I always wanted to die. After all born as a mistress daughter my whole life was done for. My whole existence itself a sin to religion and disgusting to the eyes of the public.
Still Like a cockroach I am. I managed to survive pass the age of sixteen.
It was an age for a woman to gain a lot of attention. Be it negative or positive.
In my case it was negative.
People who could have pass as my grandfather drawn into me like pack of dogs in heat and I was not exactly innocent.
Perhaps a part of me wanted the attention, the gifts and everything really.
It started with a single line. I did it in a random Tuesday after losing my purity.
Then it continued on.
I'm eighteen now.
Well supposed to be eighteen that is..
If I don't drown in my own blood tonight.
It was a disaster waiting to happen... For someone like me. Well at least I didn't didn't die a mistress who still expect to be chosen by the end of a man who only want someone to vent on.
Still it's so unfair. Why? Why am I even born? Why do people who are incapable of loving themselves choose to bring a sentient being to this world?! FUCK!
I'm so angry..
Why do you have to be my parents.
I wasn't too much.. I wasn't too much, I just.. Your just incapable. So Incompetent that's all.
So why. Why as I choke on my own fucking blood do I still..
Still..
I opened my mouth to speak, only to be met with nothing as my wind pipe had been damaged by that one swift cut to neck.
"Mama.."
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Landicho Sunshine. 17 Years old
She went missing at May 3 20XX
Last spotted 3:59 pm wearing a blue shirt, Black pants and black rubber shoes. She was seen riding a black car and was never seen again.