Chapter 2
The day goes by without us talking to each other, and I tell to myself that I will just admire her from afar and that is enough for me. After couple of days our advisor asks us to vote for officers for our class, I got the position as president of the class, she also got a position on our class, she got the position as secretary and I think to myself that this is the time that me and her will interact, but sadly I quit the job as president because I never really look to myself as a leader, I am more like a follower.
Many more days goes by and we really never got a chance to talk or even for me to get her Facebook account, I was losing hope for me and her to be together. I am not a type of person to force someone to be mine in the first place, so I let it be, and so I thought.
One day our T.L.E teacher group the class for an upcoming cooking project and luckily, I got paired with her, this give me hope that maybe just maybe this time we interact even just a moment. Our group leader creates a group chat for us to discuss on what we can cook. When I see her Facebook account, I think to myself that "maybe I can add her so that I can give her my idea and let her share it to the group" I am to shy to chat in the group chat so that was I thinking, I am not afraid on what one person think but if the others agree on something I feel left out so I guess it best to let them decide.
I added her on Facebook and it felt like a ticking bomb at that moment because I was never even sure if she will accept it, but luckily, she accepts it. Then my first trial done, the second one is chatting her, I chat her nervously asking about the topic that our group leader said earlier in the group chat. I first said good evening and ask her if she already ate, and then she replies with "yes, I just finish eating thank you, how about you?" I reply "I also just finish eating" then we talk for a couple of minutes asking about how was our day, I also don't know why are we talking about that my real intention was just ask and suggest a meal course to her for our group. After a while we calm down and we don't really have a topic to discuss with so I ask if she can suggest something for me to the group chat because I am too scared to chat, she agrees and I suggest a full course meal. She then told the leader directly because they were actually close.
Our leader agrees and thinks that it was a good idea and a good meal to present but she was wondering if I can cook for the group because they don't know how to cook that exact food. I agree and ask them for a fund for me to get in the market, they agree and told me that they will give their contribution tomorrow at school and told me that they will help me prepare the dish for the project and our leader volunteer on presenting the meal. I ask my grandmother to help me cook that dish from scratch for me to cook it in the day that we will present it. My grandmother teaches me step by step process. The dish that we need to cook must contain a fish, the meal that I present to my group is sweet and sour fish for our main course and a small egg sandwich that also have a lettuce and cucumber as appetizer. For dessert my other group member volunteer to make it.
I finish my study about the dish that I will be making for the group and perfected it. The days goes by and me and her started talking more frequently and having a good time talking with each other. At the school we sometimes talk when we meet at the front gate before going inside the school, also in the school field every recess for a recital of the mission and vision of the school and some small announcement. I thought that this was a blessing from God, I wish that this day never ends. Some day on the school field I get to talk to a boy from my class and become a very good friend with him, we hangout for some time and I also told him about my crush to this girl and told me that he will keep it a secret.
A day goes by and a week before the presentation of our meal that also be needing to be done on that day. She texted me first and thought that was unusual, I saw her text and she was just checking on me and the ingredients for our meal, I told her that I already buy the ingredients and just waiting for next week, I also told her that I did not buy the fish first because it might get bad if I did. I just buy the common ingredients like garlic and onion the other are on hold. After that we just talk to each other like usual but this time its longer and comforting for some reason, I cannot explain on what I am feeling that day, I felt like in the sun for I never really expect for us becoming this close or even for me to get to talk with her. I feel hotter and hotter I never notice it that night I just thought that I was tired because of school and the commute that I have to do and also the activities and assignments.
The next day I was sick, my grandmother told me to not go to school this week for me to recover, because I have a weak body I follow her instruction and texted her because she was assign for the attendance and text her that I cannot go to school this week because I was sick, she did not reply nor seen my messages, I thought that she was just busy but then I saw her online and texted in the group chat about the preparation next week, this got me confuse for some reason thinking that "did she not see my text, did I got ignore?" that's what I think, I just let her be because I was to tired and weak at that moment and just rest for that week.
To be continued…