Guys, I won't hide this from you.
These past few days I've been struggling with a huge lack of creativity. I suspect it's burnout from the intense effort I've put into some projects over the last few months. I'm going to try slowing down a bit so this passes quickly… Does anyone have any tips on how I can recover faster?
It's a strange feeling of mental blankness.
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We caught a bus and sat calmly in the back, looking at the view out the window. The bus was empty, just Tomy-chan, an old lady, and the driver, of course.
I had agreed with Tomy-chan that after going to the school to check things out, we would go to the square to see how the old beggar was. I felt a slight anticipation about this, while the apprehension after the events with Uncle threw cold water on it. I tried to be more careful now; we always need to imagine the potential risks before interacting with different people, because you never know how they might react… or what secrets the person kept tightly guarded.
I squeezed Tomy's little hand, who seemed distracted with something for a while, "we'll buy a little bit of everything, okay?" I speak gently while observing the passing scenery, "but let's try to get some clothes different from the usual…"
"Okay, Mi-kun…" she squeezes my hand, her voice completely curious and thoughtful, "did you see that man back there…?"
I turn to her, intrigued, "I didn't, which man?" I ask curiously. I felt strange because she showed so much interest in someone, but her gossipy face made me smile slightly.
"Before we got on the bus… there was a strange man at the station, he was too young to be there…" she says curiously. "… I mean, he looked completely different from the others… I've never seen anyone like him before… I can't explain it right."
"What do you mean too young?" I ask, looking at her who seemed to be pondering.
"Too young to go to the town where we live… he seemed to be close to our age…" she spoke thoughtfully, "but… the way he walked and dressed… was different from the usual in our town…"
"Close to our age? well, he might be someone's grandson then…" the town really had a high average age and a very small population, "and wearing strange clothes… like gyaru?"
"Someone's grandson…? gyaru… maybe, but a male gyaru?" she looks at me and then shakes her head, denying, "I don't think he's anyone's grandson there… he was filming with his cell phone as if he was someone who works with those things, you know…? he seemed to be… curious about the town… but there's nothing much there, right?"
I was confused. Even within this scenario, of a gyaru from another city, or a Mytuber, there was still a chance he was someone's grandson. I started to get curious just like my childhood friend.
"He was very handsome, like an idol, so I doubt he's anyone's grandson in the town…" she says in a gossipy tone, "he seemed to be… different…"
"Handsome like an idol?" I mechanically repeat her speech trying to understand the implication of that… was she interested in him…?
I looked at Tomy-chan and only a gossipy curiosity seemed to exist.
"Yes, like an idol… he was well-dressed, in clothes that looked expensive, and pointed his cell phone around while talking non-stop… his hair with gel and a different style… he was wearing sunglasses… but took them off and kept them on his head…"
For some reason, the image that popped into my mind was a young Yakuza member…
"Filming… idol…" I try to search for some information about this in my mind, but nothing comes up. "I've never heard of anyone like that before…"
The town was small enough that all the gossip about grandsons would have already been heard, and nothing similar had ever been said.
'there was the inmate and the gyaru…'
The most peculiar grandsons were the grandson who was arrested for some financial crime and another person's granddaughter who became a gyaru after going to the capital, nothing about a 'male gyaru' let alone any Mytuber…
'Redtuber…?'
The thought came up when I remembered that GogroFat guy… and his peculiar profession, but it seemed even more unlikely to me.
"Me neither, that's why I was surprised" Tomy-chan's curious little eyes shone, "what do you think he was doing there? hehe"
Tomy's cute, curious little laugh was one of the most priceless things for me, a moment when I saw the cute person she was… even before I started to have a 'taste' for her violent curves.
"Later, when we return, we'll try to find out," I say as I grab her thigh to provoke her, "now let's focus on our date~"
"Mik-kun!~" she smiles sweetly while glancing towards the driver to make sure we weren't seen.
After a while, we arrived at the bus station and walked slowly to the mall. I noticed a man following us, slowly getting closer.
'Too old to be a thief…' I quickly judged.
A really large amount of people were walking everywhere, thousands of people if I had to guess. Cars, motorcycles, cyclists…
"Wow, it's always so crowded here," I say admiringly at the wave of people going from one side to the other. The difference between here and our town was really striking; it felt like we had entered a different world.
"Mi-kun…" Tomy's mosquito-like voice snaps me out of my trance, and I look at her and see her look of complete discomfort.
'Ah… social aversion… shyness… and a crowded place… a place very full of strange people.'
"Don't worry, Tomy, there are so many people here that no one pays attention to anyone." I squeeze her little hand to reassure her.
"Honto ni? Honto?" her little voice was still like a mosquito's, but she unfolded herself and looked around trying to realize it. "does no one see me…?"
"Yes~ there's so much visual information and so much worry that even if someone was naked in the middle of them, most wouldn't even notice," I say, laughing as I follow her gaze around, "so even if eyes turn to us, it's more like we're obstacles than people."
"But, that's also why you have to be careful…" I looked around, "there are people who, knowing this, try to take advantage…"
"Take advantage of what…?" Tomy's curious and distressed voice repeats me, "pickpocket?"
"Yes, that and other things too…" I looked at a strange old man who was following us while looking at Tomy-chan's big ass. He was getting closer and closer as if looking for something. His gaze was fixed without blinking, his steps measured, as if he wanted to bump into her… he looked like a pickpocket, but since he was old, I gave him some mental leeway, and then something popped into my mind.
'Molester also… chikan… it's quite popular in hentais…' I think as I observe the old man's strange behavior, 'Does he perhaps want to bump into her not to steal, but to touch Tomy…?'
I don't know anymore if I'm seeing the real world or if I'm strongly filtering everything using my fetish as a base, but the hot bubbling I feel when noticing his gaze and the intention I deduced, seemed so real…
When he noticed that I was looking at him, he changed his path and walked away, and I felt a slight frustration rise.
'damn… I should have been more discreet to see what he really wanted to do…' I cursed myself mentally.
"What else…?" Tomy's curious and distressed voice came, "besides thieves…"
"Well, there are other things, but now let's go to the mall and buy everything we want…" my desire burned when the idea of chikan flashed in my mind.
'Take Tomy… to a subway… and then…' I looked at her who was very tense due to the crowd.
'She's already suffering as she is, if I do that it would be completely distressing… better not. Or maybe that could change her focus and then it would help…' a slight internal dilemma as we start entering the mall.
After the strange events at Alfred's house, I became more fearful and more cautious about how things would be interpreted by her. I couldn't leave the erotic and go to discomfort… extreme discomfort would be terror, not ecchi.
The horror I felt was something I never wanted to bump into again, whether real or not, it was a crucial lesson for me.
"Look, there are Pokie Girlmon Star plushies, want to see?" I point to a window next door where plush toys were sold.
"PokieGirls?" Tomy's little eyes shone.
I bought an ice cream for myself and one for Tomy-chan, who was clutching a mini plush satire and a keychain of a small, ugly goblin.
"Should we start with this store?" I point to the ordinary clothing store; we still needed to go to the cosplay and swimsuit stores… but it didn't have to be all on this trip; it would be nice, but not necessary.
"Let's go!" the recent dose of sugar seemed to have cheered her up.
I picked up some clothes on the way: light sportswear, dresses, skirts, short shorts. Every light and pretty piece of clothing I collected in the basket. Tomy, on the other hand… I looked at her hands: hoodies, sweatshirts, thick clothes.
"Tomy, you already have so many thick clothes, let's focus on having extra options, how about it?" I smile lightly at her.
Tomy-chan stares at my basket apprehensively and then looks at hers.
"I … I don't think I can wear the clothes Mi-kun chose…" she becomes slightly pale, "… I mean, not in public!" she strives not to hurt me and tries to appreciate my choices.
"Don't worry about that…" I smile broadly, "we'll get these things and then we'll see how they look and then decide where to wear them."
Tomy-chan agrees tremblingly, "okay…"
"Look, why don't you choose something for me…?" I try to cheer her up.
"True!" the sparkle returns to her eyes, "I'll get something for Mi-kun!"
Then she runs off after clothes for me, and I look at the short dresses and daring skirts.
"It doesn't have to be so short or daring… Tomy's curves would already do the job…" I murmur softly as I already imagined my sweet childhood friend dressed in such a short dress… her big butt would be all exposed… the cleavage too intense… so I look at other simpler dresses where her violent curves would be marked and would give a certain vulgar air but not extreme vulgarity.
"Yes, it has to be something simpler…" I pick up the normal dresses and skirts that go down to the knee, but I still pick up the leggings and short shorts.
My eyes find ritualistic clothes: fundoshi, happi and yukata.
I picked up the fundoshi and two yukatas, one long and one short.
Hehe— I chuckled foolishly, thinking of the options this opened up, and then I saw a martial arts Kimono and remembered our sporting time… I picked up a Kimono that would look daring on Tomy-chan. hehe— I would spend all my money reserve, but it would be worth it!
When Tomy-chan returned with similar, but masculine, pieces of clothing for me, I was surprised, and then we started laughing together.
"Mi-kun thought the same thing as me!" Tomy smiled sweetly while showing the male fundoshi and other clothes.
"Tomy-chan is so daring~" I teased her while holding the small fundoshi she chose.
"It's not that…! I… I…" she was speechless for a second, "Mi-kun would look so cute~" she smiles meltingly as she imagined something.
I picked up a V-neck shirt she chose for me…. I looked at the cleavage clothes I chose for her… and then I looked at Tomy-chan and then at myself… it seemed very similar. Similar to the story that seemed to be an echo.
'Could Tomy… have the same fetish as me…? would she think it was cool to see me with other women…?' This thought quickly came to my mind but soon disappeared. I was the one who was strange and different… right? Tomy-chan is more normal.
'I'm overthinking it…'
"Look Mi-kun, what is that man doing…?" I follow Tomy-chan's little finger and there near the dressing room…