There were two people who were really helpful in the beginning. The breakup with separating from Amanda Ei was devastating. I was thankful. I tried being nice and kind to them. I showed them my true vulnerability because I was extremely broken due to the amount of Devasting Tragedies I was forced to go them? These two? The same pain, but even worse than what Amanda Ei is. They gave me water and fed me, then I started trying to stabilize myself. I thought maybe I could actually rely on them for once.
[Borderline Personal Disorganization has been extremely triggered]
Traitor #1:
"You act like an immature child, I am exhausted of babysitting you."
[The Raging Regressor is extremely enraged and would like to slap him.]
Traitor #2:
"I don't want you to spiral but-"
[The Secretive Summoner had absolutely F**KING LOST IT.]
Everything seemed to be fine, I was bonding with them, and I acted like a child because I am so traumatized that I have age-regressed. The fact that they clearly don't have enough trauma to fully understand what it's like to be AGE REGRESSING OUT OF PURE PAIN.
[The Raging Regressor has chosen to be even more extremely aggressive than usual due to the Duo Traitors, who are now treated as enemies who can no longer be trusted in order to prevent the same tragedy from happening again.]
[The title of The Raging Regressor leaning to be a Dictator has started to grow because of countless bad endings that everyone has chosen.]
[Nobody understood why the Raging Regressor is called the Raging Regressor and no body even wanted to try. They simply wanted to avoid him because his burdens were too much. He struggled to protect himself, and the only thing that accompanied him was a Handsome Korean Man who taught him how to use incite]
Manipulation Distortion has been triggered
{ Traitor #1 and 2: You were supposed to have done better- What the f**k is wrong with you. You're just another kid who should be punished for absolutely no reason! You don't deserve love or happiness! You deserve only pain and forever pain! }
[A very deep boundary has been crossed, and the Raging Regressor has a deep desire to hit him back to fully force him to understand that expecting us to "be better" is the worst choice and the greatest insult that anyone could say to us. If anyone says this to the author, they are telling me that I should be choosing Death in a "Life or Death" situation.]
[The Sexual 4 Core Gem has slowly grown after this situation]
The sexual 4 core memories of [Everlasting Pain] include being backstabbed, betrayed, and misunderstood countless times, which no one can understand.
The Narrative has chosen to call them traitors. If these traitors ever want to give me REAL PEACE, they should leave me alone.
I was never allowed to be my true childlike and teenage self. I tried thanking them, and yet it didn't work. How many bad endings do I have to endure just to find someone who wants to understand me in this world where I have been failed at least ??? times by now?
[Another tragedy has started to bloom]
[I....~^~$##&**~am..108418230 always...01284191-ew9 alone.]
[sanity is in the negatives for a long time now]