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Chapter 56 - Chapter 7: A Different Kind of Distance

The following Monday, Daewon noticed that Aera wasn't waiting at the school gate.

Usually, even when they arrived at different times, he could find her somewhere nearby.

Sometimes she stood beneath the covered walkway with her camera hanging from her shoulder.

Sometimes she sat on the low wall beside the flower bed, looking through photographs.

Sometimes she arrived just as he did, and they would walk through the gate together without saying much.

That morning, she wasn't there.

Daewon checked his phone.

No message.

He looked toward the entrance again.

Still nothing.

For a moment, he wondered if something had happened.

Then he saw her.

She was coming from the opposite street.

Her camera was in her hand.

She was walking with another girl from their year.

Daewon recognized her vaguely.

Yuna.

They had spoken a few times during school projects.

Yuna was holding a small notebook and talking animatedly.

Aera listened.

Then she laughed.

Daewon stopped.

It wasn't because Aera was with someone else.

It was because he realized he had never seen her laugh like that at school.

Not often.

Not with him, either.

The thought surprised him.

He had always thought he knew Aera well.

But there were parts of her life he hadn't seen.

And suddenly, he wanted to know them.

Aera noticed him.

Her expression immediately softened.

She said something to Yuna before walking toward him.

"Good morning."

"Morning."

"You've been waiting?"

"Not long."

She looked at his face.

"You look confused."

"I was wondering who you were talking to."

Aera glanced back.

"Yuna."

"I know."

"We're working on something."

"Photography?"

She nodded.

"Kind of."

Daewon looked at the camera.

"What kind of project?"

Yuna approached them.

"I'll tell him."

Aera laughed.

Yuna looked at Daewon.

"We're putting together a small photography submission."

"For school?"

"No."

Yuna opened her notebook.

"For a youth photography exhibition in Seoul."

Daewon looked at Aera.

Her expression changed slightly.

Not nervous.

Excited.

He realized immediately.

"You didn't tell me."

"I was going to."

"When?"

Aera thought about it.

"Today."

Yuna laughed.

"She's been saying that for three days."

Aera gave her an embarrassed look.

"You're not helping."

Yuna grinned.

"I'll see you after school."

She waved and walked ahead.

Daewon watched her go.

Then he looked at Aera.

"You really are doing it."

Aera smiled.

"I think I'm going to try."

"That's good."

"I haven't decided if I'll submit anything."

"Why?"

"What if it's not good enough?"

Daewon smiled.

"Then you'll know what to improve."

Aera looked at him.

"You make everything sound easy."

"No."

He shook his head.

"I'm just tired of you deciding you're going to fail before you start."

She stared at him for a second.

Then laughed.

"That's annoyingly reasonable."

"Thank you."

"I wasn't complimenting you."

"I'll take it anyway."

At lunch, Daewon sat beneath the usual tree with Minji.

Aera wasn't there.

Minji noticed his expression.

"You're looking at the door."

"I'm not."

"You are."

"I'm waiting."

"For Aera?"

Daewon didn't answer.

Minji smiled.

"Relax. She went to the photography club room."

"They don't have a photography club."

"They do now."

Daewon looked at her.

"What?"

Minji shrugged.

"Three students started meeting there last week. Yuna, Aera, and someone from Class 2-1."

"Why didn't I know?"

"Because you don't know everything Aera does."

Daewon leaned back.

That sentence stayed with him.

He knew it wasn't criticism.

But it made him uncomfortable anyway.

Not because Aera was hiding something.

Because he had unconsciously started thinking that being close to her meant he should know everything.

Maybe that wasn't what closeness meant.

Maybe it meant being happy that she had things that belonged only to her.

He looked at the empty space beside him.

Then smiled.

After school, Daewon went to the art room.

Seojun was already there.

He was working on a large sheet of paper.

Daewon placed his sketchbook on the desk.

"What are you doing?"

"Trying something different."

Seojun didn't look up.

"Street photography."

Daewon blinked.

"You?"

"I draw streets all the time."

Seojun finally looked at him.

"But I keep making them look empty."

Daewon remembered their conversation from weeks earlier.

"You still think that?"

"Yeah."

Seojun held up the drawing.

A street.

A convenience store.

A bicycle.

A row of apartment buildings.

Everything was technically correct.

But it felt lifeless.

"How do you fix it?"

Daewon thought for a moment.

"Don't draw the street."

Seojun frowned.

"What?"

"Draw why someone is there."

Seojun looked at him.

Daewon pointed toward the drawing.

"The bicycle isn't interesting."

"The person who left it there might be."

"The convenience store isn't interesting."

"The person buying something at midnight might be."

Seojun stared at his drawing.

Then slowly smiled.

"You've changed."

Daewon looked at him.

"How?"

"You used to tell me to fix the lines."

Seojun tapped the paper.

"Now you're telling me to find the person."

Daewon looked down at his sketchbook.

"Maybe I learned something."

"From Aera?"

Daewon didn't answer.

Seojun laughed.

"Thought so."

Across the school, Aera sat in an empty classroom with Yuna.

Several photographs were spread across the desk.

Streetlights.

A bus stop.

A woman carrying groceries.

A boy sleeping against a train window.

A bakery just before opening.

A rainy crosswalk.

A pair of shoes left outside a classroom.

Aera looked at each photograph carefully.

Yuna pointed to one.

"This one."

Aera shook her head.

"Too obvious."

"What about this?"

"Pretty."

"That's good."

"But it doesn't say anything."

Yuna leaned back.

"You've gotten picky."

Aera smiled.

"Maybe."

She picked up another photograph.

It showed an old apartment hallway.

There was a child's drawing taped beside one door.

The drawing was faded.

Aera stared at it.

"This one."

Yuna looked.

"Why?"

"I don't know."

"That's usually your answer."

Aera smiled.

"Because I want to know who drew it."

Yuna studied the picture.

Then nodded.

"Okay."

Aera placed it separately.

One photograph.

One possibility.

One small story she didn't know.

When Daewon finally met her after school, the sun was already low.

Aera was carrying her camera.

"You waited?"

"Yeah."

"Sorry."

"You don't have to apologize."

She looked at him.

"You stayed in the art room?"

"Yeah."

"What did you draw?"

"People."

She smiled.

"Really?"

"Sort of."

They started walking.

For several minutes, neither said anything.

Then Aera spoke.

"I joined a photography group."

"I know."

She looked surprised.

"Who told you?"

"Minji."

"Oh."

Aera looked down.

"I was worried you'd think it was strange."

"Why would I?"

"Because we always do things together."

Daewon slowed down.

Aera stopped too.

"I don't mean I don't want to do things with you."

"I know."

"I just..."

She searched for the right words.

"I want to see what I can do by myself."

Daewon nodded.

"Then do it."

She looked at him.

"You're not upset?"

"No."

He smiled.

"I'm actually proud of you."

Aera's expression softened.

"Even if I get busy?"

"Even then."

"Even if I don't get selected?"

"Especially then."

She laughed.

"Why especially?"

"Because you'll need someone to buy you strawberry bread afterward."

Aera smiled.

"That's your excuse?"

"Yes."

She looked ahead.

"Then I hope I fail at least once."

"Why?"

"So you can buy me strawberry bread."

Daewon laughed.

"Deal."

They reached the small bridge.

The same bridge where Aera had taken the first photograph for Things Worth Keeping.

She stopped.

"Do you remember?"

"Of course."

She lifted her camera.

"This was the first one."

"Yeah."

She looked through the viewfinder.

"But it feels different now."

"How?"

"Before, I was taking a picture because I wanted to keep the moment."

She lowered the camera.

"Now I want to understand why I wanted to keep it."

Daewon smiled.

"That's a big difference."

Aera looked at him.

"I think so."

She raised the camera again.

This time she didn't photograph him.

She photographed the bridge.

The river beneath it.

The empty path.

The evening light.

Then she lowered the camera.

"Do you ever worry?"

"About what?"

"That we'll become different people."

Daewon thought about it.

"Yes."

Aera looked relieved.

"You do?"

"Of course."

He leaned against the railing.

"But I think becoming different isn't the problem."

"Then what is?"

"Forgetting to tell each other who we're becoming."

Aera stayed quiet.

Then she nodded.

"I like that."

"So?"

"So I'll tell you."

"Even if it's something I don't understand?"

"Especially then."

Daewon smiled.

"Okay."

She held out her hand.

He took it.

They stood together above the river.

For once, they weren't talking about staying exactly the same.

They were talking about changing.

And somehow, that felt less frightening when they said it together.

That night, Aera opened her dark blue sketchbook.

She had been using it for photographs, but she still wrote in it sometimes.

At the top of a blank page, she wrote:

Things I Want To See

Then beneath it:

Places I haven't been.

People I haven't met.

Things I don't understand yet.

She stopped.

Then added:

The person I become.

She stared at the sentence.

Then smiled.

Across town, Daewon sat at his desk.

He opened his sketchbook.

Instead of drawing Aera, he drew himself.

Not his face.

His hands.

One holding a pencil.

The other resting beside an unfinished page.

He stared at it.

Then wrote beneath the drawing:

Maybe growing up means learning what to draw when the person you love isn't beside you.

He closed the sketchbook.

Neither of them knew exactly where their dreams would lead.

For the first time, they weren't trying to solve that.

They were simply beginning to walk.

And the distance between them wasn't something to fear.

It was space.

Space for two people to become themselves.

Then return to each other with something new to share.

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