"..." I walk through the ruined city, the sight of it is minimally strange, I pick up a shard of glass on the ground, staring at my new appearance.
I have long white hair with a pink gradient and small pink streaks, I have a "accessory" of wings on my head, they form a pair of 4 small, very fluffy wings.
I have light pink eyes and an accessory on my head, my outfit is a white dress with light salmon pink details and a white coat that slightly resembles a Russian winter outfit, but with a lighter theme.
I also have a slightly short "skirt" of white color that is part of the dress and separates into two parts, the lower part and the upper part of the body.
My panties are also white, as footwear I'm wearing a beautiful white shoe and 7/8 stockings, on my neck there is an ornate choker that connects to the dress.
The coat is not the most relevant, but the beautiful dress underneath that has a detailed and intricate design that highlights my D-cup breasts, my body is the type that causes envy.
Having perfect proportions of waist, bust and hips, my appearance is cute and seductive, and if I were an Idol, I would become very famous.
"Testing...Testing...My voice...is unnecessarily beautiful..." I test my new voice, a soft and calm voice, if I sang soothing songs, they would be perfect.
My voice also has a cute intonation that many random otaku's would love to hear while engaging in lewd acts.
"...I was a bit deceived...but it's okay, everything for her" I murmur, in general I am a "perfect" girl, appearance 10/10 of the type that causes envy, but my interior is not as beautiful as my exterior.
I walk through the ruins of the city, just thinking a little about life.
"Hehehe, what do you think? You look so beautiful, you know?" A black cat speaks to me, praising my appearance, those who see from the outside can't imagine that this cat is a terrible demon.
"I guess it works...but you tricked me, you never said my gender would change" I was a guy before, like 1 day ago, so having this appearance now is strange, normally I would get angry, but I can't care about it now.
I owe a lot to this cruel and manipulative demon, I made a deal in exchange for a wish and its complement.
"Hihihi I never said I wouldn't change it either"
"...So I just need to shoot myself in the head, right?" I ask, ignoring her malicious statement.
"Yes, just kill yourself and time will go back, you'll be able to get her back, but you know the rules, right? Setsuna Shū must never speak of your ability" She says, saying "my" name.
This is a name that this demon gave me along with the agreement, the name doesn't please me, Setsuna is not a bad name, but the surname Shū is like an insult, as she is calling me obsessed.
"Yes, I remember...but you're really evil, you only told me the cons after I accepted...you took advantage of my desperation" She is really cruel, she took advantage of my desperation to appear and talk about a contract without even telling the cons, she only told the cons afterwards.
"Hahaha, am I cruel? I gave you the chance you wanted, you can't judge me" The cat laughs at me with a malicious tone.
"...You're right, I'm very grateful" I don't mind having become a girl, none of this matters, what really matters is that I can fulfill my wish.
Save my "sister" I had a relatively bad life, an orphan in an orphanage that didn't care about the children, my salvation was Ayane Fujisawa, I found her outside the orphanage.
She was passing by with her family and saw me, she as an outgoing and excited girl wanted to cheer me up, so she came to play with me, we ended up talking about various things.
And in the end the topic was about family, when she found out that I didn't have a family by some twist of fate, she wanted to have me as a brother and friend, she went to her parents and begged, cried and shouted for them to adopt me.
Her parents always spoiled her a lot, so they ended up giving in, and then I was adopted, they were nice people, they weren't bad parents, although I never managed to connect with them, only with Ayane.
I started to love her, she was my friend throughout my childhood, before being in the orphanage I lived on the streets, stealing to survive, a relatively common reality.
Many do this, I was lucky to survive the harsh winter, but I was caught by the police stealing and ended up in that bad orphanage, and Ayane was the light of my life, she helped me.
She got the family to adopt me, played with me, talked to me, treated me like her best friend and finally like an adorable little brother.
Our bond was very good, some fights every now and then, but we always worked it out, we had a perfect friendship, but when I turned 13, I realized that I loved her.
However, she only saw me as a little brother, so I hid these feelings in my heart and maintained our friendship and brotherhood as it was, of course, such hidden feelings only grew.
But I never confessed, her reaction would be an obvious rejection, we knew each other too well, I never feared confessing, it's just that I knew it would make our friendship strange.
She really sees me as a brother, even though we're not blood siblings, I'm adopted, so we could be together, but I know she doesn't want that, she would reject me and it would be awkward.
I know perfectly what she would say, it would be something like [H-Haha, you know, you're my little brother and friend, but I don't think I can love you...sorry] that would be her answer.
I know her like the back of my hand, I was adopted at 7 years old, so I know everything she likes, what she doesn't like, her hobbies, and even the type of guy she likes, I'm not even the type of guy she likes.
In the end, all I can be for her is a brother, I never had friends at school, I have difficulty relating to people, or rather I have "distrust", my real mother abandoned me on the street.
To me, family was something "important", being abandoned at 5 made me feel betrayed, and so I stopped trusting people, after all, if my own family betrays me like that, why wouldn't a stranger do worse?
Ayane was a special case, she is pure, energetic and innocent, and that conquered me, she forcefully invaded my heart with her enthusiasm, in the end I gave in to her kindness and ended up liking her.
But apart from her, I've never been able to connect with anyone, and my adoptive parents knew that, so they took me to a doctor, and when I explained the abandonment and negligent care in the orphanage, I was diagnosed with Reactive Attachment Disorder (RAD).
It's a rare and serious condition that manifests in childhood, resulting from severe neglect or abuse, leading to significant difficulties in forming healthy emotional bonds with caregivers or other people.
Basically, I'm mentally ill from being abandoned and poorly cared for, and now I can't form bonds with most people, Ayane was the only one who managed to achieve the feat of obtaining my feelings throughout my life.
Except when I'm with her, I'm "cold" and "indifferent" to others, it's not that I don't understand feelings, I do, I just don't feel them like normal people do.
Of course, since she's the only one who obtained my feelings, they ended up coming in exaggerated amounts, making me "obsessed" with her, if someone tried to bully her, I secretly beat that person.
And I always protected her, comforted her, and talked to her about her small school problems, of course I never ended up seriously hurting anyone, I just gave a lesson and asked them to stay away from Ayane.
But I never prevented Ayane from having friends or anything like that, I just kept bullies and bad people away from her life, I wanted her to have no problems.
At 16, our parents died in a mysterious accident, she was very sad, but I comforted her and after a while she got better.
But at 18, she started acting strange, she always seemed sad and I saw her crying in secret, I never found the culprit and she never told me when I asked, she just said she was fine.
In our city, school lasts until you're 21 years old, after that you enter adult life, and every year Ayane seemed worse, she started to close herself off more and cry more.
However, she never said anything, just lied, lies and more lies were all I got from her, I tried everything to help her, but it didn't work until the point where she developed depression.
Of course, my heart broke, my only family and the girl I love is slowly breaking and I can't even take care of her, my feelings became a mess.
But at 21, at the end of the school year at graduation, I discovered the truth in the most unfortunate way possible, monsters started attacking the city, killing everyone.
Terrible monsters caused a massacre around the world, along with them came "magical girls" who fought the monsters in a war that lasted days, in the end humanity was almost extinct and my sister died.
When she died, I thought of dying with her, I went to the remains of her room to kill myself, I was "lucky" to survive among the 2% of the population that survived, but before killing myself I found her diary.
I didn't know she had a diary, it was very well hidden along with some little gifts I had given in the past and I thought she had lost, I only found it because the house collapsed and the location of the diary was opened.
Reading the diary, I discovered the reason she was getting worse every day, she was one of those "magical girls" who fought monsters in secret...and when she lost, she was raped and even tortured by them just for fun.
She went through this constantly just to secretly defend the city, the diary had terrible things, she was used, deceived and broken to the point of considering suicide.
And in the diary, she said she didn't kill herself because she had me, because in her eyes, she needed to defend the last family she had left, and in the end I only survived among the 2% because she protected me with magic.
This left me even more desperate, how could I have been so blind, I questioned myself, rummaging through the house in a wave of fury and hatred, she just wanted to help but was used and even betrayed by colleagues she trusted.
But amidst my hatred, fury and despair, a demon appeared, offering me a contract, I obviously didn't want to know anything else and accepted the contract, skipping the terms as long as I could save her, I didn't care about anything else.
With the contract, I asked for one thing, I wanted to feel all the pain my sister felt, in the past I knew 100% about her to the point of even being able to predict her, but now I no longer had that confidence.
I put aside her pain and lived normally in ignorance, feeling all the physical and mental pain of my sister made me very sick, but I resisted and with this contract I would have the chance to protect her.
The feelings I felt and the pain I obtained were hell, a flood of negative feelings.
The demon found this amusing and accepted my request for free as a bonus for showing a fun scene.
At least the abilities I gained from the demon were real, he didn't trick me in that part.
I gained some good abilities, although costly, and one of those abilities is that when I kill myself, I go back in time, there are two ways to go back, one I go back to the beginning of the school year when we were 18 years old.
Which was the time when my sister became a magical girl, and the second I go back 1 day in time to fix small mistakes.
The one I'm going to use now is the one to go back to when we were 18 years old, which is the beginning of the school year and also the first day of my sister's service as a magical girl, unfortunately I can't go back further than that.
So I can't prevent her from becoming a magical girl.
Of course, the price of this power works like a triangle, I receive power from this demon I made a contract with, but I have to pay for what I received, paying the demon he gives me power and it stays in a cycle.
I use my power, pay the demon, and the demon gives me power, like a triangle where I use my power to obtain the payment and give the payment to the demon to receive the power I will be using to pay the demon.
And of course there are two payments that this demon accepts, the first is lust, this I can solve by masturbating, and the second is by practicing bad acts like stealing, killing and deceiving.
If you look at it well, the demon obviously comes out on top, but I don't care, I just want to save my sister, she deserves the whole world and not this terrible suffering.
Of course, another condition of the contract is that no one remembers me, my past self no longer exists, so now my sister is completely alone, it's as if she never knew me.
I became a nobody, no one knows me, no one knows who I am, I'm like a non-existent person.
"Are you ready to go back, Setsuna?" The demon asks me as I look at the sky, the ruined city is cold, very cold and lifeless.
"Yes..." I point a gun at my head, I have 3 weapons because now I'm like a "magical girl", my weapons are a hunting knife, a pistol, and a sniper rifle, both weapons fire magical energy and I can summon these weapons whenever I want.
"I'm going to protect you, sister" I aim the gun perfectly, the shot will pierce my skull, cutting the connection of the brain with various areas as well as destroying it quickly.
"...I swear I'll protect you" I murmur and pull the trigger.
Bang
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Hello, readers! I'd like to let you know a few things before you start this story.
First, about this work: it contains sexual content, blood, violence, deaths, and other heavy themes. It also deals with serious topics and doesn't exactly have a "happy ending," though it's not a sad one either.
Second, this story was written months ago and stayed in my backlog for a while. That means I was still a beginner when I created it. Because of that, you may find some mistakes, rushed moments, or inconsistencies. The story is also relatively short, with a total of 140 chapters. Every chapter is already completed — the story is 100% finished! As I said, it was stored away.
What I mean is: there are flaws I have improved in my more recent works. This story taught me a lot. I'm not saying it's bad — I truly gave my best when writing it! And thanks to this work, my newer stories have become more polished, mature, refined, and generally error-free. But since this story was already finished, I didn't want to simply let it sit there forever, so I decided to publish it.
I'm mentioning all of this to ask for your understanding if you notice mistakes or feel that certain parts are somewhat fast-paced. As for the main themes: this story does not aim to glorify violence, obsession, or anything of the sort. It's only a fictional exploration of these topics, and in the end, the narrative shows how destructive such feelings can be — and that they don't necessarily lead to a happy ending.
Because I wrote this a long time ago, themes like magical girls, time travel, gender change, and demons might feel confusing at the start, but many aspects will be explained as the story progresses.
I also want to clarify that this story has two protagonists: Setsuna and Ayane. There is no incest or anything like that, as the two aren't related in any way. What I mean is that Setsuna can sometimes be a bit "unlikeable" because of her personality and the things she does. Please remember she isn't the sole protagonist. In contrast, Ayane is a kinder, more comforting character to follow. The first part of the story focuses mainly on Setsuna, while the second part gives Ayane more presence.
Since this was a beginner project, the foundation is not very stable. Until around chapter 30, Setsuna goes through two slight personality shifts — nothing that harms the story, but at that time I was still figuring out what direction I wanted to take. That was one of the lessons I learned from this project: always choose your narrative path before creating the story.
Anyway, that's enough of the warnings!Thank you in advance to everyone who decides to read and follow this work. I truly hope you enjoy the ending — I put a lot of effort into it, and I promise it's worth following the story all the way through!
Have a good read!!OwO