CHAPTER 30 — "my strange addiction"
This track was playful, weird, and uniquely Billie.
She and Finneas built the song using samples from The Office episode "Threat Level Midnight," which Billie loved. The show's creators later said Billie was one of the only people in the world given permission to use those clips in a song.
But beneath the humor, the track carries a deeper meaning.
It's about being addicted to something — or someone — that isn't good for you.
It's about wanting something you know is dangerous, but still going back to it because it feels comforting or familiar.
It's not about drugs.
It's about emotional addiction.
A person.
A feeling.
A habit.
A thought pattern.
Something that hooks into you and becomes hard to let go.
Meaning:
"my strange addiction" explores the idea of loving something unhealthy. It reflects how humans sometimes cling to things that hurt them because the pain feels familiar or exciting.
Billie used humor and references from The Office to balance the heaviness underneath.