When Lion called me to come down. I non-intensely ignored him.
I was in a state; where I was lost in my own thoughts. If anyone wants to get me out of the cloudy thoughts… but unfortunately they can't, there is only one way to escape that thought is—my own will.
It depends on me whether I want to or not. From childhood, I often faced that state. I was conscious, but I was not in my right mind.
I was often scolded by my parents. I don't even able to talk to my friends in middle school because of this shitty state. I always felt ignored or lonely in my life until fourth grade.
No one understands me. Or they don't want to understand me on purpose.
"Such a pitiful life I am living." I sigh.
Lion called him one more time, "Minato, come down." Louder than the first one.
I was startled and came out of his thoughts—twenty seconds later.
Now, I am leading toward them. Ah Damn it I am hungry. I thought.
I came near them for food. He served me? That's unbelievable. I smirk to myself.
Lion glanced at me, "Why are you smiling?"
I ignore him and sit on the couch—far from their sweet time they are spending.
I feel goosebump like someone glaring at me but I ignore that. Who cares if someone is staring at me means I am pretty.
I smile while encouraging my own beauty.
But the main thing is that he served me??? Meaning he?? That shitty ass bastard serves me?? Who hasn't even talked to me for the past 2 weeks?? That person served me??? AMAZING??!!
Why did he serve me? That's impossible. How would I believe he is the Lion I know? Unpredictable.
I am in a daze… after 20 seconds of thoughts. I take a deep breath to calm myself.
I looked at them again.This is one of the foolish choices I ever made.
Lion is feeding his mistress or, typically, actual partner with his own hand.
He never made food for me or fed me with his hand. I am thinking too far, it's basically impossible.
Lion talks with his mistress—nicely with a grim look on his face while I am staring at them; he is happy with his partner, now he doesn't need me anymore.
I had a silly thought about If he made it for me, I would be happy, but it is a little but It can make me feel nice—with a pale look on his face, he smiled, but a broken one;
That's impossible, Hm… Ya… Impossible…
I finished my food as quickly as I could.
Without making any sound I look at them again—They act as a new couple like they were on a date… so annoying..
Lion tried to greet, "Hmm… Minato Good morn…".
I don't want to hear his shitty talks at all; I turn my face—ignoring him. I began to head toward my room.
When I was on the way to my hair—I heard a loud sound of giggles. I rush toward the edge of the terrace looking down with a confused look on my face.
A bright and sweet moment glowing more than the sun—appears in front of my eyes. My breath stunned; Staring at me… continuously.
They washed the dishes—together. That's not the case, they are washing dishes so I am unhappy but the matter is 'together'.
Suddenly, his partner blocks the tap from where the water comes from the sink—as a prank.
" What are you doing?" Lion notices what his partner is doing.
The mistress smirked like he got what he wanted. He gap between the fingers to make a little hole where he was holding and opened the tap.
*SPLASH*
In a seconds water splash on the Lion body all over.
"What the hell are you doing?" Lion shouted.
The mistress points a finger on him and laughs, "It is fun to do, ha ha ha…"
I turned my face with a cold expression and stormed to my room. I open the door—panickly. Tears are streaming through my eyes.
*THUD*
I stared at my hands with a blurry view. My knees give way—I fall into the ground. I held my mouth with my hands and started crying—bitterly; I didn't want to hear my crying. It feels pathetic… how I became like that—in the first place.
It hurts… I can't breathe. Suffocating…
That person has been with me since the first semester.
If I am in the position of his partner what would happen. I laugh with imagining things
Something like that would happen… I need this kind of incident to happen in our garden.
He shouted at me like I did something wrong. "What? Are you crazy?! What the hell is wrong with you?"
I apologized to him like I were begging for his forgiveness. "I did it just as a joke. Why are you shouting at me?"
But he shouted again, "Oh—are you thinking this is some kind of joke to you? What a Dump Joke is? You sock my clothes."
In the end, he forgave me as this is my fault..
After that incident later, I never prank with him again.
I cried until my heart wanted to stop… or safe.
I go to the washroom and shower myself to clear my mind. In the mirror, I smiled—trying to confront myself… saying, "I am fine."
I wear my clothes to go to work. But on the stairs—I was stunned, my eyes became wide in terror.
I saw; His partner is kissing Lion's forhead… as a bye.
Lion giggled," Why do you kiss me?"
"It is for good fortune." His partner smiled.
Lion realized what the kiss was for.
"Thank you for the amazing fortune you gave me. Ok bye." Lion voice is humble.
Lion left for his work;
After that situation… my hands are trembling—my body became rigid. I clenched my fist. I passed in front of the mistress to go to work.
He smiled at me; he knew I was watching him from behind—suspeciously.
What a piece of shit I became living here with that creep. I sigh;
I closed the door—roughly— in front of his mistress' face.
I am walking in the street.
Suddenly… I feel a sharp pain in my heart—It would explode from emptiness.
I felt like I was walking on thin ice. On the other side of thin ice there are massive sharp pins under the water.
It cracks a bit; where am I standing? What would happen if it breaks?
When i was in shock and confused—that ice starts cracking, rapidly. It broke. I started drowning in the water, my body was not moving but I was trying my best to do something. Finally in the end I gave up and just sink more into the water.
Suddenly, a picture starts appearing in front of me—I am stunned… The person who is appearing is Lion and me. That thing never happened or I don't remember.
My head began to hurt—untolerable. I grab it tight trying to calm my headache but it's not working. In front me—A screen or something appeared showing the events that would happen in the past… I guess??
I sat on the ground and crawled in pain—tears were streaming in my eyes.
I saw… A FLASH PACK.
Lion was glaring at me in disguise because I kissed him on the forehead.
He ruthlessly pushed me and rudely shouted, "Why did you kiss me? I was nearly too afraid."
He rubbed his head roughly to erase the kiss.
"I think today is my bad day." Lion coldly muttered.
"From today, you don't need to do that kiss.
I think that moment later. He came late at night and stopped talking from then on. I think something is wrong with him.
But I noticed it too late. Now there is no need to worry; things are already done.
If I had to notice the changes at the right time, it wouldn't hurt the way I had ; I don't have to face that moment, but I had to.
Finally that day dream over, my head became light… that headache is fading—slowly.
I slapped himself on the face with two hands to clear his thoughts.
I cheered myself, "I am best, I can do it; no one can break me with such a small thing,"
I take a deep breath—relief. I calmed myself and headed to my cafe.
"What a rough memory… How I forgot that." I laugh at myself.
"My memory…"
TO BE CONTINUED.
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