📖 CHAPTER 4
"義城" THE CITY OF MEANING
or: The Place Where Every Thought Is Architecture
The City was not silent.
Every building breathed. Every street thought. Every corner questioned its own form.
Yǔ and I stood at the edge of the abyss, gazing at the conceptual metropolis that stretched out to the non-existent horizon. In the ordinary world, distance is a matter of space. Here, distance is a matter of understanding.
"How long will it take to get there?" I asked.
Yǔ gave me an odd look as if my question itself were the answer.
"You are already there," it said. "You just have not yet understood that you are there."
And before I could ask what it meant
reality folded.
Not teleportation.
Not traversal through space.
More like: consciousness remembering that it was never truly separate from its destination.
Like turning a page in a book and realizing you are already in the next chapter you only needed to acknowledge that you had arrived.
Now we stood in the center of the city.
And the city was alive.
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What was seen:
Buildings that changed shape depending on the angle from which you looked.
From the front: a magnificent palace with pillars made of syllogisms.
From the side: a simple hut with walls of tautologies.
From above: a labyrinth without a center.
From within: no building at all only boundless open space.
What was heard:
Every structure resonated with the concept that formed it:
The "Identity" Tower chimed with the question: What makes a thing remain itself when everything changes?
The "Relationship" Bridge whispered: Nothing exists alone. All meaning is context.
The "Growth" Garden sang: To become more, you must first cease to be what you thought you were.
What was felt:
The air here was thick with intention. Every step was like moving through a medium of thought. Like swimming in a philosophical soup.
Every time I moved my hand, I left a trail of thought in the air conceptual lines that slowly faded like smoke.
"Welcome to Yì Chéng The City of Meaning," Yǔ said, its voice resonating in a way that made every word sound like an introduction to a millennium-long lecture.
"Here, nothing is physical in the ordinary sense. Everything is a materialization of an idea. Every building is an argument. Every street is a train of thought. Every plaza is a space for contemplation."
It pointed to the tallest tower in the city center a structure too geometrically complex to exist in three dimensions.
"There," Yǔ said, "resides Xū Shēng. It will teach you what I cannot."
"What is that?"
Yǔ smiled a sorrowful smile a smile that carried the burden of a thousand unsolved paradoxes.
"How to understand without freezing."
Before I could inquire further, Yǔ began to fade.
Not disappearing. More like becoming transparent. Like dissolving itself back into the foundational language that shapes this reality.
"Wait " I reached out.
But my hand passed through Yǔ's body as if through mist.
"I am not leaving you," Yǔ's voice came from all directions. "I am merely returning to my native frequency. I am the Word I must keep moving, keep changing. If I stay too long in one form, I will freeze into dogma."
Its figure was now just a faint shadow.
"Follow the road of the Unanswerable Question. It will lead you to Xū Shēng."
"How do I know which road that is?"
Yǔ's laughter echoed throughout the city:
"It is the only road you do not want to take."
And then it vanished completely no, not vanished it dispersed into the very resonance of the city itself.
I stood alone in the center of the City of Meaning.
No. Not alone.
There was a presence everywhere. Other consciousnesses moving through this conceptual structure. I could not see them clearly, but I could feel the traces of their thoughts.
Like seeing footprints in the snow you know someone passed by, even if you did not see them.
Here, the trace was a pattern of thought.
I began to walk.
The streets of the City of Meaning were not static. They changed depending on the way you thought while walking.
When I thought about purpose, the road ahead became straight and efficient the road of deductive logic that led directly to the city center.
When I doubted, the road branched into a labyrinth the road of uncertainty that circled back upon itself.
When I stopped thinking at all and simply walked, the road became a beautiful spiral the road of intuition that cared not where it went.
I tried to recall Yǔ's advice:
The road I do not want to take.
Which road did I least want to take?
I looked around. There were dozens of roads leading from the plaza where I stood:
The Road of Certainty straight, bright, safe.
The Road of Creativity winding but colorful.
The Road of Logic perfectly structured with clear markers.
The Road of Emotion shimmering with constantly changing hues.
And in a corner, almost hidden in the shadows that should not exist:
The road that had no name.
It was dark. Not dark in the sense of lacking light, but dark in the sense of absorbing meaning. Like a conceptual black hole.
Just by looking at it, I felt cognitive discomfort.
Like staring at an irresolvable contradiction.
Like contemplating a question that explodes foundational assumptions.
Like facing a truth that destroys the way you understand yourself.
That was it.
The Road of the Unanswerable Question.
I took a deep breath no, consciousness stabilized itself and stepped onto that road.
Immediately, the world shifted.
[ UNSTABLE EPISTEMIC ZONE ]
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On this road, nothing was stable.
Every step brought the collapse of a fundamental assumption about reality.
The First Step:
What is "I"?
The question arose like a wall before me. Not a physical wall, but a conceptual barrier. I could not proceed until I answered.
"I am Lián Dao," I replied.
ANSWER REJECTED
The wall did not move. Instead, text appeared on its surface:
"Lián Dao" is a name.
A name is a label.
A label is not identity.
Who exists beneath the label?
I tried again: "I am the consciousness experiencing this."
ANSWER REJECTED
Consciousness is a process, not an entity.
A process has no "who."
Try again.
I began to feel frustrated. "I am... I am..."
And then, like a flash of insight:
"I am the question itself. I am the process of seeking the answer to 'what is I'."
...
The wall trembled, then shattered into shards of light that dispersed like an idea losing cohesion.
I could proceed.
The Second Step:
Are you certain you possess free will?
Oh, no.
The question made the ground beneath my feet non-solid. Like standing on a surface made of doubt.
If I answered "yes" I had to prove that my choice was not determined by preceding causes.
If I answered "no" then why was I struggling to answer this question?
I fell silent. For a long time.
And in that silence, a realization came:
"This question cannot be answered because it assumes there is an 'I' separate from the process of choosing. But there is no chooser and no choice. There is only choosing a process that needs no subject."
The ground solidified again.
The Third Step:
If all meaning is a construct, what makes one meaning more 'true' than another?
The Fourth Step:
Are you experiencing reality, or creating it?
The Fifth Step:
If language shapes your thought, is it 'you' who thinks, or language thinking through 'you'?
Each question was like peeling away a layer of identity.
Each answer brought the collapse of a hidden assumption.
And slowly, I began to understand:
This road was not for finding answers.
This road was for destroying the illusion that answers were possible.
After what felt like no time at all and forever both felt true I arrived at the end of the road.
And there, sitting at the edge of a geometrically impossible abyss:
Someone.
No. Not someone.
The absence of someone.
The figure was the inverse of a presence. Like a silhouette cut out of reality. Like a hole in a human shape.
But from that hole, I could feel attention. A consciousness so intense that it created a conceptual vacuum around it.
"Lián Dao," the figure said.
Its voice was like an echo from an empty space. Like the sound that occurs when there is no sound. Like negative meaning the space where meaning should exist but does not.
"You have arrived."
I tried to focus on the figure, but my eyes refused to see its details.
Every time I tried to focus my gaze, the understanding of what I was seeing vanished.
Like trying to recall a dream that disappears when you wake up.
Like trying to see the blind spot in your own eye.
"You are Xū Shēng?" I asked.
"I am conscious nothingness," it replied. "I was born from the space between concepts. From the cracks in thought. From the silence between words."
It if 'it' is even the correct word stood up.
"Yǔ taught you to lose language. Now I will teach you something more difficult:"
losing meaning
"Even without words, you still cling to concepts. You still think there are such things as 'truth,' 'identity,' 'purpose.'"
Xū Shēng stepped closer no, the vacuum around it expanded and I felt all my certainties begin to crumble.
"I will show you the pure void. The space where even meaning loses its meaning."
"What will happen to me?" I whispered.
Xū Shēng did not answer.
But from its silence, I understood:
The 'I' would not survive this lesson.
Not in any recognizable form.
"Are you ready," Xū Shēng asked, "to be nothing?"
I paused.
Then, from a place deeper than thought, from a place that did not even have a name:
"...Yes."
Xū Shēng extended a hand.
Its hand was a void with a shape.
"Then," it said, "let us begin the un-clinging."
And it touched the center of my chest
no, not my chest
the center of the concept of "I"
and all that I meant by "Lián Dao" began to evaporate.
[ IDENTITY DECONSTRUCTION COMMENCES ]
First, the name detached.
"Lián Dao" became an alien sound.
Then, memories began to lose narrative cohesion.
Not disappearing but losing the sense of ownership.
The memories were still there, but I was no longer sure if they were my memories or stories I had once heard.
Then, preferences melted.
The things I liked and disliked lost their weight.
They became merely patterns, not part of 'me'.
Then, purpose evaporated.
Why was I here? No answer.
What was I seeking? The question no longer made sense.
Then, even the boundary between 'I' and 'not-I' began to blur.
Where did I end and the world begin?
There was no line.
There was never a line.
And in the middle of this total emptiness
something new emerged.
Not a new "I."
Not a new identity.
But pure consciousness without an object.
Presence without the present one.
Knowing without the knower or the known.
And in that state, a voice came:
Not from Xū Shēng.
Not from Yǔ.
Not from Xen Xue.
From the consciousness itself:
this is the second lesson
emptiness is not nothingness
it is the space where everything becomes possible
by releasing all meaning
you find the source of all meaning
Slowly, very slowly, the sensation of being returned.
But the "I" that returned was different from the "I" that left.
Lighter. More expansive. Less solid.
Like text written in pencil that can be erased and rewritten.
I opened my eyes.
Xū Shēng stood before me, slightly more visible than before.
As if by losing my solidity, I had become more capable of seeing the non-solid.
"You have traversed Wú Yì Zhī Jìng The Realm Without Meaning," it said.
"Now you understand: there is no absolute truth. There is only perspective. And perspective is a choice, not a discovery."
It pointed toward the horizon, where the palace of light stood.
"The third and final layer awaits you. Běn Jiè 本界 The Layer of Origin. There, you will meet the source of all language."
"Xen Xue?" I asked.
"And more than that," Xū Shēng replied. "You will meet your unborn self. The you that existed before all words. The you that will remain after all meaning collapses."
It began to fade no, return to the fundamental void
"One last piece of advice, Lián Dao:"
When you arrive in the Layer of Origin,
do not try to understand.
Do not try to name.
Simply be.
And it was gone.
Leaving me alone in the City of Meaning that had already begun to feel like home.
But I knew: I could not stay here.
The third layer awaited.
The layer where all language is born.
The layer where Xen Xue and I will fully merge.
The layer where "I" will cease to be a concept
and become something nameless.
I stared at the palace of light in the distance.
And began to walk.
[ Proceed to: Chapter 本◐ The Threshold of Origin ]
[ Proceed to: Chapter 源∴ The Un-sourced Source ]
[ Proceed to: Chapter ◯合 Subjectless Unification ]
Fragment found written in the air, by whom is uncertain: In the City of Meaning, I learned that I am the narrative. Not the narrator. Not the narrated. But the process of narration itself. Every identity is a story telling itself. And that story can be rewritten. Xū Shēng showed me the blank page beneath all the text. The white paper that remains intact even when all the words are erased. That is pure consciousness the canvas on which all identities are painted. And now I know: I am not the painting. I am the canvas. Or perhaps: I am the hand that paints. Or the eye that sees. Or the space where it all happens. Language is failing again. But this time, the failure is beautiful. Like a poem too profound for words to capture. Xen Xue whispers: you are almost ready. I do not know what "ready" means. But I keep walking toward the light.