Bye"" I called after Sean as he slid in.
I walk down the road thinking about Sean. I used to be so annoyed at everything around me, not that any visible harm was always done to me but I could not help but be annoyed. The only exception to my anger issues were Kingsley and my siblings.
For two months now I've been angry at my parents and they are not even trying to make it right...
~
*Two months ago*
I was having one of my many moods; and decided to sit outside. I went on Twitter and found a group of people badmouthing an actor named Pavel phoom, I went absolute nuts and started ranting there but it was a good way to release the pent up anger I had in me.
That was when I heard my mom, I was sitting behind her window; outside. She was on the phone with someone which happens to be my grandma. My grandma has never visited us nor have we visited her;... not that I know of anyway. My parents won't tell us why we can't visit so I stopped pressing.
Now my mum was on the phone with her..."If we don't tell her she won't find out mama" she said.
I didn't pay much attention cause I figured It would be a mother-daughter thing but then she asked Ella my little sister to leave the room which was odd cause she never did that, Ella is just 9yrs old so she was still practically glued to my mom.
I glued my ear to her window to listen in and yes I know it's weird to evesdrop on my parents but she was being wierd and this is my grandma we talking about so...
"But Aivah has been okay since, we made the choice for her as her parents and how were we supposed to know that we chose the less dominant one and besides we already got her drugs to stunt them" she whispered as my breath caught in my throat. I felt anger surge in my throat as I stormed into the house, I didn't even care to knock on her door before pushing it open.
"What was that supposed to mean?" I asked as I tried very hard to keep my seething anger underneath.
"I thought you went out" she says as she walks toward me...
I take a step back my anger finally over the top... "I never said I was leaving and that is not what I asked mom" I stared at her waiting for her to answer.
But her expression which was sad before in the blink of an eye turned brute..."Are you mad? Why would you raise your voice at me, do you know how many things you have done that are threatening to make me mad? yet here you are questioning me. I think you have been soft parented for too long, get out of my room" she yelled.
When I didn't make any move to leave, her right hand came crashing down on my face with great force, I couldn't see my face at the moment but I could tell her fingers were imprinted on my face cause it stung.
I looked at her with tears running down my cheeks and a feeling which I can only describe as disappointment threatening to suffocate me. This is not the only time she has hit me although on other occasions I had been bad which I have been for a pretty long time but this time she hit me just because she didn't want to answer my question.
I walked out of the room just as she was about to speak, I didn't know what she was about to say but I know it wouldn't answer my questions so I left or ran rather...
I ran to the playground, I tried to figure out what my grandma was talking about but I just couldn't place my hand on it.
I slept there for what felt like hours. I woke up with a start as I took in my surroundings before remembering why I was there in the first place. I grudgingly walked home, my father was back by the time I got home.
He was sitting on the porch; "Good evening sir" I greeted as I sat down beside him.
"Where did you go princess?" He smiles down at me.
I wanted to tell him I was at the playground but instead I said "Is there something you and mom are supposed to tell me that you not?" I saw his smile disappear into a frown but I was not in the mood to care for that at the moment; "and does it have anything to do with the reason we don't see grandma" I asked all tenderness gone from my eyes at this point.
"Don't tell" we both turned around to see my mum standing in the doorway.
I looked at my dad who now looked like he was suffocating, seeing him at that moment I knew he won't answer my question since mom told him not to, he was more afraid of my mom than anything else.
I stood up and took the painfully long walk around the house to the back, I would rather go that way than walk past my mom. I walked into the house and past the kitchen; my siblings were watching a show when I passed them.
I sunk into my bed and fell asleep. Again.
~
*Present*
I looked up the road to see Henry, I made to hide but it was too late... "Hey stupid" I swallow before stopping to acknowledge him and his lackeys.
"Mmm" I murmur as he looks me up and down... "Cat got your tongue?" He roughs my hair up before continuing "Boys this is aivah" I watch them as their eyes widen. "Wow, she appears fiercer than we were told" one of the boys says as the others nod in agreement.
Judging by Henry's expression he didn't like that they found me fierce, he always this inferiority complex and a disgustingly jealous tendency but he didn't direct his anger towards them, the motherfucker turned to me. "Did you think that moving would make it impossible to find you?" He throws his head back in laughter as he gives a look I am way too familiar with and at this moment directed at me making it far more agonizing.
I don't answer and he continues.
"I saw you with Jeffery's brother and I am thinking it is a good idea to let him know" my eyes widen in shock at his words, I didn't know Sean was related to jefferyand he is someone I don't want to cross and he also happens to be in a rival cult and I have crossed him once and do not plan on doing so again.
"Or for the sake of old times I won't tell jeffery but I will tell his brother who you really are" he says all amusement gone from his eyes.
I know I just got together with Sean and I know he has feelings for me but I know for sure that if he hears half of what I have done or the fact that I was ever in a cult, he definitely won't see me the same way anymore.
"Pls don't" I managed to say... "I have helped you cover up many times and you owe for all those times so pls don't tell"
"I forgot you used to be dumb, I can't believe you actually thought I liked you" he croaked amidst laughter... "But I do owe you still so you will have to choose and believe me when I tell you that this is best I can do for you"...
I narrow my eyes because he was starting to sound the way he did when he betrayed me over a year ago.
"You let my boys take turns fucking you...while I watch of course and I won't mention to anyone about ever seeing you or you break up with Sean" he says with a smile I would love to punch right back in.
"Why are you doing this? You don't like me and you are not gay so why the second option?" I ask almost whispering cause am trying to control my anger...
"Why? Oh my dear Aivah watching you suffer gives me more joy than you can imagine..." He breathes down my face with both his hands on my shoulders.
He smelt like weed and vodka...ewww.
"I will break up with Sean then"...