What a vivid day it was. I can't recall that day. Is it spring? But Rose's bloom in during June.
These must've been forced to. It's petals are no different from an autumn's leaf.
I got lost in the world of marshmellos and chocos. Everything was alright for those seconds. The light shut down. Huh it's not gonna flicker?
June taps my fingers to wake me up.
"huh," I was here again, back in reality. "sorry I... Just got lost in thoughts..."
"Thanks for the hot choco. It's brighter than the last one." I start taking slow sips of the Choco shake again.
June sits on the chair opposite to my bed. She looks so small.
"Why was she awaiting for me?"
Her fingers, soft and round I could squish them. Hair as long and short with cute bangs.
Slightly parted lips, looks as if she has a whole chapter to spill.
I had forgotten. Everything...
"Hold my hands... D-dont let go... I-ill save you... I- i," a voice that sounds just like me screamed in my head. But, it sounded like a ghost, something that I could never see or tell. The fragrants... It's rotting my head.
"June..." I whispered softly
She looked up to me, her dreamy eyes, relentlessly tiring and soothing to look at. It's strange.
"Who... Who am I?"
Roses are not always Red. If you put them in a vase, they'll take the colour of the water. It depends on what you dye it.
I might've asked the wrong question. But I want to know. I really want to know.
"Are you sure?"
"Yes"
"Don't be stupid"
"What do you me-"
I got back to reality. Waiting for an answer from June. But as I looked at her.
She was restless. Her fingers shaken, as if she had seen the scariest thing in the world.
Maybe that's one way to tell that.
"The Rose shed it's first petal."
I pressed on it, "W-who am I..." My head started hurting again, my hands swayed around as if its searching for response, "Why am I awake... I-I-I should've been sleeping..." My breathes impulsive and fast, "Why... My head hurts... The smell of sweet flowers... It's deteriorating my head..." I press my head with my hands. It felt as if its about to explode.
June didn't say anything, she couldn't, she launched herself towards me and wrapped me around with her desperate arms.
She held me with all her might. A high pitched whine comes out of her, the sound of a wounded animal telling me to stop, please stop.
"s-stop..." I struggle against her, "Let go off me... I want... I want answers..." I press on it further
She keeps holding me tighter and closer.
I, almost about to break, my voice cracking, "Why does it bother me... Looking at you... Looking at her... It's too noisy..."
She wouldn't answer but scream and cry at me. I start to beat her back telling her to let go. She wouldn't, she burried her face into my clothes sobbed into it, her warm and wet tears were all over, anchoring me for reasons I didn't and wouldn't want to know.
I hastily start crying too. "Why... Why!" My hands search for something to hold on but it was just the cold air.
"I want to slip off everything." Series of thoughts started running through my head "But she keeps holding me. Why is she holding me. Why do I want to slip off everything. I can't remember."
"I forgot."
"Sorry."
After a long cry I feel asleep into June.
It's soothing. It really is. I want to belong here.
"Kira how are you!"
"I'm good! It was a tiring day but I feel alright now!"
"Yayy that's good to know! Wanna go grow some sprouts with me? Or have a picnic together? Everyone is waiting for you!"
"Yes let's go! I wanted to see you guys too!"
Everything is so green and blue and red and yellow.
"Look I got this honeysuckle seed!"
"Let's plant it!"
"Woah it grows so fast kira! It is already starting to bloom!"
"Woah really! Huh? It's wilting already!" pouts.
"Oh no! What do we do!"
"Hmm. Maybe if we chop down this rose it'll stop wilting?"
"How's that so?"
"It'll stop taking all the water and the honeysuckle could bloom! :D"
"Pfft you silly. It's not the Rose's fault."
"Then? What else could be the problem?" Pouts.
"It's..."
"Huh... Friend... What happened?"
"It's... It's yours-"
[Midnight 3:xx am]
It's dark now. Soft air breezes throught the window gap, it's cold. And I'm alone in the room.
"Where am I again? What's this. This place?"
"The light... It's off..."
It's freezing. The door is shut and no one else is here. Smells of the room is irritating and bland. "It looks like I'm in a hospital."
The moonlight lit the room aglow with a soft hazy foggy blue-ish tone.
Insects hum the song of serenity. While the winds play the flute of eternity.
"It's beautiful," it caught my gaze. I somehow stumble out of my bed and crawl towards the window. My knees shake for mercy. My fingers are numb. My head is fuzzy as it has always been.
I reach the window pillar, used it as support and tried standing. My arms feel as if it would snap at the weight of my own body. "T-he... Stars" my breathes become heavy, yet I keep struggle for it.
I finally managed to climb to the window pane, my first achievement ever since I woke up to this red world. The pillar holding me up so I can see. I slide open the glass pane.
A cold breeze enters the room which feel vividly warmer.
"Hahh!" my eyes sparkled. "Shooting star!"
At this time I had forgetten the world exists.
"I should make a wish!" I clasp my hands together, shut my eyes closed and pleaded with all my heart, "God please give me tons of chocolate tomorrow!"
Slowly, I opened my eyes, "Woahh" and to my surprise!
"I'm outside! The fireflies! The grass! The moon! Its all so beautiful!" I shout with joy and run around the field. "Smells of grass" as I roll around it.
"The air is warm. It feels so comfortable..." I say as I lay flat on the patch of grass.
"I'm a free bird!" my arms and legs feel light. The moon shone as bright as the sun. It was no longer the smells of chemicals and medics.
"I wish."
Inhales, "Woohoo! I'll never leave this place!"
"Everyone says that" a distinct voice cuts the atmosphere and brings me back to the room.
The flower continued rolling down the hill. Is there even an end to this slope?
My knees are desperate as ever and my arms feel the weight of my body. "Fuck this... Stupid dreams... It only takes people higher for a greater fall"
I shut the window with all my might left.
"Why!" I raise my voice. "This! Whyy! God why are you doing this to me! I don't want to feel good! I don't want to feel sad! I just don't want to feel ever again!" my legs tremble for a break.
"Just..." I lose my energy and soften my voice... My legs gives up and stumble back to the floor.
As I lie on the cold tiles, sniffs and sobs, "why... Just... Cough cough sniff ... Please ... I'm tired ... God ..." I start wailing and crying while my hands try to comfort my tears.
The moon stretched a long ray of light. Almost as if it were pointing at someone who can't get up by themself.
"I want... I want to sleep... Someone... G-get me to the bed..." I plead someone but no one.
My breath hitched as I wave at ceiling. "Please... It's cold and hard... P-please"
I feel rejected. The moon didn't bother to look at me. It had sunk behind the walls. I'm barely holding my breaths.
"Look even the stars are looking down at you!" the voices are back to bully me. "You think someone will come for you? Are you stupid? You're not in some fantasy idiot. It's the real world. Nothing goes as you plan. And you got scared of it so you decided to disappear. What did poor little Kira expected? I pit-"
"Shut up!" I instinctively reject my past. It sounds like nothing than a new tale that I definitely hadn't heard. "Leave me alone!" I say as my hands struggle to squish my head.
The color of the hazy atmosphere had changed. It turned brown red with a tone of harsh blue. The shooting stars were going the other way around.
"Is it denying my wish?"
It's the reality
My hands beg for the cold sterile air to pick me up. But it rejects me too.