How could that weird looking thing be me,its impossible.
I tried to deny the truth that was laid bare before my eyes,not wanting to accept the reality that was weighting my heart down. I tried to avert my gaze but couldn't turn my head towards anything else other than what I had been looking at for the past few minutes. It was as if I was locked in with my own reflection,held captive by my own eyes watching me. I looked confused and sad? Very painfull to see,but...
Had I ever felt this way or had I ever felt before.Was this the first or could it be that I can't remember when or what I felt with my blurred mind.
What was going on?I couldn't differantiate the difference between reality and dream.
It all felt unreal and made up. Was this some kind of sick joke? Or was this just the reality?I didn't even know how to put the pieces together when I didn't have a single clue about anything. How did I even end up here,I don't remember coming here out of my own accord,or laying down fully asleep in the middle of nowhere.Where am I?!
I was starting to panic,since thinking about the situation at hand started to make me spiral. I started to walk around in circles while muttering to myself in unintelligible words. I suddenly felt that I was getting closer and closer to ground.Thats when I crashed into
the little pond because I fell face first before I could understand that I had lost my balance
I am completely soaked,what am I gonna do.
I don't know what time it is or when the sun will set. What if I catch a cold and get sick. What if there are monsters and they attack me. If I get sick I can't run away,and where even am I supposed to run towards to escape here...
Sob..sob, sniff
I'am scaredd ,waaaa sniff
W-what am I g-gonna do sob
I was starting to feel the reality settling.Feeling scared,I even started crying.Basically wailing non-stop like a broken toy.
Waaaaaaaaaa it's not fair,this is not fair. What did I do to deserve this happening to me. I dont want to be here,I dont like this,sniff. What kind of a sick joke is this sob sob.
My tears were falling endlessly and there was snot coming out of my nose smeared all over me.Since I couldn't breathe while crying with a stuffy nose,I got up to find a wide enough leaf to blow my nose with while crying.
I dont know anyone... I don't even know who I am,sniff
I grabbed a wide enough leaf, trying to empty my full nose.
Sniff , sniff.
I wiped the snot left on my nose on the leaf and threw it back to the ground. Walking towards the spot I woke up,kicking up few rocks at the same time.
So this is it, my first ever memory...
Am I considered newly born or just came into existence out of nowhere?so if I was born today is today considered my birthday or what? How am I supposed to feel about all of this,damn it.But if I am born or came into existance in some way, then what am I..?
I looked down at myself and slolwy started to examine my body,it was white and I had short stubby legs,
whatever they are. I didnt have anything to hold something,there was only nonexistent arms in the place of where flesh should have been. That if I could even call it arms even if there was anything to hold
objects with.Then how did I pick up the leaf from the ground and blew my nose??
I looked back at my body in a scared but kind of curious way.Curious about how it came to be.Since I had to figure everything by myself,I had to have start somewhere.
I touched and felt around,trying to see what I was made of. Of course,I couldn't come to any conclusion.
I tried to rund around,to jump,to spin around.It was a whole new world I was experiencing for the first time.
I tried to touch my long and pointy nose with my useless ,made of air,arms. There were no nostrils but I could breathe. I even had snot running down my face just a while ago.I went back to the pond to look closely at my face.I didn't have two eyes, only one eye , unlike what I thought I had. Then how did I see so well? It didn't make any sense to me.Frankly speaking ,it really didn't make any sense.
Wow,I exclaimed with amazement
I looked really weird,totally like a creature.
What am I?
I asked myself repeatedly,trying to find answers.
I guess that was a question worth asking,but a question that I didn't yet had the answers to.It maybe was worth asking ,but asking later would be much wiser.
Perhaps much much later.