(Ellion's POV)
I was panting while on my knees, looking down at the sand of the beach, "What in the hells is this?" I said aloud, "How could this shit happen to me?!"
To think that this would ever happen.
What is this cruel joke?
The Masked Party, all of it.....
Did Joanna know?
No, how could she? She would not have known about this. She doesn't know much about me, how could she possibly know that my own Mother was one of the Ladies she sent for me? I mean, how could she have known?
How could anyone have known????
I had sex with my own Mother, I fucked her many times and even finished inside her. All of that happened during the Masked Party. Among many other women, I indulged in the ultimate taboo with the woman who gave birth to me.
And not just that, my own sisters?? If they truly are my blood, I had sex with my own family?!
I hunched over, feeling like vomiting as my entire face was covered in sweat, a sick feeling on my stomach.
"Oughh...." I clutched my stomach, "No, no, no....."
I didn't know what to do, this was something I never thought would happen. My lustful nature led to this sin, to this immoral action that I committed without even knowing. At a time of pure passion and lust, I indulged in something that I would never fathom.
"Fuck!!!!" I shouted
I punched the sand below me, feeling how the ground below it cracked; I had subconsciously enhanced the punch with Armament Haki. There was a light shockwave that had erupted, sending some sand flying everywhere.
I was breathing heavily, clutching the sand below me, "Fuck's sake..." I said as I shut my eyes, trying not to remember that night, "Fuck....!!!"
"Ellion...." I heard a voice
I jumped up to my feet, looking to the side and seeing Elayna standing several meters away. I was so distraught that my Observation Haki had been turned off, so I didn't sense her presence approaching me.
I stepped back, trying to avoid eye contact with her. "Stay away from me." I said, my hands were shaking, "You shouldn't be near me."
"We need to speak...." She said, "Ellion....."
"Why didn't you tell me?" I asked her, my fists clenching, "Why didn't you tell me?!"
"I didn't recognize you!" She exclaimed, her voice trembling, "I didn't...."
I looked at her; her eyes were full of tears as she trembled. She had her hands on her chest, looking at me with a sad frown.
"You...." I started, "You didn't recognize your own son? The son that you abandon?"
"I didn't-...." She managed, "That's not true."
"Oh, really?" I said, "It's not true? It's not true that you abandoned me, left me with the Old Man?"
"I...." She started and gulped, "It's complicated, Ellion."
I nodded, "So you say...." I said, looking down, "He told me you were dead. He told me that you were just a dumb girl who frolicked with a Lord and gave birth to me. He said that you died in childbirth! Why did he say that when you didn't die?! Why did he say that when you were alive with two other daughters?! You were alive, and you left!! You left!! You left me!!!"
She stepped back, her eyes widening a bit, "I..." She managed, "I was scared...."
"Scared?" I asked, "Of what?"
"Of what would happen...." She said, "You don't understand, Ellion. You just do not....."
"Then explain it to me!" I exclaimed, "Are you going to stand there and not explain yourself?!"
She looked down, "Well..."
"Were you afraid of my Father?" I asked, "The man who fathered me, were you afraid of him?"
"No." She said, "What I was afraid was of what the Riverlords would do to me should I lie....should I claim you as one of theirs."
"What?" I asked
She was holding back tears, "Ellion, you have no father." She said softly, "I..."
"What are you talking about?" I asked
She looked at me, "When you were conceived, I was not working." She said, "In fact, I had not been with a man.....but I had a dream, one where I was visited by a woman.....and...after-..."
I frowned, "What are you talking about?" I said, "You said I was conceived without the help of a man?"
She wiped the tears, "Yes." She said, "My girls, they were so little when it all happened. They didn't understand....and when the Brothel was about to be shut down, I gave birth to you. You were a spitting image to the Tully Lords.....even one of the Connington Lords that had swung by the area....."
"Do you think I would believe that?" I scowled, "That a woman who worked in the brothel would miraculously be with child without being touched by a man?"
"That's what happened!" She exclaimed, "Ellion!"
"How could anyone believe that?" I asked, "You are a woman of a Brothel!"
"That is why I was scared, you don't understand!" She said, "I was young and stupid, I didn't know what to do! I had two daughters already, you were something that came without warning. I didn't have you in my stomach for that long, that's what terrified me the most! I.....you were born within four months.....everything was so confusing!"
I scowled, "That's not true..." I said, "Don't lie about this."
"It's the truth!!" She exclaimed, walking up to me, "If you don't believe me, that is fine. I was scared....I was terrified for us, all of us....including you. That is when Lyonel came in....he recognized you to be similar to one of his Lords and he decided to take you in...He.....He gave me coin to leave the Riverlands, knowing that the Fairmarket brothel would be destroyed."
I focused my Observation Haki on her, trying to get a hold of her emotions and her breathing. After a few seconds of scanning her, I deduced that she wasn't lying.
It was true.
"I ran.....I left you with him...." She said as she stood right in front of me, "I went to Lannisport and stayed there.....while you were with Old Lyonel. But before I left you, I gave you your name....did he tell you that?"
I nodded slowly, "Yes...."
She slowly reached for my chest, "I...." She said with a shaky voice, "I didn't recognize you back there, Ellion. You were wearing a mask and you were so big....and tall.....you still are.....to me, you were just another young knight..."
I looked at her, "You forgot the name of the son you had...." I whispered, "How could you....?"
Tears flowed down her cheek, "I'm sorry...." She said softly, "I truly am....."
"Everything is my fault."