It was a rainy evening, and the cold wind rolled the fallen leaves ravaging the city. Le Yao and I stood at the door of the city's Maternal and Child Hospital with umbrellas. In the crowd, she looked at me with a slightly pale face.
"Zhaoyang, I'm pregnant."
I was stunned for a moment, and then stared and said, "Find someone who made you pregnant. Why did you call me to ask me out?"
"I've slept with a man with you this year. Who don't I look for?"
"I said that I slept with a woman like you this year. Do you believe it?"
"Zhaoyang, are you a man?"
"Everyone is out to play. Don't rely on me for this kind of thing. If you want me to be responsible, just bring out some practical things. Don't play with me for no basis. Who is willing to be a confused father?"
Le Yao was silent for a while and said to me, "The child has been removed. Where is the certificate?"
I was a little angry: "Do you think I look like Kaizi? Your child was taken away, and then..." I raised my hand and said speechlessly, "Then, tell me that the child is my Zhaoyang's. Are you fake innocence or am I really stupid? ...Le Yao, we are all adults. Can we do something decent?"
Le Yao bit her lip and looked at me for a long time, "You don't want to be responsible, do you? I'll go to your company tomorrow..."
"Shit... What about you!" I said angrily.
Le Yao bit her lips tightly and looked at me, but I thought she was a good actress. I met her in the bar, and then we had a one-night stand. A woman who often went to the bar said that she had sex with a man with me in a year. If I believe her, I would be a fool.
I didn't want to be entangled with her anymore. I took out my wallet, took out all the 100-yuan banknotes and handed them to her: "Don't you want money? Take it. Don't bother me in the future!"
Le Yao didn't say anything and didn't bother me anymore. She nodded, turned around and walked to the hospital with an umbrella, as if there were any other outstanding expenses...
Looking at her lonely back in the rain, I suddenly had an indescribable emotion in my heart. Although I didn't believe that the child in her belly was mine, although I was tired of her, I felt that she must not have a good life now, otherwise she would not have been mold me like this.
I was silent for a long time and finally stopped her: "Wait..."
Le Yao looked back at me.
I took out a bank card from my wallet and handed it toShe said, "This card can overdraw some money. You have just finished the operation. Buy something to replenish your body."
Le Yao didn't answer: "...No, it's my purpose to see that you are willing to be responsible. I came to you because I don't want to be fooled and get pregnant in a daze!"
...
In the bar, I drank muffled wine while waiting for Fang Yuan, my only friend and colleague in the city.
From the first day I came to this bar, I have seen too many lonely women and empty men drinking all kinds of wine here, or silent, or looking for a "drunken life" with desire in their eyes.The thing of "dreaming to death".
In fact, when we throw away the body of the day and let the soul get lost in this bright red wine, we are already drunk and dreamy.
I forgot that since one night, I have regarded this place as a place to settle down. I like the women who twist their waists here, like the shaking lights, like all kinds of colors of wine, like the smell of perfume mixed with tobacco, like the drunken life and dream of death here, and then in the drunken life and dream of death, the messy past is engraved into a tombstone. .
Light a cigarette, smoke the film on the cigarette box, cover it in front of you, look at the swaying light, and your body is also swaying, refracted by the filmIn the light, I seem to see a kind of passable erosion! I can't help but be a little distracted!
...
Fang Yuan pulled off the film in my hand, and my world suddenly became clear again.
"What's the matter with me in such a hurry?" Fang Yuan put down the briefcase in his hand, took out a cigarette from my cigarette box and lit it for himself.
"Lend me some money, my TM has been extorted!"
"Did you make the girl's belly bigger again?" Fang Yuan said strangely.
"It's your uncle again! I was really blackmailed this time...""Who's torting you this time?"
"Why do you ask so much nonsense?"
"I borrow thousands or thousands of yuan from you every time. At least you let me know that my money was extorted by someone, right?"
"Le Yao." I lit a cigarette in anger and said.
"That flat model?"
"Isn't it just her? The noble circle is a thief. She said that she was slept by a man like me in a year. Do you believe it? Fang Yuan, this matter will be left to you. Do you believe it?" I knocked on the table with my excited fingers.
"This kind of thing can't happen to me. Besides, she won't cheat you for thousands of yuan. Last month, the promotional posters of our department store were all taken by her, and the remuneration alone was more than 10,000 yuan..."
I sneered and interrupted Fang Yuan and said, "Don't you see what she usually spends? Can more than 10,000 yuan be used for her for a month? Now I have an accident with others, and I don't have money to deal with the aftermath. I think of my cheap pao friend again... I'm really cheap. I shouldn't have kindly introduced her to our company at the beginning, and I didn't give her less money. Make money, and now you still cheat me. Do you still have a little conscience in the industry?"
Fang Yuan ignored my anger and asked me in a low voice, "Have you taken any measures?" After thinking about it for a long time, I only remembered that I was almost drunk at that time. I really couldn't remember it. For a long time, I said, "Surely... I can't say that I was cheated!"
Fang Yuan looked at me suspiciously. After a long time, he sighed and said to me, "Zhaoyang, we have been friends for almost ten years. Sometimes I really want to persuade you. I know that Jian Wei broke up with you, which is a great blow to you, but it's been two years. You really don't need to practice yourself like this... Youth doesn't wait for you. Find a girlfriend and get down to earth. , is it all right?"
When the name Jian Wei was mentioned again, I was subconsciously stunned and said, "Don't fuck. I'm free. I'm doing well, buddy!"
"There is no shortage of troubles! Right?" ...
Fang Yuan enlightened me for a long time, and I was impatient for a long time. Finally, he left a sentence, "Rotten mud can't support the wall", and left with dissatisfaction, but forgot that I borrowed money from him.
Fortunately, I have been in the bar for two years, and I often bring some friends to the bar to spend money. I know the bar owner well, and the consumption of drinking this time is temporarily recorded in the account.
Walking out of the bar and walking on the street wet by the rain with an umbrella, I really experienced what it means to be alone. I have struggled in this city for two years, and what I have gained is endless emptiness and loneliness. In order to get rid of this poison-like emptiness and loneliness,I have to wear a mask to hide my shame to live. With this mask, I can live in peace of mind.
But no matter how much I struggle on the edge of pain, she will never come back!
...
I walked several stops alone in my heartbreak before returning to the community where I lived. This is an old community, and the old community doesn't even have a property. On the first day, I heard from the aunts in the community that this community was built in the early 1990s. Under the erosion of long years, every building in the community looks like It's decadent, but one house is next to another, as if they are afraid of being lonely, so it seems that every building has life again, which makes me feel that when the night is quiet, they will also whisper a few words to get rid of decades of loneliness.
With a cigarette in my mouth, I took out the key from my pocket and walked to the building where I lived. This building is the only building with creepers in the community. Every summer, the walls facing south will be very green. If these buildings are also gender-different, then this building is undoubtedly a woman, an indifferent woman.
It often makes people feel sad for her!
...
What surprised me was that a red Audi Q7 was parked downstairs in this dilapidated building. In my memory, after living here for two years, there seemed to be no car of more than 500,000 yuan in this community.
Without thinking much about it, I whistled and walked along the corridor to the room where I lived. When I reached the top floor, I was surprised to find that the door of the room was actually closed. I remembered that when I left, the door was obviously locked. I subconsciously thought that there was a thief at home. After calming down, I remembered that I had not paid the rent to the landlord, Lao Li for two months. Mostly It was Lao Li who came to urge the rent.
Pushing the door open, the landlord Lao Li sat on the sofa with a strange woman. There was a string of Audi Q7 keys on the coffee table. There was no doubt that the Q7 parked downstairs was the strange girl's.
Then a question flashed in my mind: What is the magic of Lao Li, a marketer? It's really puzzled for me to appear in this simple room with such a noble and inviolable girl like a white lily! ...