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Chapter 29 - CHAPTER 29

"WE CAN CALL IT QUITS"

Baby girl, it's a whole lot of a mess going on in my head and the last thing that I need is to wonder how does somebody that I like feels about me, I already got shit that I gotta deal with and I can't take another baggage of anxiety, confusion and seeking validation.

We can call it quits, go our separate ways, no love lost 'cause there was never any reciprocated and this one-sided shit isn't for me. I grew up seeking my mother's love and I refuse to be pursuing you for something that you would easily give if you cared about me.

If this shit was meant to be, it wouldn't drain me, confuse me or inconvenience me, so we can call it quits and go our separate ways, what's the use of sticking around if I can't tell the difference whether I'm still alone or not?

I've wasted so much of my life trying to change things into what they aren't and forcing my way into someone's heart isn't what I'm about to do. I already been miserable and all lonely, I can't take another baggage of anxiety, confusion and seeking validation.

 

"3 You Can Do For Me"

The infatuation phase has come to an end, the new energy wasn't what I thought it was and now that I'm stepping out of the stressing, I realize how I've used pleasure to deal with my deep pain but all it's been is lust.

An old friend is spending time with me for the evening, don't wanna overthink anything right now, just wanna lay down and lay off, what's in my head right now is what I'm in love with, the sweet feeling of ecstasy.

She shouldn't bring up any of the girls that she's seen me around with, it was just a quest for something that I couldn't help myself from chasing, maybe I'm getting worse than toxic but none of these girls got anything that'd make me slow down and believe in love.

As a woman, there's 3 things you can do for me, is to love me genuinely, to see me for who I am and to choose me everytime, that's the only 3 things I need.

All them girls were good for the adventure and she might judge for the number of times I laid down with girls but I'm looking for somebody who's gonna meet my needs, just 3 things. To love me genuinely, to see me for who I really am and to choose me through everyday.

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