Lin Yue was washing dishes by herself after she finished eating dinner. Something strange happened then. A memory from a time ago popped into Lin Yues mind without any warning. Lin Yue found herself in a place and a different time. Lin Yue was back, in her life, the life that Lin Yue does not have anymore.
It was an evening in September three years ago. Lin Yue was cooking dinner in their apartment, in Hangzhou. She was making mapo tofu, which's Zhao Juns favorite food. Lin Yue was cooking mapo tofu because Zhao Jun really likes mapo tofu.
Tiantian was in the living room. She was sitting on the carpet. She had her coloring books with her. Tiantian was humming a song to herself. Tiantian had put on her pink dress. the one with pretty white flowers over it. Tiantian also had her butterfly hair clip in her hair and they look really cute on her.
The door had opened. Zhao Jun had come home carrying his bag that was full of papers from the classes he taught. Zhao Jun was a teacher at a school. He was the kind of teacher that students would remebre for years . They will think about him long after they had left the school where Zhao Jun taugt literature.
Zhao Jun loved teaching literature and his students loved him. Zhao Jun was a good teacher.
Something smells really good. Then he kissed Lin Yue on the cheek. He did this in a way that made it seem like Lin Yue. He were two people who knew each other very well. Lin Yue and he were comfortable together like Lin Yue. He had been a couple for a long time and Lin Yue. He still had feelings for each other. Lin Yue. He just seemed to fit together like Lin Yue and he were meant to be, around each other.
Tiantian heard her father voice. She ran over to hug his leg. She said "Baba look, at this picture of butterfly that I drew today". The picture of the butterfly was colored in a lot of purple and green it was really pretty.
Tiantian was very happy to show her father the picture of the butterfly she draw. She held the picture of the butterfly high so that her father would see the butterfly.
The three of them sat down for dinner together at the table. Tiantian talked a lot about kindergarten. She said all sorts of things about kindergarten. Zhao Jun shared stories about the kids he teaches. He told them about the kids he teaches and what they do.
Lin Yue just listened. For the part Lin Yue just felt happy, about how ordinary and nice it all was. They did not have a lot of money. They had each other and that seemed like enough for the three of them for Tiantian and Zhao Jun and Lin Yue. They had each other. That was what mattered to Tiantian and Zhao Jun and Lin Yue. Lin Yue felt happy about the life they had.
They had Tiantian and Zhao Jun. Lin Yue had each other. That is what really mattered to Lin Yue. Lin Yue was happy to have Tiantian and Zhao Jun in their life. Having Lin Yue and the people they care about was what made life good, for Lin Yue.
Zhao Jun was drying dishes after dinner. Then he remembered something. He said to himself that he needs to go the pharmacy to pick up his mother medicine. Zhao Jun had promised his mother that he would get her medicine today.
Zhao Jun was thinking about his mother medicine and the fact that he has to get it from the pharmacy. He did not want to forget to get his mother medicine.
Zhao Jun needs to pick up his mothers medicine from the pharmacy. He has to do this because he promised his mother. Zhao Jun was thinking that he really needs to get his mothers medicine.
The pharmacy was all the way across the city. It was going to close at ten. The time was already, after eight. He had said that he would take the car. The pharmacy was really away and he thought the car would be faster so he could get to the pharmacy.
Tiantian had looked up from her coloring. "Can I come with you? I want to go"
Zhao Jun was not sure first. Then he said okay. Lin Yue helped Tiantian put on her jacket. She made sure the little clips that looked like butterflies were tight, on Tiantians hair. Lin Yue and Tiantian stood by the door. They were all ready to go with Zhao Jun.
Lin Yue told me to drive. I have to be really careful when I am driving that is what Lin Yue said. Lin Yue wanted me to make sure I drive carefully. I will do that. Lin Yue said it is very important to drive.
He said that he would do this always. He promised that he would be there for the person every time. The word always meant a lot to him. He kept saying that he would always be there that always was a deal, for him and he promised always.
Lin Yue had gotten up. She was sitting at her laptop at eight forty-seven. Lin Yue was working on a design project, for Lin Yue. Lin Yue really wanted to finish this design project before they got home around nine-thirty. Lin Yue did not want to be stuck on the design project when they arrived.
It was getting late nine thirty had already passed. Then nine forty five. Went. Before I knew it ten o'clock was here. At ten fifteen she decided to call Zhao Juns phone. All she got was his voicemail. So she tried calling Zhao Juns phone at ten thirty.
The worry about Zhao Jun was getting bigger now. It was really hard to ignore the fact that Zhao Jun was not answering. The thing is Zhao Jun always answered his phone no matter what. This was not, like Zhao Jun all it was really strange. Zhao Jun always picked up his phone. This was really weird.
At eleven oh three her phone rang. It was a number she did not know. The police officer, on the phone was really nice. Sounded like he knew what he was doing. He was very kind when he spoke to her. He said "Is this Lin Yue? Are you the wife of Zhao Jun?"
Then he told Lin Yue that she needed to go to Suzhou First Peoples Hospital away. The police officer said something bad had happened to Zhao Jun. Lin Yue had to go to the hospital because something bad had happened to Zhao Jun.
The world had really taken a turn. "Are those people going to be okay?"
Ma'am you really need to come to the hospital. The doctors at the hospital will be able to tell you everything when you get to the hospital. They can explain what is going on to you at the hospital. You should go to the hospital so the doctors, at the hospital can talk to you.
Lin Yue had grabbed her purse and run out then she flagged down a taxi. The taxi driver drove fast without asking Lin Yue anything. The trip to Suzhou was really weird. It felt like it took forever to get to Suzhou.. At the same time the trip to Suzhou felt like it was over too quickly.
Lin Yue thought about the drive to Suzhou the time. The drive to Suzhou was still, on Lin Yues mind.
The hospital was really bright when they got there. It had these lights all over the place. A police officer took her to a waiting room at the hospital. This police officer was a guy and he looked really uncomfortable. You could tell that the police officer did not know how to give people news about what was going on at the hospital. The hospital waiting room was where she had to wait for news, about the hospital.
Mrs. Lin I am very sorry to have to tell you this. Your husband died at the scene of the accident. The accident was really bad. Your husband did not suffer. He died away it was very quick. The impact of the accident was so severe that your husband did not feel any pain when he died.
Lin Yue had heard what was said. It did not make any sense to Lin Yue. "What are you talking about, what about my daughter?"
The woman is in surgery now. Doctors are trying to help the woman. They really want to make sure the woman is okay.
The woman is their concern at this moment. Doctors are doing a job, with the woman. They are working hard to help the woman.
Lin Yue held on to that thought. Tiantian was alive. That is all that mattered to Lin Yue. Lin Yue kept telling herself that everything would be okay. Lin Yue really needed everything to be okay, for Tiantian. Lin Yue thought that long as Tiantian was alive then everything would work out somehow for Lin Yue and Tiantian. Lin Yue just wanted everything to be okay because Tiantian was alive.
She had to sit in that room with the chairs and the television that kept going on and off. The television was on some show. She was not paying attention to the television. Time was not moving all. She was. Waiting and it felt like the clock was not moving. The room was really small. It felt even smaller because she had been waiting in that room for such a time. The plastic chairs in that room were not comfortable to sit on.
The television, in that room was really getting on her nerves. She was still sitting in that room with the chairs and the television that kept flickering. The room was really boring. The chairs were not comfortable at all. The television was the thing to look at. It was just hanging on the wall. The picture was not very clear. The woman was still waiting in that room with the chairs and the flickering television.
A doctor came out. This doctor was a woman. The doctor was very tall. The doctor looked like she knew what the doctor was doing. The doctor was still wearing the clothes that doctors wear when they operate on people. The doctors face looked really tired. The doctor also looked like the doctor felt bad, for someone. The doctors face was sympathetic. The doctor was a woman.
Mrs. Lin I am Dr. Xu, the surgeon who operated on your daughter. I need to talk to you about what happened to your daughter. We did everything we could to help your daughter..
The truth is your daughter was very badly hurt. The injuries your daughter had were just too serious. I am very sad to tell you that your daughter died. This is a difficult thing for me to say. Your daughter died during the operation. It happened at three forty-seven in the morning.
They let her see Zhao Jun and Tiantian. Zhao Jun was lying on a gurney. He looked like he was sleeping.. Something did not feel right. Zhao Jun was still. He was not moving all. Zhao Jun just lay there quiet.
Then she saw Tiantian she was really small on that gurney. Tiantians face looked calm. There were no marks on Tiantians face. The little butterfly clips were still, in Tiantians hair.
Lin Yue stood next to her daughters body. She felt a pain, inside her chest. This pain was something that Lin Yue could not make better. Lin Yue touched Tiantians hair. She fixed one of the clips that was holding Tiantians hair in place.
The clip was okay the way it was but Lin Yue fixed it anyway. Lin Yue did this because she wanted to do something for Tiantian. She wanted to take care of Tiantian. Lin Yue felt helpless so she fixed the clip. It was something that Lin Yue could do for her daughter Tiantian.
When the sun came up a police officer took her back to Hangzhou. He took her to her apartment. Everything in the apartment was the way she had left it.
Tiantians coloring books were over the floor.
The dinner dishes were still in the drying rack.
Tiantian and the others were not coming back to Hangzhou.
Tiantian and the others would never come back to her apartment, in Hangzhou.
Lin Yue was standing in her apartment. It had been three years now. She was washing dishes and her hands were still in the water. Then she thought about the past. Lin Yue took her hands out of the water. She dried them doing it slowly. She was being very careful.
The things Lin Yue remembered were still very clear, in her mind. These things still hurt Lin Yue a lot.. Lin Yue had learned to deal with the pain. She could put the pain aside. Lin Yue could lock it away so she could keep going with her life. Lin Yue was doing okay now. Lin Yue had to do this so Lin Yue could get things done and do all the things Lin Yue needed to do every day. Lin Yue just had to do it.
The plan was what kept her grounded. It gave her life some order when everything else was falling apart because of the loss of someone she loved. The plan was her way to stay in control. It helped her to deal with the loss she suffered. The plan was important, to her because it gave her life some sense of order.
The memories would be too much for her to handle if she did not have the plan to fall on. The plan is what helps her deal with all those memories of her past. Without the plan all those memories would be really tough for her to cope with.
The plan really helped her. She used the memories of the loss. The loss was the reason that made the loss a big motivator for her to keep going with the plan. The loss made her more determined to stick with the plan.