Muze yad nhi kab se,, lekin ye yad hai ki mai main sabse thoda alag mehsoos karta tha.
College ka pehla din tha. College campus students se bhara hua tha. Aur mai ek shy insan, bhut nervous ho rha tha. Dost??are dost bnana to jese muze math ka difficult sum solve karne jesa hota tha. Mere school friends(ya yun bolo bas name ke dost) , sabne apni best friends ke sath khin aur admission le li. Aur mai har baar ki tarah akela. Ab ye saari baate apne dimag mai lekar mai apne college enter hua. Muze yad hai,,, ek ladka jisne admission time par mere sath admission krvayi thi,, by chance muze udr bo mil gya. Aur jab mene usse pucha ki tumhara roll nber kya aya hai-usne kha 15.mai khush hua (pta hai kyu,,, kyunki mera 14 tha). Usne kha,, kya hum sath mai beth sakte hai?? Muze abi bi yad hai,, mai lunch lekar gya tha aur bo nhi laya tha. Isliye humne ek he tiffin mai lunch kiya tha. Dil mai uske liye koi feeling nahi. Bas muze to ek dost ki need thi jo shayd school life mai muze nhi mila. Maina socha shayd esse meri dosti achi banegi. 3 din best gye,, hmari dosti start hui he thi ki... Ek ladka jiska roll no. 16 tha,,, usne muze kha can we sit together?
Me be like - school. Mai to koi dost nhi banta tha aur idr 2 dost milege. Mai us din bhut khush tha. Time chlta gya... Hmari dosti ko 6 month ho gye. Muze roll. Number 15 se baat karna bhut acha lagne laga. Muze esa laga jaisa jis insan ko mai dhund rha hoon bo bohi h. Lekin fir bo dar,, esko bi yeh pta chal gya ki mai Gay hu to ye bi school friends ke jaisa dosti tod dega. Islie apni feelings andar he daba li. Muze aj bi yad hai. 8 january 2018 ko maina roll no. 15 ke lie jo feelings thi,, bo roll no. 16 ko btane ka faisla kiya. Aur mene use bta diya. Uska reaction kaafi normal tha jab use pata chala mai gay hoon.
Agle din roll no. 16 ne mere sath bethna chor diya. Jab mene aur roll no. 15 ne reason pucha to usne kha,, Tu beth es chakke ke sath mai nhi beth skta. Aur muze aj bi yad h,, kese roll no. 15 ne mere lie ladai ki thi. Jisse meri feelings uske liye aur bad gyi. Usne muze samzaya ki apne liye awaz utha, Mai tere sath hoon. MAINA DECIDE KR Liya ki ab mai usko yeh bta kar he rhunga ki muze tum pasand ho. Islie agle dineri favourite bali black shirt daalkar usko yeh btane ke liye nikal pada ki mai tumhe like karta hoon. School campus mai pahuncha lekin es baar bo nervousness nhi thi jo first day thi. Us din hmara sirf ek lecture tha,, esa lag rha tha ki bhagwan ka ishara hai,, kar de propose. Hum ne plan bnaya ki hum aj ghoomne chalte hai. Ek park mai aakar hum beth gye. Mai filmy style mai propose nhi kar sakta tha,,, Islie maina use dosti ki kasam dekar ye kha ki jo mai bolunga,, use sune bina mat jana. Usne kha pakka nhi jaunga. Us din garmi to kaafi thi,, aur propose karne ke dar se mera matha aadha aur garm Ho gya tha. Mai usko sab sach bta diya ki muze ladkiyan nhi ladke pasand hai. Mai use bta diya that i am gay. Uska reaction bhut normal tha,,, .
Maina use kha ki muze tum pasand ho. Aur bo hasne lag pada. Muze bhut he ajib feel ho rha tha. Maina kha mai sach bol rha hoon. Muze tum kaafi pasand ho. Usne kha - ok, i respect your feelings. And can i say something.
Mai kha bolo. Usne kha i am bisexual too.
Aur mera reaction bhu mixed tha. Us moment par muze lag rha tha ki kaynat muze usse milvane Mai lagi thi. Usne bola ,, tum dosti karoge? Maina kya dost to hum hai he.
Park Mai koi bi nhi rha. Usne park se flower toda aur kha- will you be my boyfriend?
Us din mai kaafi roya. Shyad khushi ke aansu.
Maina haan Bolte he usko galle laga liya. Muze esa feel hua jaisa main ab poora ho gya. Kaafi baat karne ke baad hum apne apne ghar chale gaye. Raat bhar chatting,, rat ke 11 baje video call par baat. Pehle kisi se esa nhi hua tha islie kaafi acha aur naya ehsas tha.
Agle din humne decide kiya ki hum classes lagne ke 2 hour pehle he college aa jayege taki baate kar sake. Bo mere liye chocolate leke aya tha. Aur mere andar se to jaisa ek bacha jaag gya ho, maina saari chocolate akele he kha li. Ek,, 2,3 month best gye aur hmara bond build up hota gya lekin 3 month ke baad ek aisi chiz hui jisne muze aur hamare relationship ko hila ke rakh diya . Uske aane ke baad.... .....