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Chapter 9 - Chapter Nine || Fractured Memories

The rain had thinned to a steady drizzle by the time Ren reached the heart of the city. The streets gleamed beneath the dull glow of lamps, puddles rippling with every passing car. The air carried that metallic tang that came after hours of storm, wet stone, iron, and ghosts.

He walked without direction at first, guided only by instinct — or perhaps by the voice that still lingered in the back of his mind. 

Find him. 

It pulsed softly with every heartbeat, threading through the mist, through the ache in his legs and the weight in his chest.

He turned down an alley, boots splashing through shallow water. The brick walls loomed on either side, graffiti smeared and dripping. One mark caught his attention, a crimson handprint smeared across a rusted door. It was fresh.

Ren's breath slowed. His fingers brushed over the paint. The texture was uneven, layered over older words barely visible beneath. He squinted. Under the red stain, faint letters had been scrawled — worn, but legible enough: "For her."

A cold ripple slid through him. Her?

He pushed open the door. Inside, the air was heavy, stale, filled with the faint scent of mildew and oil. The room was dark, save for a flickering lightbulb that swayed gently overhead. Scattered across a cracked table were photographs, old, water-stained, curling at the edges.

Ren froze.

The first photo showed his mother. Younger, smiling faintly, holding a small child in her arms — a boy maybe four or five years old. Not Ren.

His pulse quickened as he sifted through the others. The same boy appeared again, older, standing beside a playground fence. Another showed him near a lake, holding a red paper plane.

Then one photo caught Ren's breath in his throat. The boy wasn't alone anymore. Standing beside him was Ren himself — barely seven, smaller, thin, his arm wrapped protectively around the younger boy's shoulders.

The memory hit him like lightning.

He saw sunlight. The dusty field behind their old school. Three older kids circling, laughter sharp as knives. He'd stepped between them and the crying boy, the boy with the paper plane — fists clenched, heart hammering. One punch, then another. He hadn't even thought, just moved.

He remembered grabbing the boy's hand afterward, pulling him away, both of them running until their lungs burned. The boy had looked up at him with wide eyes and whispered, "You're like a hero."

Ren had laughed. "Heroes don't get scared."

The boy had smiled. "Then you're one anyway."

Ren blinked, the present snapping back into focus. His chest felt tight. That boy…

He turned over another photograph. On the back, written in jagged ink: "He never forgot what you promised, Ren."

The room seemed to darken around him. The whisper in his head twisted — not the cold command of Find him, but something softer, mocking, almost familiar.

You left him there. Remember?

His hand trembled as he gathered the photos. Beneath them lay an envelope, sealed but brittle from age. He tore it open. Inside were two things: a small pendant shaped like a feather — his mother used to wear one just like it — and a faded note.

You were meant to protect him. But you left.

Now he wears what you buried. — X

Ren's breath stopped.

"X…" he muttered aloud. The name hit something deep inside him.

The whisper came again, this time sharper, almost laughing. Did you forget me already?

He staggered back, gripping the table's edge. Another memory surfaced — not daylight this time, but night. An abandoned house at the edge of the district, its windows shattered, vines crawling through the walls. He'd gone there once as a child, the little boy trailing behind him, scared but curious.

There had been another child there — older by a few years, eyes bright and wild. He'd called himself Xavier, but insisted everyone call him X.

"Because it sounds like a secret," the boy had said, grinning through the dust.

Ren remembered sitting with them both, sharing stale crackers and stories of running away, of building their own world where no one could hurt them. They'd promised to protect each other. Three kids, three shadows bound together in silence.

Then the memory fractured — screams, a collapsing wall, his mother's voice shouting his name — and darkness.

Ren pressed his hands to his head. The tremors returned full force, rattling through his bones. The pendant slipped from his fingers and clinked against the floor.

He bent down to pick it up, but froze when he saw the symbol scratched into the wood beneath the table — a red X, carved deep into the grain.

The whisper in his mind was no longer distant. It was right behind his ear now, warm and venomous.

You remember now, don't you?

Ren turned sharply, but the room was empty. Only the rain against the windows, the hum of the dying bulb.

His heart pounded. The air felt too thin.

If the impostor was tied to his mother… if the child in the photos was real… if X had survived…

He swallowed hard, forcing his mind to steady.

He pocketed the pendant and stepped back into the alley, the drizzle turning to mist. His reflection in a puddle stared back — hollow eyes, dripping hair, a shadow of someone who once believed he could save people.

Now the truth twisted inside him like a knife.

This wasn't just about a name being stolen.

It was about a promise. Broken. Forgotten. Buried under years of guilt and obsession.

Ren tightened his fists. The path was clearer now.

If X was still alive, if the impostor carried the face or name of the boy he failed to protect, then this was no coincidence.

It was revenge.

And somewhere beneath the noise of the storm, the whisper smiled.

Welcome home, Ren.

Streetlamps flickered through the haze, pale halos drowning in fog. Ren walked with his hood up, the world muffled around him — tires slicing through puddles, distant sirens bending across the wet air like a hymn for the broken.

He couldn't stop seeing that photograph.

The child beside him. The smile. The words on the back: He never forgot what you promised.

Each step down the slick pavement echoed that sentence. He'd promised to protect him — the boy with the red paper plane — but memory had chewed away at the edges until only guilt remained. Now those edges were bleeding through.

Ren moved deeper into the industrial blocks, where the alleys narrowed and the smell of rust and oil mixed with the sharp tang of rain. The impostor's trail was faint but visible — red graffiti sprayed across a warehouse door, a smear of fresh paint that dripped like a wound. Beneath it, another symbol — a feather scratched into metal.

His mother's pendant.

The one he'd found in the envelope.

He stared at the mark for a long time, the world seeming to narrow around it. The rain whispered softly on his jacket. He could almost hear a voice, faint, boyish, threaded through the sound of the water.

Don't leave me here, Ren.

He blinked hard, breath fogging the air. "Not real," he muttered, forcing the whisper away. But his chest felt hollow.

The warehouse was dark inside — light filtering through cracks in the roof, illuminating dust motes that drifted like fading memories. Footprints dotted the concrete, faint, leading toward the stairwell at the back. He followed them carefully, gloved fingers brushing the wall for balance. The air smelled of damp cardboard and old smoke.

Halfway up the stairs, he stopped.

Someone had written something on the wall in red marker — crooked, hurried strokes.

I waited for you.

Ren's pulse jumped. He touched the letters, then jerked his hand back. Wet. Fresh.

He drew the small flashlight from his belt and angled the beam upward. At the top of the stairs, the footprints ended at a door, slightly ajar. The hinge creaked softly as he pushed it open.

The room beyond was empty — almost.

A single lightbulb swung from the ceiling. Beneath it, pinned to the wall, were fragments of newspaper clippings, much like his own investigation board. Except these weren't about The Crimson. They were about Ren.

LOCAL VIGILANTE SAVES CHILD FROM ASSAULT.

UNIDENTIFIED TEEN HERO STOPS ROBBERY IN WEST BLOCK.

And below them, newer headlines — the ones Ren hated.

THE CRIMSON STRIKES AGAIN. SUSPECT STILL AT LARGE.

At the bottom of the collage, written in red paint:

"You built the myth. I finished it." — X

Ren exhaled slowly, his throat dry. The air buzzed faintly, the same electrical hum that sometimes came before the whispers. He took a step closer, tracing the photos — some were of him as a child. Some weren't.

And one, near the center, showed three children standing in front of a boarded-up house. The roof sagged. The windows were dark. But Ren recognized it instantly.

The house by the old railway — the one from his memory.

He could almost smell the dust again. Hear the laughter.

"Xavier," he whispered, the name tasting strange after so long.

The bulb flickered, and for a heartbeat he saw movement — a silhouette at the far end of the room, standing by the window. The shape didn't move, didn't breathe.

"Who's there?" Ren's voice cracked through the silence.

Nothing. The figure dissolved as the light steadied again.

He crossed the room, heart thudding against his ribs, but there was no one there. Just the open window and the rain whispering against the sill. He leaned out — the alley below was empty.

When he turned back, something on the floor caught his eye — a folded piece of paper, heavy from the damp. He picked it up carefully, unfolding it.

Inside was a hand drawn map, the city outlined in uneven lines, circles marked in red. It wasn't one of his. This one spiraled inward, each mark narrowing toward the outskirts. At the very center, scribbled so deeply the paper almost tore, were three words:

THE HOUSE REMEMBERS.

Ren's fingers trembled around the page.

He knew exactly where it led.

That abandoned place near the old tracks, the one he thought had been condemned after the fire. The place where he'd last seen X.

A memory broke through like glass.

He saw the flicker of flame through the boards. The choking smoke. The boy with the wild eyes — Xavier — screaming his name through the haze. And behind him, the smaller boy — the one Ren had tried to protect — coughing, crying. He remembered pulling him through the collapsing hallway, shouting for X to follow. But the sound of the roof giving way drowned everything else.

He'd told himself afterward that X never made it out.

Now, standing in that cold room, the truth twisted.

What if he had?

Ren pocketed the map and turned back toward the stairwell. His pulse wouldn't slow. The city outside felt different now — sharper, watching. Every reflection in the puddles seemed to tilt toward him.

He walked fast, hood pulled low, through the dripping alleys and toward the train tracks that cut the district in half. The neon lights faded behind him, replaced by the gray of concrete and rust.

The further he went, the quieter it became, until the only sounds left were the whisper of rain on metal and the faint hum of power lines.

He stopped at a chain-link fence, twisted and half collapsed. Beyond it, the outline of the old neighborhood rose from the mist — warped rooftops, dead trees, the faint skeleton of a street that hadn't seen cars in years.

The house stood at the end.

Just as he remembered.

Or thought he did.

Ren stepped through the hole in the fence, boots sinking into soft earth. The closer he got, the more the memories fought their way forward — half-formed flashes of laughter, of fear, of something he couldn't name.

He reached the porch and touched the old wood. It was slick with rain, cold under his fingers. For a moment, he could hear their voices again, the children they'd been.

"Let's make this our place," Xavier had said once, holding up a candle stub like a treasure. "No adults. No lies. Just us."

Ren had nodded, and the younger boy had clapped, thrilled.

Now, decades later, that same house seemed to breathe around him.

He pushed open the door. The hinges screamed when Ren pushed the door wider.

Air that had been trapped for years rushed past him—dust, rot, rain leaking through the rafters. The scent hit like a blow: wet plaster, smoke long settled into the bones of the place, something faintly sweet underneath, like burned sugar.

His flashlight cut a narrow path through the dark. Wallpaper peeled in long curls, exposing wood ripped like ribs. Water dripped from the ceiling with slow, deliberate rhythm—tick, tick, tick—each drop a heartbeat that wasn't his.

He whispered into the emptiness, "X?"

The sound bounced back softer: x…

He moved carefully. Each step stirred motes that danced in the beam. The floor groaned as though remembering him.

A child's shoe lay by the stairs. Mud hardened over the leather, tiny laces still tied in a knot. He crouched, thumb tracing the edge of the sole, and another shard of memory cracked open.

A boy's laugh.

The smell of candle wax.

A game called Hide from the Night.

He had been seven. X maybe nine. The little one—Eli, that was his name—only five. They'd found the house abandoned, their fortress against the world. They brought candles, snacks stolen from Ren's kitchen, whispered stories about monsters that prowled outside.

But that night had turned wrong.

Ren lifted his gaze to the stairwell. The railing was broken midway, splinters jutting out like teeth. He climbed slowly, flashlight trembling in his hand. Halfway up, something glinted—a shard of mirror caught in the dust. He tilted the beam toward it and saw a reflection not entirely his own.

A boy's face beside his, faint, watching. Then gone.

He kept climbing.

At the top landing, scorch marks marred the floorboards. He followed them to a doorway that sagged on its hinges. The flashlight caught fragments—charred wallpaper, melted wax pooled in old bottles, the skeleton of a chair turned to ash.

And there, half buried beneath soot and dust, a small metal tin.

He knelt and pried it open. Inside were three things: a broken wristwatch, a folded scrap of paper, and the stub of a red crayon.

His throat tightened. He knew that watch. X had worn it everywhere, claiming it could stop time when you pressed the side twice. It never worked, but they'd believed anyway.

Ren unfolded the note carefully. The handwriting slanted wild, frantic.

If you hear the sirens—run. I'll find you later. Don't let him cry.

He read it again, slower. Don't let him cry.

That was the night the fire started.

The memory hit him all at once—soundless at first, then roaring. The candle had tipped. Wax spilled across a pile of newspapers. Flames climbing too fast, licking the walls like hungry tongues. He'd shouted for water, for help, for Xavier, but smoke had swallowed the words.

He'd grabbed Eli, dragging him toward the stairs, coughing, eyes burning. Behind them, X had shouted, "Go! I've got it!" and turned back toward the fire with a blanket in his hands.

Ren had hesitated—just one second—but that second had been enough. The ceiling beam cracked, fire pouring through. He'd run, carrying Eli out through the doorway, stumbling into the rain.

When he looked back, the house was collapsing.

He never saw X again.

The guilt had lived inside him ever since, whispering in dreams, shaping the voice that now called itself X.

Ren sank against the wall, the flashlight trembling in his grip. His breath came in shallow bursts. "You died," he whispered. "You didn't make it out."

A laugh rolled through the hallway—soft, close, echoing off the burned wood.

Didn't I?

The beam jerked toward the sound. Empty air. But footprints had appeared in the dust, bare and wet, leading deeper into the hallway.

He followed them, pulse hammering in his throat. The footprints stopped at a door that hadn't been there before. Its surface gleamed slick red under the light, as though freshly painted.

Ren reached for the handle. It was warm.

He pushed.

The room beyond was impossible. Walls intact, wallpaper clean, candles lit in glass jars. Three shadows moved across the floor—children, laughing. Himself among them. X's grin flashing in the candlelight, Eli clutching the paper plane.

Ren stepped inside. The door shut behind him without sound.

The children didn't notice. They were frozen in a loop—X tipping a candle, Eli pointing at the ceiling, Ren shouting something he couldn't hear. The air shimmered with heat though the flames were only illusion.

"Stop," Ren whispered. "Don't—"

But the moment broke exactly as it had before. The candle toppled. Fire bloomed across the table. The children screamed.

He lunged forward, through them, through smoke that wasn't real, grabbing for X's shoulder—but his hands passed through air. The vision fractured, colors bleeding out until only red remained.

In the center of it, a figure stepped through the haze. Taller now. Wearing the crimson coat. The mask.

The impostor.

But when the figure lifted the mask, it wasn't a stranger's face beneath. It was X—older, scarred, eyes gleaming with something between sorrow and fury.

"You left me," X said. His voice was quiet, but the room shook with it.

Ren's knees felt weak. "You— You were gone. I tried—"

"You ran," X said simply. "You saved him. You saved yourself. You left me to burn."

"I thought you were dead."

"I was." X stepped closer, the air shimmering around him. "And then I wasn't. They pulled me from the wreck two days later. Half my skin gone, lungs ruined. Your mother found me in the ward."

Ren froze. "My—mother?"

"She stayed. Every day. Said she couldn't lose another son."

The words landed like a blow. Ren shook his head violently. "That's not possible."

X's smile was small, crooked. "You never asked her about the baby she had after you left, did you?"

The walls seemed to tilt, the candlelight bending. "No," Ren whispered.

"She called me Xavier because she couldn't call me what I was," he said softly. "But you know my real name, don't you, brother?"

Ren's breath caught. Memory rearranged itself—Eli's laughter, his hand in Ren's, his voice crying for help. The smaller boy wasn't some stranger he'd rescued. He was family.

The world lurched. He saw it clearly now—the two of them running, the fire behind them, X shouting through the smoke. And later, the hospital room, his mother's face pale under the fluorescent light. The doctor whispering something about one child surviving.

He'd thought they meant him.

X stepped closer, the red coat dripping as if soaked in blood. "She raised me. Told me stories about you—the hero who vanished. I believed her. For a while. Until I saw what you became. The Crimson. The name you made famous."

"I never wanted—"

"But you wore it," X snapped. "And when the city worshiped your myth, I realized what you'd done. You'd turned my pain into your penance. My fire into your mask."

Ren stumbled back. The heat of the vision seared his lungs. "You killed people—used the name—"

"I reminded them who the name belonged to!"

The words cracked through the room like thunder.

For a heartbeat, both men were silent, the echo trembling in the burned rafters.

Then X's tone softened. "You came back. That's something."

Ren stared at him, rain still dripping from his hood, mind spinning through the pieces—his mother's sorrow, the pendant, the photos. The impostor wasn't a stranger wearing his face. He was the boy he'd promised to protect.

His own brother.

The silence stretched, heavy as the rain outside.

X lowered the mask to his side. "You built a legend from guilt, Ren. I just gave it a purpose."

The candles flickered violently, their flames bending toward the ceiling. Smoke spiraled up, forming shapes—faces, screams, fragments of the past.

Ren whispered, "What do you want from me?"

X smiled faintly. "I want you to see what I became because you left."

The floor beneath them cracked like old bone. Firelight flared again, swallowing the room.

And Ren remembered the last thing X had said as the ceiling fell all those years ago: Don't let him cry.

He hadn't. But he'd never stopped hearing the sound of it either.

The flames moved like memories—too bright, too fast. Heat rolled off the walls, bending the air between them.

Ren and X stood in the wreck of their childhood hideout, the ghost house burning again after all these years.

X lifted the mask, half his face gleamed with sweat, half hidden behind scar tissue. "You ran then," he said, voice low, almost gentle. "Will you run now?"

Ren said nothing. He dropped the flashlight, fists tightening inside damp gloves. The light clattered away, spinning circles across the floor until it died.

Only firelight remained.

They struck at the same moment.

A blur of coats, red and darker red—crashing together in the flicker.

Fists, elbows, the thud of boots on charred planks. They moved like mirror images trained by different ghosts.

X was faster, rage had made him lean. He caught Ren across the jaw, sent him staggering into the doorway.

Ren swung back hard, catching his brother's ribs, feeling bone give under the hit. Both stumbled, coughing on smoke, eyes watering.

"You could've saved me!" X shouted, voice cracking.

"I was a kid!" Ren snapped. "I tried!"

"You forgot me."

"I buried you!"

The words stopped them both. Silence—except for the hiss of fire and the groan of beams above.

X lunged again. Ren met him halfway. The two locked, struggling for balance, slipping in ash. Every strike carried years of guilt. Every breath burned.

A rafter gave way overhead, showering them with embers.

They broke apart just before the collapse crushed the spot where they'd stood.

Ren drew in smoke, chest heaving. "It doesn't have to keep burning," he said.

X straightened slowly, blood at the corner of his mouth, eyes shining through the haze. "That's all it ever does."

He stepped forward, one last swing—but his strength faltered. Ren caught his arm, twisted, and both of them went down hard, rolling through soot until the fight bled out into exhaustion.

They lay side by side, coughing, staring at the ceiling as the fire began to die. Rain from the broken roof dripped down in thin streams, hissing against the embers.

A stalemate.

No victory. No vengeance. Just breath.

Ren turned his head. "I'm done chasing ghosts," he said quietly. "You can keep the legend if you want. I'm keeping the truth."

X's eyes closed. For the first time, he looked tired rather than angry. "Maybe that's enough," he whispered.

They stayed there until the flames were mostly smoke. Then X pushed himself upright, limping toward the doorway.

Outside, the storm had eased to mist again. He paused at the threshold, glancing back.

"Happy birthday, little brother," he said, and disappeared into the rain.

The firefighters arrived hours later, summoned by a passerby.

Ren watched the smoke curl into the gray morning from across the street, coat wrapped around his shoulders. No one questioned him, to them he was just another witness.

For the first time in years, he didn't feel the whisper in his head.

No Find him.

No End it.

Just quiet.

Days slid by.

He returned to the apartment, the same peeling wallpaper, the maps still pinned like scars. The radio on the counter hissed softly, waiting for him to start listening again.

He didn't.

Instead, he gathered the papers one by one, folded them, and fed them into a small metal bin. The flames that rose were calm, nothing like the inferno of the house. When the last map turned to ash, he opened the window and let the wind scatter it over the wet street below.

That evening his father came home earlier than usual. The man froze when he saw Ren sitting at the kitchen table instead of the floor.

"Didn't think you'd still be here," his father said warily.

Ren gave a faint smile. "I wasn't. But I came back."

An awkward quiet filled the room. The older man rubbed the back of his neck. "You look better," he muttered. "Different."

"Lighter, maybe."

"Did you… find what you were looking for?"

Ren looked down at his stained gloves. "Yeah," he said. "Turns out it was never out there."

His father nodded slowly, something like relief flickering across his tired face. "Then maybe we both get another chance."

He opened the cupboard, pulled out two mugs, poured coffee for each. The gesture felt clumsy but sincere.

They sat together, not speaking much, letting silence rebuild what years had taken apart.

A week later, Ren visited a tailor in the old district. The man raised an eyebrow at the request.

"Crimson?" he repeated.

Ren nodded. "All of it. No mask this time."

When the suit was finished, it wasn't the armor of a vigilante. It was clean—simple lines, deep red fabric that caught light like dried blood and sunrise mixed. He hung it by the window, sunlight running through the threads, and smiled for the first time in months.

On the morning of his seventeenth birthday, the city was clear for once. No rain, just pale light reflecting off puddles that hadn't yet dried.

His mother came by early. She hugged him tight, said nothing about the bruises or the bandages on his hands.

They ate breakfast together—real food this time, not instant noodles. His father joined, sober, eyes brighter than Ren remembered.

No one mentioned X. Some truths didn't need to be spoken aloud.

When the cake came out—small, crooked candles leaning toward each other—Ren laughed quietly. The sound startled them all, then softened into warmth.

Later that evening he walked alone to the edge of the city where the police academy loomed behind tall iron gates. The open day banner flapped in the wind:

ENROLLMENT—LEARN. SERVE. PROTECT.

He stopped at the gate, hand resting on the cold metal.

Once, he'd believed protecting people meant wearing a mask.

Now he knew better.

He wanted to understand the patterns properly—the clues, the evidence, the way truth hid in plain sight. He wanted to learn how to fight with reason instead of rage.

Inside the gatehouse, an officer handed him a form. "First-time applicant?"

"Yeah."

"Any prior experience?"

Ren smiled faintly. "Plenty. Just not the kind you can write down."

The officer chuckled. "You'll fit right in."

As Ren filled out the paperwork, he caught his reflection in the window—still tired, but steadier. The tremor in his hands was gone.

Outside, the sky turned a deep redish gold, the last color of sunset washing over the city. It bled across the rooftops like a benediction, not a wound.

He slipped a small pendant—a feather, tarnished but whole, into his pocket before stepping out into the light.

For the first time since the fire, he felt the world expand rather than close in.

He breathed in the evening air and thought, Maybe this is what living feels like.

The city lights flickered on one by one. Somewhere out there, X still walked under the same sky. Ren didn't know if they'd meet again. Maybe they would, maybe they wouldn't.

But tonight, there were no whispers in his head.

Only the quiet pulse of the city and the promise of a beginning.

And when the rain finally began again, it felt less like judgment and more like forgiveness.

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