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Chapter 20 - Mistakes

Mistakes happen in life

Nobody's ever perfect

That's alright

At least we all try our best

I didn't need you to be perfect

I accepted you for who you were

It didn't work out in the end

I see your reasoning

Behind your decisions

It's hard I know

I don't blame you for anything

It was my own delusions

And expectations

That destroyed me

Learnt it the hard way

To never expect anything from anyone

I miss you so badly

And wonder if you ever miss me

If you ever think of me

As much as I think of you

Wish to talk to you

But I have to resist the urge

So as not to cause

Any more damage

Than I already did

Still breathing

Still bruised

Still wanting to escape

To some place far away

Until I am alright again

Human relations are chemical reactions

We won't be the same

After a reaction

But we can change ourselves

Constantly for the better

Kill my old self

And find myself again

Kill your old self

And find yourself again

Let's cross paths again

As our fully healed new selves

Full of newly gained wisdom

As good old friends

Who can look back to this day

And laugh it off

Learnt it the hard way

That this world

We reside in is

Unkind to people

With soft hearts

Unkind to human

emotions and feelings

I didn't need you to be perfect

I liked seeing your raw

Unfiltered self

I wouldn't have judged you

For who you are

Your authenticity mattered to me

Consistency is all I asked for

I can't settle for less than the

Bare minimum, I'm sorry

I knew your pain and your reasoning

Yet I was selfish at times

It's my own fault

For being so delusional

As these delusions

Help me escape reality

I don't blame you for anything

Yes I am still bruised

And hurt but

I don't blame you for anything

Let's use this experience

To gain more wisdom

And kill our old selves

And be reborn as a

Better version of ourselves

Let's cross paths again

After we healed and

Look back to this day

While laughing it all off

Mistakes happen

And that's life

Let's not repeat old mistakes

And learn from them

My dearest online friend

May God keep you

Smiling and smiling

From your heart

Keep your heart safe

Keep your family safe

And happy forever

My dearest online friend

And past lover

Mistakes happen and that's life

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