Why i did it
There were a few reasons why. The first is because my father, the greatest man to ever walk this planet, wished for me to do great things.
My father was a wise man, irritated by the world in which we live. He decided to guide me along the paths of righteousness and how to properly guide a society.
Each of his words is another lecture, another lecture, another teaching. Another teaching, another lesson that I could live by and use to re-work society as a whole.
For example one day he said "Noah, you're strong. Stronger than most. So you need to learn how to control that strength, if you don't. Your own arrogance and pride will consume you"
Another quote would be "always chase knowledge, you could lose everything, however knowledge can never leave you"
Another one of my favorites is "don't stress about tomorrow unless you can change it, don't stress about today unless you can change it, and don't worry about the past because you can't change it"
These quotes and many many more helped build me into the man I am today, though I faltered and fluctuated, though I changed and am idiotic, I return to these quotes to help guide me.
Now i didn't do all of this because of those words alone, sadly there was a need to get my hands dirty. Thankfully most of the work was done for me, however I needed to start it all.
Who guided me? Who showed me the path in which the most optimal outcome would be presented? God, of course.
I prayed day in, day out. I waited for the right moment day in, day out. I dirtied my name, created villains, sparked a change in society, guided many to look upon pressing matters, changed the fates of many unfortunate souls and built an empire that's waiting for me to claim.
Still, I have yet to be finished. There is much that needs to be done. And there is much more I plan to do.
God, I know you look upon me. I know that you see the fates of all and I know that everything will soon come to an end. Just know i tried to save everyone as I had hoped, I had tried to convince everyone as I hoped. Not everyone can be convinced, not everyone can be saved nor satisfied.
Forgive me for my inability, forgive me for my foolish ways and forgive me for my actions. Once I am finished, once I have finally done what I was put on this earth to do, then I will be finished.
I wanted it all, I wanted my family to obtain what their hearts desired. I wanted the ability to make a change. I wanted to make my father proud even if i had to do some disgusting things to do it.
I allowed for foolish people to continue doing heart breaking things all for the point of.
As they say, to make your friends rich and your enemies rich and see which is which.
Another reason was because I wanted to show the ability for a human being to change to become better. Because if someone like i could, then so could everyone else.
I got tired of waiting for the world to change, I got tired of waiting for some hero from a fairy tail to show up and save the day, catching all the bad guys and protecting everyone.
Heroes don't exist, they never did. I'm here to show that the hero you want, the hero you need is imperfect. Just like you.
I'm here to show you that the "hero" isn't some super powered(kinda) righteous person who made all the right decisions. I'm here to show you that the real heroes are the ones capable of changing themselves so that they can change others. I'm here to show that the heroes are the ones who stop at nothing to help others and to create a better tomorrow. I'm here to show that everyone is capable of being the hero.
I'm going to show the world that if you want a change, if you really care. You need to actually be willing to sacrifice everything for your goal, while still making violence not the answer but an example of what can happen when ignorance and misguidance are interconnected.
I have come far, but I couldn't do it alone and I still can't. That's why God, and family were needed. And that's why through them, influence on many misguided, ignorant to the truth, people was needed. To create a power capable of creating a chance for a change.
Even now, I show you just what I want you to see, I know you're watching. I know you've been watching. And let me say this, I've got you.
To my friends let this be comforting, to those who wish me harm, let them remain in ignorance till the day comes, for nothing is worse than being sheep to the wrong shepherd.
Why did I decide on what I chose? If it wasn't enough it would be blown off once more, too much and it would just be too gross for even me to stomach. Something just right, something I could get enough attention over.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm a weirdo, a loser and an idiot, im responsible for my own actions. But I'm an idiot with a plan, one that's successful.