."
A sudden voice echoed all around, making it difficult to tell where it came from.
The voice was male, deep and strong.
A frown started to appear on my face, not because of the insult, but because I'm really scared of pain... What if he wants to torture me or something... Anyway, joke aside, I'm not scared, but I do feel confused right now.
"Who are you?" I shouted back, my body standing as straight as a pole, ready to run or fight back if necessary.
"Putting you here is an insult to me... To think he dares to put an insect in my domain! HOW INSULTING! SO INFURIATING!" The voice echoed again in rage.
This time his voice was guttural and filled with rage as he roared the last part. It made my ears ring like he was shouting right beside me.
Rather than fear, I strangely felt nothing and just stood there like a statue, with a frown on my face.
"Like, who the hell are you, dude? I can understand you're angry cuz I'm here uninvited. But you need to know that I don't even know where I am or how I got here! I do know that I died... At least I think I should've died..."
I complained, my tone a bit annoyed and filled with helplessness.
Who cares if he got even more angry at me! I was depressed enough to want to die, so I guess it's even better if he kills me now. So without waiting for his reply, I continued.
"I don't know what your issue is, but can you stop shouting? It's fucking loud and annoying. If you understand me, I'd rather we talk it out like intelligent beings... Better than just shouting at each other like bitches, yeah?" I taunted him more.
"GET OUT!"
He roared so loud that I could feel the earth(?) I was standing on start to shake. A strong gust of wind blew me away from behind, making me tumble around, rolling on the ground(?) painfully, before something hard hit my head, making me dizzy and I lost consciousness.
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{A/N: Also let me remind you. The start of this story will definitely make you frustrated... Even I feel frustrated after reading my own story... lol 🤣
Just bear with me for a few chapters, it will get better.}