Why am I such a heartless person? Is it all my fault? Or is it just the way I was born? Sometimes a person needs a real break from it all. I don't know, I feel close to Genzo.
Bitch, I'm not gay...
Genzo stood up, stretched, and took out his phone. Hmm... what time is it already, 7:50? I'm still not over it, I might not go to school today... [MOM] Make me some scrambled eggs. Genzo slowly stood up and opened the window slightly to let some fresh air into the room.
Renji: Today you go to work alone, I'm sick. [Written by Genzo].
Renji stopped abruptly and again felt the metallic taste of copper. Why is this always with me? I always feel a metallic taste mixed with self-pity, and why? While Renji stood there, he leaned over a little, his gaze fixed on Kaoru, who was standing behind him. No smile, no smirk, nothing. She just came a little closer.
Renji: K-Kaoru... what do you want?
Kaoru looked at him silently and lit a cigarette. By the way, she had been smoking the whole time she was standing there, but even now she didn't give a damn about this fucking world.
Kaoru: You don't know what you're saying. Maybe these people will need you now?
Renji: What do you want? You came here to talk about your philosophy. I won't call you a monster, I won't hate you.
Kaoru: Cute. ^^
Renji looked at his neck; there were marks from strangulation on his neck from yesterday; he had slept very poorly.
Kaoru: You know, Renji, I'd like to say one thing: does the thought of being killed excite you?
Renji: Uh? What are you even talking about?
Kaoru bent down and grabbed Renji by the throat again. She pressed herself against him, and he looked at her with fear for a moment. He looked into her eyes, there was no soul in those eyes, and there shouldn't have been.
...how do you like it, son of a bitch? How do you want to experience closeness to death? Then I'll give it to you.
Renji: You're not empty, you're not human, you're not the devil, you're not God, you're not Satan. Who are you? Kaoru... agh...
Kaoru: What... what? Haha, it's so cute the way you choke.
Kaoru let go, and Renji bent down, trying to come to his senses. "What did she just do? This is stupid." Kaoru stepped back and said quietly:
"As I promised, every day I will beat you or strangle you. You will always feel close to death. In the end, either you will kill yourself, or I will tear you into pieces and kill you." This is a fairy tale about reality.
Renji looked at Kaoru. He remembered she had said this before. And you know, I'm not afraid. I'm not afraid of the perverted souls of people, they don't scare me...
"Kaoru, aren't you afraid?"
Renji walked slowly. Two hours had passed since then. He didn't know why... why she always raped him like an experiment, like a lab rat.
Renji approached the small building. As usual, it started to rain. The rain gave off a vibe of emptiness and a murky future. The chief stood near the trucks, they were still empty. He looked around and saw Renji.
Boss: Renji, are you back to your old ways? I told you so.
Renji: Sorry, I can't come early... •_•
Boss: Okay, get to work today. You're alone. And where's Genzo?
Renji: Ah... Genzo must have gotten sick.
Boss: He gives it too. Okay, I'm off. Good luck with your work.
Renji: Good luck to you too.
Renji started unloading the cargo. A lot of time had passed, and suddenly a message came on his phone. Wow... Genzo wrote: "Fuck your side... Yeah, I'm waiting near the cafe today. Please come on time." I'll write "okay" and continue working.
Boss: Renji, someone came to see you there. Some Aya and Raiden, your classmates. You can probably go out.
Renji: "Aya... I don't want to see her, no." Yes, yes, I'm leaving now.
There were two people standing in the doorway: a tall guy. The shirt was dark, and long purple hair fell down his back. A girl... no, that femboy. And Aya. They stood and said something to each other.
Renji wiped his hands and slowly walked up to greet Raiden.
Renji: What came?
Raiden: I see here, Renji, you got a job and decided to just see what kind of job it is, and how are things going for yourself?
Renji: Everything is fine in principle, but why did you bring her?
Raiden: Aya... look at his neck, his arms, they're all mangled. What did they do to you after school, Renji?
Renji: N-nothing special. It's not that... I just fell. Why did you bring her?
Raiden: .... Renji, what's wrong with you?
Aya looked down. She didn't know. She was ashamed and sorry at the same time that she had sex with Ken. Sometimes it seems like everything in the world has changed. Relationships are worthless. Everyone demands something, regardless of gender. The world is crumbling before our eyes, and we sit there, wondering what we can do? It's not the world that has changed; it's us who have become people we weren't as children. Time has run out... and beyond it lies the eternal darkness of the future. Why did everything turn out this way? I don't want to, I can't? Renji asked himself a question.
Renji: Raiden, I know it might be a shame, could you please leave?
Aya: Renji, forgive me, forgive me for everything... I'm stupid, I'm dumb, I'm sick, I have dementia.
Raiden: Yeah, let's go. We already said it once.
Aya: Renji...
Aya came too close, way too close. Raiden meanwhile left, obeying Renji. Aya sucked Renji's lips right in front of everyone. The kiss was greedy and deep, with a moan. Aya moaned right into Renji's mouth. He stood in a stupor, then slowly pulled away. Renji turned around, covered his mouth, and left without saying anything.
Day after day a new darkness is born. And what will follow?