Kale's pov
It was never my intention to go against someone's wishes or try to change their mind or even persuade or convince them of something, I guess all my life I never cared enough to do that.
Now I'm literally compromising my values to fulfill the desire that is inside of me, thinking about my values, it made me think more and ask myself this question
These values of mine, are they really principles I'm conscious of and decide not to break them or just old habits that stuck with me for a long time because I didn't care to change them or try something new, do I have reasons why I don't engage in certain things and they form principles for me.
The answer is, not every of my actions are controlled by my values or principles or beliefs, most of them I just don't engage in it because I couldn't care less or i just want to have as minimal contact with people as much as I can still function as a member of the society.
So I came to the conclusion that I didn't really compromise my values for Amory by deciding to go against her wishes and be more than friends with her, because the so-called principle is not even a principle in the first place.
I was at the study of my apartment as I spoke to God and said everything that has been going on lately and also justifying what happened at the bathroom stall, and with Amory, it was just something new that I had to understand and accept but I wasn't sure so I asked God.
What if it doesn't work out..
I mean what if it all goes wrong and I'm not even supposed to start anything at all with Amory
I mean I never thought I had it in me to kiss her like that, I went totally out of control, letting my desire spiral out of its reigns.
What do I do with myself?
I didn't hear or get any response from him, whether it's by reference or simply speaking to me directly through inspiration, nothing was coming so I sighed and leaned back on the chair I was sitting in, closing my eyes briefly.
But I couldn't shake of that feeling of dread that comes with the knowledge that I know deep inside of me, even if I heard him in clear and unequivocal words telling me to leave Amory alone, I still wouldn't, I didn't need anybody telling me that, I could already feel it even before she met me at the bathroom.
And the moment her lips were on mine and I consequently kissed back I knew I was already damned, so I told her the simple truth, that I won't be leaving her alone anything soon.
Now all I can think about is her and how her face looked the last time I spoke to her and left without her replying me, I have never kissed anyone like that before, the funny thing is that it was not even preplanned, it just happened automatically and before I could control myself I was already acting in the heat of passion that I didn't even know existed inside of me.
" What are you thinking so hard about"
My voice turned to the owner as she came and sat opposite me at the table
" How much I have changed for such a short span of time " I said not looking at her
"Well that's true for a fact, I mean the change is massive and anyone who knew you before, would not believe what is happening now"
" Yeah, did I change that much " I said a low chuckle leaving my lips
" You literally made out with a girl like a starved man and in a bathroom too" Olivia said as if she still couldn't believe I did such a thing, I don't blame her, even I didn't expect such a thing from me.
" I like her... I like Amory" I said in a calm tone,
" Of course you do, you , didn't even notice I was there and watching, I mean I even took evidence " that made me narrow my eyes at her
" What, you don't expect me not to do something in that situation, I mean Mom will need evidence of whatever I'm going to tell her, so yeah I took evidence " she said seemingly proud of herself
" Olivia delete whatever video you took at the bathroom, that's offensive " I said looking at her
" I didn't take any video, I just took a picture that mom will easily recognize you, don't worry her face wasn't visible "
" You don't need to show her anything Olivia, she will only demand I come back "
I said
" Which is better, I mean that's the point is it not ??"
"Olivia.." I started and she interrupted
" Come on, you haven't been at home for over a year and it's only proper that they worry about your well-being, and I miss you being in the house, just come back during the holidays " she said now standing to meet me at the other side where I was sitting , when I didn't say anything, she pursed her lips and pouted
" Please Kale, I really want you to be back home this holiday" she continued in her efforts to convince me and I sighed
" Okay Olivia I promise I'll be back during the holidays but I need your help with something"
" Okay, what it is it "
" I told Amory I'm not going to leave her alone anymore and I meant it but I don't know what do from here, I just know that I want to be close to her all the time "
Olivia didn't say anything, she was just kept smiling at me
" Well are you going to say anything " I asked
" I'm so sorry,I just didn't know a day like this will ever come in our life when you ask me how you're going to pursue a girl " she said cleaning the fake tears in her eyes,
Olivia is too dramatic for her own good.
" Well there's really nothing there, I mean there is a long list of things to do to woo a girl but it still depends on the girl and it's usually just flows if the other person already likes you" she said after sometime
" Ooh" I said
" What I mean is that, Amory already likes you, just go with what she likes and appreciate, and get to know her "
" You think she already likes me"
" Ooh please it was out for everyone to see, I didn't even do anything with you today but she was red with jealousy, I wanted to test her a little bit it was way too easy, couldn't even last a day" Olivia finished chuckling to herself
" What do you mean by that, Olivia?"
" Why do you think I bothered you the whole of yesterday at school for a tour and decided to clingy to you all day, I was watching her expression whenever I touched any part of your body and it was deadly, she was literally staring daggers at me"
I was truly dumfounded as I stared at my little sister but she just laughed in amusement and stood up to leave the room
" Just make sure you ask her out on a date, and take her to a nice dinner, works everytime "
She said before leaving.
Ask her out on a date.
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I wanted to impress a girl but I didn't know how, I mean it just seemed as if everyone knew what to do except me, I felt lost on how to start or what to say, I'm not always one to go first, they always come to me, but this one is different and I have to go out on my way to do it.
The weekend was over and it's already Monday, I haven't really figured out what to do and Elijah wasn't helping at all, he is trying to have as much fun as he can while teasing me and bringing up absurd things for me to do to impress her, like changing the way I look and dress or inviting her to my place and walking around shirtless.
Olivia has left too,
So I decided to figure it out on my own. I believe that at the end of the day I'll know what to do next. I haven't spoken to her since that day and do I want to...
It's a need right now.
But I avoid her instead today, I want to meet her at least when I'm sure of what I want to say to her clearly "
I successfully do that till it was time for our lunch break and someone slipped me a note which I opened.
Meet me under the cherry tree
I didn't know the sender but it's under the cherry tree and that could only be Amory, she wanted to meet, why??
Was she going to tell me she's no longer interested and I should forget about it, what if she realizes I don't even know what to do even for the basics in terms of dating a girl, yeah she will definitely leave.
And that was how I went to meet the girl I liked under the cherry tree overridden by nerves but still going regardless, it's most likely not going to be nice because when I'm nervous which hardly happens, my thoughts become jumbled and the next to do I not say or do anything to prevent my brain from shutting down, so I just sit still and listen.
Yeah I'll definitely ruin it.
I got to there and I find Amory sitting down and looking away from me, she didn't notice me approach till I was beside her and she turned to me
" Hi Amory" I greeted with a smile
She took me in, staring at me in a way that made me self aware, her eyes was raking through my body, before she brought her eyes down and biting her lips
" Ugh... I wanted to apologize for what I said to you the other day, I didn't actually mean any of it, I just had some issues and took it out on you"
When I didn't say anything she continued
" I was being ungrateful to you, after you took care of me in the hospital and just wanted to be my friend but I was just being a bitch and said those very mean things I .. I didn't mean them"
I was still perplexed as I stared at Amory, this is another side of her that I have never seen before. She was apologizing and not justifying her actions but then she was doing it in a way that just left me speechless.
And I couldn't help but think, what other sides of her haven't I seen or experienced, I wanted to know about her, everything about Amory, I wanted to decipher her and find out every side of her, good or bad, I wanted it all.
Instinctively I stepped closer to her but she was still not looking at me, so I mirrored a ghost touch to her face, before I allowed my hand my contact with her cheek, pushing the hair out of the way
" Amory look at me" I said
" Are you taking back everything you said to me that day" I asked and she nodded eagerly, her eyes looking glossy
" Then it's no problem, we are back to being friends just like before" I reassured her and she nodded again but she was still not happy or smiling
" Is there something else..." She brought her eyes down looking around everywhere but me
" Ugh.. it's nothing, there's nothing, I I'm happy you forgive me" both my hands moved to bring her face to focus on mine
" Don't lie to me, what is it Amory"
" Well you said you didn't want to be friends, I mean didn't you want to be more than friends? I mean you even returned my kiss, did you change your mind?"
" No" I say simply
" You just said we are back to being friends" she said, her eyes going back to look glossy, is she about to cry
" Ooh, I didn't mean like that" I said
" I mean we are friends now and I don't intend to leave it that way, I want to be more than friends with you"
I finished
" Really?" She asked and.i nodded
" You didn't even call or text me over the weekend and you were clearly avoiding me today" she said and I couldn't refute it
" Ugh.. that was.. I .. I was thinking about what to do, I mean how to get you to be with me"
" Be with you ? " she asked with a look of amusement on her face on my choice of vocabulary
and I nodded, not knowing what to say " like Dating right??"
" Yeah, I want to court you Amory, would you let me??" I asked and she just stared at me unable to hide her smile
" Well did you figure out a way" she asked and I nodded
" Would you go on a dinner date with me ??"